the broken filament sputters a last white hot bright ideation to the grass always being greener on the suicide still the electricity bites amd snarls a manic hurricane bearing down on an unready shore i was asked once if i ever wanted to be normal and all i could ask was what normal was semi-autonomous […]

there is a zenlike quality in growing out a beard a facial topiary follicled bonsai resculpting ugliness into a less repugnant disambiguous haze

i wish i were less change resistant amd more efficiently stain resistant a monochromatic tye dyed soul leeching sorrows from the æther rather than let myself be swept by the currents a goddamned liar writing shitty odes to drowning yet afraid to take the final plunge withering away on a desolate beach hoping to see […]

silence is so heavy for all of its weightlessness contagious despite being an absence less illness than infection a stale rot which settled deep in the marrow of who we were adding anxiety until only i was unaware despite deep adoration conveyed her emotions were now past tense the only tension keeping memory afloat had […]

i don’t feel poetic as of late more barely held together with frayed knots tied in afraid nots duct taped and clinging on by a wing and a prayer to the emptiness above as within may we rise once more from the ashes of another dead construct and praise the next inherently meaningless ploy by […]

putting myself into the mindset to write requires folding my mind into ceaseless heartache knowing if i do not feel every ounce of it neither will anyone who bothers reading i get consumed by these stories bludgeoned bloody to tell the tales screaming in my head fallingdowndowndown into personal hells reliving lies told as adorations […]

if imitation is truly the sincerest form of flattery why is it so fucking frustrating seeing people whose entire online personas are copy pasted from my profile they adopt mannerisms and idiosyncrasies and i cannot tell if they believe no one notices simply because they do not acknowledge it or if they think they are […]

the true ache of listening to love songs comes when you know the story behind words recorded in total dedication resonating through the listener who wants that feeling all for themself unaware of the agony when this perfect emotion shatters to dust for every immaculate ode to adoration comes fifteen more reiterating the pain which […]

there is a fleeting disambiguous anxiety crackling in the air an ever tightening web stinging nettles in panicked fireworks exploding across flesh i vibrate in time with universal atrophy losing potency as the shifting sands fill the glass terrarium in which i am trapped tapping a desperate coda

she came to me in a dream last night her ephemeral beauty matching the stars and when i awoke i longed for insomnia to keep me safe from her smile again my dreamcatcher snaps and snarls overfed and sullen from the aching reminders keeping a fool lost in miserable complacency burnt one too many times […]

chipping away at crystallized scar tissue trying to mine peace of mind from this hell which is mine alone i drip i love yous like poison pitting carefully etched exorcisms on demons howling delusions in dimunitive despair

between the fog billowing and clouds hanging i cannot seem to separate the gray above from the gray below i prefer pastels pinks and lavender sea green and robin egg blue the same shades which once stained my fingers as i dyed eggs as a child now hues of passions died in silent suffering winter […]

i’m a little poet filled with doubt a bipolar fountain where words come out inherited scars and accumulated bruises with a paper mache heart he quite often loses staring into darkness the epitomy of alone tapping insipid verses into the æther from my phone

accumulated slights accompanied by accidentally on purpose dispersions we are all little more than ticking time bombs awash in chemical delusion between the anxiety and the stress i don’t know if i will blow my top or blow a fucking gasket but it feels dangerous for all involved i don’t tend to cry out for […]

i always try to recalculate the angles as i plummet downdowndown into another one of my patented doom spirals thinking maybe this one can be pulled out of right before i smash the ground unthinking to the factual evidence all around there is no bottom just endless falling until i eventually fully fade away

rudderless adrift on madness using the wrong points of reference to gauge exactly how lost i truly am seeking signs in sinking sorrows for some sort of salvation from the screaming in my hollow skull hearing nothing except echos eerily elongated in the fog numb from the icy water i am taking on deadened limbs […]

mercury is in retrograde which means absolutely nothing unless you think the orbital pattern of a burnt rock somehow affects your brain chemistry millions of miles away the belief stars separated by literal light years form an animal only seen on one backwater planet which define a personality even though half those lights have been […]

farewell to a year filled with broken promises and outright lies the bitter silence of being cast aside the fundamental failings fragmenting an unfocused fool as he goes ignored by those he put first

swept away in the tendrils of the maelstrom icy daggers tear through my already tattered tender leeching color from the world anxiety screams everything and everyone is out to destroy me they aren’t probably i feel about sixty percent sure it is all in my brain but there is always room for doubt the fool […]

something so easily given and just as easily broken be it my heart or my trust i need to learn neither will be treated correctly then i will be less disappointed all the time

every nerve feels exposed i don’t have any reason for it yet the anxiety screams on a loop all i can do is breathe through the razor wire straightjacket even as each hesitant expansion slices deeper leaving gelatinous cubes quivering in dissonant malaise nervously exposed with every agony casually flayed and displayed for your viewing […]

i would prefer the cracks racing down my facade were signs i am hatching from this too tight shell not simply falling into pieces again whatever beast lurks within this egg can consume my mind as nutrients to feed the ravenous hunger reabsorb any pieces to be choked on later as long as this aspect […]

iexist momentarily amoth starving todeath mouthless bouncing against awindow meremillimeters fromfreedom idie abilliondeaths lessereachtime iamforced toreawaken askywithoutstars aseriesoftemporary foreversimploding ifapoetsighsalone doesitmakeasound orisitfiledaway asunnecessarypretention ijustwanttosleep butsheiswaiting atthreeamshehovers abovemybedsmiling ijusttellheriloveher andstareuntohereyes untilthealarmrings

am i here or is this another set piece of mind fuckery meant to fill me up with anxiety? i lie skinless in a storm shower of earnest tears my heart slamming my splintered ribs a herd of horses spooked by thunder.

there is an elemental electricity curled into the shape of a heart in my chest letting out static bursts which crackle with every bated breath the first rule of electricity is it simply wants to go home from the moment the plasma boils it streaks unerringly toward the ground maybe this explains why i am […]

i need a new carrot rot has fully consumed the one bobbing in front of me and the stench is making me nauseous i have grown to despise carrots yet i chase them because i don’t know any different six feet lies between dream and forever yet i dream of impossible forevers wasting both

the last strangled gasps of a rather momentous yet painful year fading leaving new puckered scars amongst scraggly white hairs as a fool finally cracks free of the chitinous weight anchoring him in hell it took too long to see when love goes silent it doesn’t need time and space unfortunately for a fool that […]

i can get so obsessed with the now i forget the construct of time keeps flowing until now becomes then and the future is suddenly and inexplicably now with no warning i lose months in the minutiae in a story or a pit i dug seeking an escape it’s nearly xmas not that it matters […]

it’s the microcontractions in the iris the eyes aren’t a window to the soul they are simply the key to each an every thought you can see the shifting spectrum of emotion the crackle as a spark forms the soft care the ferocious heat be it passion or furious rage or watch the embers where […]

stayed up most of last night minding the corpses with strings tied to silvery bells just to be sure they remained corpses while saying my final tear stained farewells my soul is nothing more than a bundle of sticks foolishly lashed together to make a raft on which to surf the whitewaters leading to a […]

this unrelenting unwillingness to conform leaves a dipshit doggedly self destructing stumbling blindly slapping at hands which only seek to provide guidance falling downdowndown into his own failings pissing into fans then cursing the rain a non-profit prophet profiteering on prolifered prophecies pandering to the plagarists in plaintive pleas left in rambling odes in god’s […]

some cycles are more vibrant painted by external stimuli making even the lowest lows sorrowful beauties those are the best when i can find silver in every cloud lately it is all granite blocks in irregular shapes i cannot hope to successfully navigate alone those sharper shadows snap and snarl in snideful snark saturated sanctimonious […]

i am a dust devil spinning in place a collection of detritus accumulated in bipolar resonance i have nothing to say except the same things i have already whispereredtodeath i feel as circular as the fallacies dancing around me failing to find any point whatsoever

the city workers dwarves in florescent vests setting up bright orange pylons as they prepare to shovel asphalt into treacherous pits among the bustling chitinous beetles i find myself buried between my coins barely settled as they swarmed around i sat as a bus squeezed past sure i was losing a mirror or returning to […]

the expected autumnal array infected by a mutated shade of maroon among skeletal limbs grasping fitfully at the azure sky leaves a bare panic percolating in absurdist woes driving down roads multiple iterations of who i once was drove leaving scars in static bursts where i lose track of the rambling narrative rusted oil derricks […]

dolphins use dimples on their snouts to sense the electrical currents of prey buried in the silt these vibrissal pits attuned to the slightest chance in frequency leads them unerringly in the dark i imagine the oscillating currents constantly zapping my brain would lead to disharmonic seizures leaving a pool filled with mad dolphins slamming […]

i dreadgoing to bedunsure ifinsomniac knottwisting orthose painfulslivers ofinsidious dreamblossoms inhalf rememberedsmiles sharperthan any bladeawait me a day spentexhausted or onespent achinglonging to havebeen enough fora happily ever afterafter one too manynear misses has leftme gunshy and quitecontentedly unwillingto let a few dreamsbamboo slivers slidslowly into my nowvented ventricledo more than slowlybleed me out intechnicolor […]

my gray matter is infected with dreamweevil larvæ littering each errant thought with a chilled whimsy at odds with the dissociative fugue sitting heavily in the manic mind of a lovelorn fool

the madness screams so loudly i can only murmur it isn’t real among the rigorous slamming of doors in my brain everyone hates me i am grotesque sickening a pathetic little fool worthy only of pity the anxieties frolic through my porous veneer a paperthin membrane filled with helium bouncing on mania in a tempest […]