last night i saw her once again haunting my dreams so i explained gently to her her constant excuses and shifting of blame in the real world meant i didn’t need to see her in dream she hurt me through neglect then pretended she was innocent as always and now i long for sweet dreams […]

being honest with one’s self when you cannot see yourself becomes another endless pursuit for answers in the funhouse of mirrors residing in chemical soaked folds amidst a lightning storm disillusioned by delusional dismay an anarchist awash with anxieies as another tsunami washes the words into a technicolor sluice where every important bit is buried […]

darkness lurks in the golden penumbra swirling specks of sickness coloring the edge of dawn in a disheartening variance of vertiginous volume which swallows nascent hopes still budding on the branch an anxious electricity crackles with each new disparity in disparaging i believe i have become two dimensional in this land of fully flawed delusionary […]

i am a dangling participle a dreary dromedary drifting aimlessly across the burning sand my soul screams in inconsolable selfenforcedsolitude leaking ink into a failing system of circulatory surrenders where her smile carves flesh from bone

the apartment shuddered as thunder rumbled across the filthy city filled to the brim with heartshatter a shifting landscape where huddled masses yearning simply to be seen slowly trundle out into the autumnal baptism washing away the scars where summer singed hope into ashes running down the swollen gutters on these cracked asphalt scars connecting […]

the breezeway seemed wider tonight in a hard to describe yet unsettling way it was the same in almost every miniscule detail except it appeared nearly cavernous nefarious in dimly lit understated tones of unbridled hostlity teeming just at the edges of vision yet the tension is palpable beyond the keen of mortals it beckons […]

i recognize the contradiction in my diction as i lay another row of bricks to cask of amontillado myself away from everyone and everything whining in semipoetic heartmurmurs for salvation from the archvillain of my story only seen in momentary glimmers on reflective surfaces as i recycle agonies to put myself in the right mental […]

these times when i don’t trust anything my broken brain projects i try to cease thinking and let instinct take over the only issue is my instincts are as faulty as the chemistry driving this meat suit skirting calamities ignoring i was the cause of as the scenery blurs and a fool is uncertain if […]

each breath feels less substantial vacuous in volume as i aspire to asphyxiation an empty vessel bereft of value the sole survivor of soul desertion in sentimental breakdowns daily forced amputees tapdancing innocently on innocuous minefields her razor wire wrapped heart bleeds belligerently in abject denials i sputter along well past my expiration dateless in […]

i cannot tell on any given day if i am witnessing a menagerie of sheer absurdity or if i am one of the unwitting performers in a prison of my own fretful design doomed to a one man breakdown in shimmering arrays of bipolar static for the enjoyment of no one whatsoever assaulted by this […]

ravenous while raving madly at the spiraling moon beset by blinding disintegrations in an absence of actualities as the sun begins the long ascent in sizzling quasimeandering tonal waves of total silence madness grips too tightly to a flailing fool contemplating drowning in an abandoned pool

it is hard not to become dejected by all the rejection to not feel defective in lack of retention when hydrogen bonds go up in flames it doesn’t take a detective to see from my skewed perspective each time another prospective avoids my detection in all the times left in the dark if i am […]

the combined turbulence between the different bpds leaves me feeling phantasmal in my own purgatorial wandering while i flounder in a pool of self doubts two inches deep drowning in a fit of mental paralysis as i wonder what it is which makes me lesser than incrementally there is no place for me in this […]

the phrase under the weather infuriates me we are all subject to full immersion in the patterns blanketing the entirety of the globe now i am under the weather while a virus runs rampant an illness not born of the clear summer skies nor from encroaching autumnal shifting i am multiplicitively under the weather when […]

a literal lifeguard watching the interconnectivity betwixt souldander surrenders perched far enough away to never quite frolic in the refreshing spray too browbeaten and disabused of the notion of joy to do more than watch my heart is the wrinkled bill which finds only rejection when used for change bleeding dayglo krylon in insipid neon […]

my work takes me to higher end apartment complexes where the most complex ideal is the terrible decorations which are meant to seem lavish yet mash together in a hodge podge which says nothing in overabundance i like to stare at the paintings seeing hidden currents in the brushstrokes to find the soul of the […]

the more people look the less i have to say as i fade into a vaguely human stain for the life of me i cannot figure out what it is they think they see an illusion in three quarter time a lapsed reason of infallible sin reminding others they are not alone while chasing echoes […]

i cannot recall the last time i drank myself into a stupor but i know every note of a hangover as mental exhaustion tickles gray matters which seemingly don’t i yearn for a connection while keeping my head down finishing out obligations so i can spill out these words of desperate longing without allowing myself […]

punchy from sleep deprivation yet electric from a quick weekend in knoxville at the tennessee book readers convention where an electic gathering of some of my closest friends spent two days laughing while shilling books a warm tinge to sheer exhaustion three days spent without my phone untethered to the electronic madness momentarily as the […]

september arrived with cooler temperatures and a blanket of rain to soothe the sun cracked dominion where wishes waste away into fine grit sandblasting happiness into dour grimaces i don’t know what to do with myself a weeklong sabbatical to prepare mentally for a weekend in knoxville surrounded by some of my closest friends feels […]

the morning drive shows a sky in strata gradient shades of pastel madnesses fulfilling a complete archaeological summation of her smile blossoming into golden splendor even as the last wisps of sleep evaporate in sullensteam to scar a world of hazel lies i exist somewhere beyond indigo bands rendered indistinguishable from the farthest reaches of […]