sometimes the only surprise present received is the understanding just how little your life means in the grand scheme unless someone needs something then the expectation is you’ll come through because now you matter which helps reinforce how you already felt i never ask for anything yet still i am disappointed the story of my […]

an intensity in blustery gales the trees bend a sign to turn around and flee before being swept aside once again selling simple soliloquies in an attempt to remain solvent in turbulent seas singing softly to ward off this incessant sadness singed serenity in sorrowful sighs my solitude is a mile marker rather than a […]

despite our best intentions we are disposable biodegradable husks who only seem to have value when we are needed left in the sun to fester after a lethargic sluice in inanimated suspension of disbelief every time i crawl out of my hole it becomes clear no one has time for my clumsy attempts at a […]

been researching aquatic life obsessively for a book which is beginning to form there is something alluring about the silence at the bottom of the sea a solitude beset by a life of endless night i could have been happy as an octopus no one could see me as i hid in plain sight natural […]

billions of souls seeking some sort of purpose a hint of meaning to salve this condition of consciousness driven by the same instinctual urges as all life yet cursed with just enough understanding to question why careful contradictions denying base desires in a effort to seem self awakened rather than simply self aware searching for […]

thunder sendingsubsonic vibrationsthrough a manic fool thrumming with thesameprimalpower harnessing plasma in pulsating waves of endless anxiety asfrustratedtears stain the day the words fightferociously demanding perfection inpurgatorialprose mylonelinessladen streamofunconsciousness navigating the layers while numb fingers try to keep up lactic acid leaks from untying nots knottedandclotted in sputters and stops aclingingcavalcade in past tensions make […]

the math simply does not add up to the lies spouted by the clemtine colored cunt especially down here at the bottom sixty dollars worth of groceries now costs one hundred the eggs aren’t free and neither is the gas while the moron demolishes history to build a ballroom just like adolph i hope this […]

after months of attempted immolation the angry rays have calmed themselves enough to allow for a rare beautiful day with a hint of rain to finally feel as if summer might just fall into autumn it took me a few days to unknot my insides while working through the last stretch of my newest novel […]

i keep waking up at three in a state of panic one thought unbidden snowballs until i am fully awake making coffee trying to remember how to breathe i need an opportunity to earn a living off the words because the world has me incapable of anything else

row after row of corrugated roofs glinting angrily in the morning light an expanse of fields painted brown and yellow cash crops gone worthless as a senile poor man’s version of putin pouts he rigged a war to continue for months so he could claim credit for peace as he chased after a shiny new […]

the compulsions ease anxieties until my mind finds the next obsession relapserepeatregret i burrow deep a sea worm forming complex tubes deep beneath the silt content to remain submerged except for moments of necessaryconsumption drawn from the dark by beacons of passion swept along the currents until the battering against razor coral causes me to […]

the sheer audacity in the tantrums of a would be tyrannical cunt his unbridled gilded rage weaponizing this parody of justice a slovenly old mentally deficient spray tanned corpse surrounded by vacuous blondes willing to degrade themselves for a seat at thefastfoodladentable a dollar store dominatrix wreaking havoc on innocent communities inciting violence against our […]

the oligarchs rally their troops faceless gestapo in riot gear trying to provoke a response from the people to justify this illegal war on the constitution the laws don’t apply to them because they believe that nepotism has granted them divine providence that ill gotten gains from serial cheating the system they claim is rigged […]

some people have constructed elaborate masks taking performative to all new levels careful to keep who they truly are hidden happy go lucky positive vibes emanate from the paper mache but slowly cracks form unleashing snippets of truth quickly covered andcasuallydenied until one day they go on the attack all understanding washed away in the […]

music has always been life to me i grew up in the car with the classic station the only companion in the cavernous rear bench seat or in those poorly lit bars dinghy neon a small light over a bust of jfk and maybe jesus as well and the flashing lights of the juke box […]

threading the needle between giving up and giving in looking for a life balance where giving isn’t the only option giving up writing time to fix another set of lockers giving in to anxieties as i grow old and have not scarred art in any truly debilitating matter giving in to the constant fear and […]

true diamonds don’t refract light it simply passes through while lab grown stones act as prisms due to slight imperfections in the crystalline structure being artificially altered to mimic nature’s accidental perfection probably something deep buried in that i just found it to be utterly fascinating

inaccessible to everything except the sparrows singing daydreaming in quarter time a proper percolation coffee’s caffeinated caress in conjunction with a lingering haze of phantom kisses dripping daringly from the poisoned edge of my favorite dreamdagger indigo soulshatter fluctuatingsensually wavesofmercurialmania a gentle pealing of silvery bells as angels streak down screaming comets lighting a dour […]

what do you do when the system of checksansbalances refuses to perform its elected duty as the cuntiest clementine curries a societal collapse claiming a surplus while the farmers learn what it means to let them eat cake the speaker of the closet refuses to swear in the deciding vote to expose the pedo-in-chief an […]

do you actually believe the lies spewed to muddy the waters as the tangerine twat and his lackeys speedrunthedeath oftheamericaneconomy as the farmers see thebankruptcyon the crumbling walls fearmongering while the decadent golden whale golfs imagining seventeen trillion dollars no one can find whilecowardlyspeakers gag on the truth butnotthecockof hypocrisydowntheir despicable throats the republican rage […]

aregular reoccurrence ofirregular anxieties inareciprocative ringofrancid selfrealization on a friday mourning a future which willnevercome rubberbanding between rebounds a case of sea legs on the steady shore stumblinghalfblind penningtragedies bestleftunread haven’t written anyfictioninaweek becauserealitycan be so fucking un re al allthetime smotheredjustenough tokillthefirebutnot enoughtokillthepoet aconsistencyin condemnations acalamitouscluster ofpartiallycoagulated soulshatterscattered in groves where heartthistle thorns piercethepenumbra […]

all i ever want is to sleep or more aptly lay in that last moment of slippingconsciousness where everything loses weight the slow tumble intonothingness wherenoneofthis madness exists just fuzz and a pillow held extraclose whatever anyonehopestofind here doesntexist but far be it formetojudge someone else’s delusion my sleep cycle is much the same as […]