they say something about old dogs and new tricks which echoes in my head whenever i step outside my comfort zone i have scant few enough talents as is and those are mediocre at best i am really good at forgetting and trying again which is mostly just an awful character defect in a cornucopia […]

too intense is absurdity when life is so short that is simply fear talking we cannot control our reactions nor should we apologize for the chemicals in our brains so when nothing makes any sense you have to embrace the insanity and wrench back on those short and curlies until it submits to your indomitable […]

crimson flashes flood the room as the neon cross across the street proclaims brashly jesus saves she smiles, teeth red in the sickly glow kneeling in supplication as gunshots rattle off in the not too distance the only souls saved were the ones greedily swallowed fifteen bucks or a fix is the cheapest sort of […]

the app sends celebratory alerts for consecutive days posting a digital carrot to keep traffic flowing it makes me feel more exposed rather than inspired people have tried to control me by reading and then pretending to be there all while misunderstanding metaphors and chasing the wrong scent and while i am not smart i […]

parked on the second floor of a parking garage and it feels like a ship on the sea as the concrete plates shift with the steady stream of rats fleeing this sinking ship a herd of lemmings in automobiles winding down in single file to spill out into the world squinting into the morning sun […]

she asked me for a secret as she placed her head against my chest and rather than the heart which beats me mercilessly she heard the motions of the ocean and realized i was but a shell of who i dreamt i would be the depth an illusion an intrusion of shadows altering perception an […]

an odd confluence of contrasting casualcasualities have me considering a tool belt as i make much needed repairs to my messymental cathedralof careful compartmentalization. the cemetery where my childhood spins endlessly in its shallow grave overrun with carnivorousplants snapsnapsnapping for a hint of blood. the years of consildatedcandlewax stalactites gripping the underside of the ornatelycarvedshrine […]

the traffic was light while the music felt transcendent as a fool daydreamed downtheroad i woke anxious over my insistent andconsistent vulnerability overexposed andundercooked i need to hidefrom allthesilent eyes who never acknowledge me yet follow eachandevery stumbling move there is lessandless to see as i over share everyemotional indiscretion ringing the church bells the […]

i blew lady winter a kiss as she gave in to spring after one more day of frigid cuddles her pensive sigh as the sparrows formed a choir of springtime promise a last chill down my spine as her ever present promise of frozen returns lingers lazily on the perpetual edge of longing

i think i could be a relatively decent lighthouse keeper if the opportunity ever arose i have zero basis for this claim i do however contain an endless amount of misguided romanticism along with a frankly staggering ability to be alone just imagine all the terrible lines written as ships crash into the rocks maybe […]

i dreamt and in that dream i dreamt we lay on the cool grass as the stars twinkled merrily above your head on my chest as you fit perfectly in the crook of my arm absently stroking your hair as we lay in the dream i happily dreamt you looked up at me lips slightly […]

a macabre sense of underlying rot courses throughout sinuousrootsystems interconnecting neurotic neurons misfiringfrantically into the morning haze it’s too quiet no planes circle the birds sit silently watching an induction of atmosphericanxiety inducingtremorsupon ancillarynervousness insidiouslyimpervious toangelicinquiries inantiquatedarrays

as lavender flashes over a world born of pain the ripples exaggerate absurdity into a sovereign state of being i longed to roll over pull her close and sleep through this agonizing aura only to find an emptiness in the shape of her beautiful absence a coercion of crackling pain thunderingthrough the spaces between

standing staring up at the sculpted metal the city alive all around me with the heavy pheromone haze pulsating through expanded arteries a city of spectral lights winking hypnotic as i catch a hint of her at the edge of my periphery unmistakable as my pulse quickens i spin in place the metal girders groan […]

my skeleton feelsalmost mercurial musclesshifting beneath this paperthinflesh rigidrazors ravagingrelentlessly as i shed thetumorsofwho i longed to be: clumsycharlatanscatcalling forchangeinanefforttoshift theattentionfromtheirown constant calamitous crimes of ego. some mornings i fucking hate it here when i see the rampant narcissistic decay infecting art caricatures clamoring for the spotlight playing hidden politics in lieu of actual talent […]

my favorite birthday i got megatron the evil leader of the decepticons and my dad spent the entire evening figuring out how to transform it and applied the decals while i watched happily and snow fell against the window it’s cold in the shadow of your ghost old man happy birthday to the moon and […]

has anyone ever told you the sunshine seems brighter when you smile as if jealous of your glow they should everyday they should strive to be a reason you smile and when the right one finally does i will likely hate them only because i wish it could’ve been me

winter always envious launched a last ditch effort to remindnorthtexas she is watching bitter claws caressing leaving hoarfrostedkisses on goosepimpled flesh i long to spend the entirety of the weekend cuddled up beneath a soft blanket but the madness screams for output i will be dead sooner rather than later and perhaps the chill is […]

if the lingering ache is any indication of your impact on my life who i am as a person no one compares to you dad you would have been sixty-nine if you hadn’t left us twenty-three years ago and still your absence this week is an open abyss in my soul just imagine all the […]

democracy doesn’t die due to the actions of the alzheimer asshole it doesn’t die from the slow strangulation of corporate subsidaries it dies when the people go silent it dies when we stop fighting they will do whatever they can to remain rich influential and in power no matter how many poor people need to […]

i have never had a bad trip on acid or mushrooms because there is no reason for a bleak mood when i know i can escape being me or a couple of hours free of the oppressive anxieties and selfdoubts i can see and for a few weeks after i remember the lessons in seeing […]

since i was a latchkey kid i have always been watching preparing it isn’t about if the other shoe drops but when and how will i deal with it when it inevitably does and it will left alone to figure out things where mistakes no matter how innocent were punished self reliance became defiance why […]

the variance in vapid velocities devalues every vantage vivisecting visionary’s veeringvalvesin vivaciously vicious violence venting veins in viscous vats of vexing vanities and vacuous validations

i feel lost having spent so long under misconceptions of who my friends were and realizing the bulk weren’t really even acquaintances after months of silence my fault for not seeing business and friendship are not necessarily integrated in action i do better alone especially when i stop believing anyone cares about anything other than […]

i am content in my fleeting life over an eternity in a paradise that doesn’t include all if god made everything for a specific purpose some of us were created just as bad examples no reason to let a little divine cruelty go to waste

at first nihilism feelsimpossible you have to reckon against folklore told in hushed whispers nightmares to be painted on cave walls ingrained perpetuated by primal fear then you have to contend with self if nothing has any meaning can you accept you are an animal dominant theoretically honestly case by case not looking great for […]

hank would drain a bottle of red have a six pack some bourbon and that goddamned redhead driving him every night i don’t have an eighth of his talent but i can out self hate the scarred prick any day of the week my problem has always been of the blonde variety we don’t get […]

in the deepest interminable hollows of my soul there breathes the afterglow of her smile and despite my sinner flesh i bathe in her echoed splendor reminding me how truly bereft one man can be in the fathomless gaze of her eternal despondency

the world is scary it needs serious people and a serious amount of drugs. not sure about option one

if you abandon yourself stripped clean of ego bare electricity suspended in yourowndisbelief what scars could you draw across the face of art if every neuron fired in synch the words dilate until each syl a buhl is ringing with all the agony life has fed you can you find the flashing light in the […]

i bet it was that one line i forgot between traffic lights whentheworld blurred a new burn on the inner arm of a depressed fat kid no one ever loved in a way to stop the voices one of those throwaway lines like walking away as the building explodes a real zinger i bet it […]

the sparrows are talkative this morning calling out the tired sun as the chalk dust sliver of silver lunacy watches in fading disdain i feel untethered hovering over this concrete spectacle tracing asphaltveins to the diseasedheart where hope slowlylayers arterialplaque building up backpressure until the entire organism pops all i want is to go back […]

i learned from a young age how to rely upon myself alone a latchkey kid with chores homework and zero adult supervision we didn’t know any other way generation x was mostly neglected running feral until the street lights came on so it is no wonder they spend the bulk of earnings on childcare we […]

the frozen ache in being a romantic nihilist yearning for those things in which i poison a masochist cutting deeper in order to feel cutting deeper to bleed semipoetically by casting an infinityofugliness from my cancerous soul i don’t recognize my own deflection scowling at me from the mirror just an addict desperate foranother hit

malachite beneath tempestuous skies sleepwalking through another simple complex of complex simplifications seeking solace in solvent solutions as the test tube spins to separate the particlates in painstakingly perilous plurality i spend all day wanting a nap only to sit up all night incapable of finding sleep a discarded bag tangled in the gnarled branches […]

i remember the lakota sang for centuries before the first english words were uttered in north america each day i hear different languages in unique voices which reminds me how joyous our differences make us being the same we all dream shitsleepandfuck driven by biology which is immune to country or god so it needn’t […]

a repetitive cycle of exhaustion longing to sleep with the knowledge it can only bring dreams which then keep me awake yearning for a happiness the universe does not find me worthy of a consistency of feeling punchdrunk as hope drives by middle finger extended out the window i float in a state of vegetative […]

i feel fizzled after finishing the last story the ideas swim around but the words are just out of reach and though i know it is always this way i don’t do well with sitting still now my brain is buzzing racing at the speed of light going nowhere a dog on a chain wearing […]

when i see so many people imitating all the wrong influences i feel better about all those who secretly attempt to mimic my prose while pretending i don’t exist inspiring more shitty poetry is far better than pushing hate exposing narratives is beneficial in a world of lies one day they will develop their own […]

each lessonlearned throughanother’s trialis written ininvisible ink only through one’sown experiencein the collectionof hard won scarsis anything gained but with the easeof escape into adigital worldconsuming opinionreplaces thought the echo chambersonce reserved forhome town harmonieshave gone globaland impossible to escape now talking headswho have done nothingtell loyal viewerswhat to think andhow to feel 24/7 the […]

i saw her in a dream again there’s this moment euphoric before the ache sets in the sunshine in her hair forever in her smile sparrowssinging o accompany her everyperfectstep the cold water rises slowly seaweedtangles around my legs saltwater rushes into my lungs she shimmers then she is gone