despite effort when faced with an onslaught of absolute idiocy the success rate is assuredly dismal someone much higher up the food chain has an epiphany which despite having no real chance of working out the decision has been cast from the mountain and the peasants must scramble to achieve this most sacred duty the […]

there was a shooting at the apartment complex next to the one i was dilligently working at i didn’t hear the gunshots as i toiled on a good underling to involved in the company’s economic welfare for petty things such as safety i heard the swelling of sirens and low staccato rumbling flock of lowflyinghelicopters […]

morning commute down desolation highway an overabundance of gray drowning the dim light to a sullen spark in sleepy forney a small town set too close to the ravenous beast of the metroplex an infrastructure built for farming now overly congested with angry worker ants lined up in misery to serve their queen a distillation […]

bird song ecstatically calls forth the molten orb of grievous gold to cast aside all aspersions and illuminate a world of need bits of yarn scraps of paper hidden seeds and open air in which to soar high above the petty concerns of humans being i yearn to fly yet nervously pluck my feathers stuck […]

she didn’t set off a flare no alarms rang the oceans didn’t boil the sky refused to split asunder when she stopped loving me it merely felt as if the world ended when she finally told me the truth ever since the world resumed wobbling moronically and i cannot imagine an existence where i truly […]

human barnacles clinging desperately to anything with a hint of momentum dragging the vessel slower and slower in their narcissistic need to find a hint of secondary attention talent means nothing when the ones in charge do nothing to capitalize on anything but themselves starving slowly while you support the business which ignores your work […]

my friend said the texas weather is bipolar as it goes from hot to cold and back again and i realized it reminds me of my mother who has never been diagnosed but i would wager is much the same as the maligned evershiftingweather also explains why it feels as if it is out to […]

the wind through the assortment of construction equipment forms a symphonic catastrophe in industrial wind chimes squealing gears grinding as the chains dance high above hard hat adorned ants in neon vests it took two hours to travel less than forty miles as the plaque buildup in asphalt arteries leads to a congestion starving the […]

i am no hunter relentlessly chasing prey though the instincts worn dull by generations of civility still seek the chase after those with no interest in being caught i don’t pursue not any more no reason to disturb the peace by offending the docile creatures simply trying to survive themselves beauty has become a passing […]

standing inside of the leasing office the gentle fountain bubbled in a lazy spiral down into the name sake bear creek thick woods encircling the entirety of the simple complex geckos sunning on the concrete around the turquoise pool surrounded by vibrant if slightly garish orange cushioned wicker furniture and it almost seemed like a […]

blue jays dart in and out of the bushes as the scorpions and rattlesnakes emerge to a heatwave baking a shell shocked texas to dust at war with iranthemediaourselves cut off from the disgusted world as a tangerine dusted pedophile performs as if no one knows his diaper is full and his mind is riddled […]

i wrote one thousand words of which i deleted nearly all then rewrote three hundred words which said exactly the same in a more concise manner taptaptapping on the hull of the ship listening for slight imperfections only to tear it apart and rebuild a better boat using the same scraps every story is its […]

a stillness drapes the city a supple lack of the frenetic activity in the overcapacityhive where honey is refined from dreampollen spores languishing on thepollutedbreeze a steady amber drip slowly consumes the angry drivers scuttling in and out of paralyzed lanes as the early rays melt the waxen comb into a turgid river filledwithlusciouslies

wrote so much yesterday i am empty today floating in the abyss the gaping abscess pulsatingseductively across the cataract coruptingmythirdeye i dreamt i died onlytowakeuncertain it was a dream at all worse though i couldn’t make myself pretend to care

i have a type. types. the sweet zones scratching those primordial itches. fuzzy guitars. thick bass lines. boom bap. scratches. a brass section. microtonal. distortion. attitude.outlaw. protest. punk. math. backpack. indie. noise. short. punchy. with a depth be it sonic or emotional. for the next two and a half minutes, i need to move. fall […]

when i was a kid just after dinosaurs but well before cell phones and memes i remember pedophilia was as mainstream as it could be possibly be top ten songs and the bands which sang them proclaimed their desire openly as stadiums filled with kids all screamed every word it was en vogue to sexualize […]

i am exhausted right up until my head touches the pillow suddenly stories sing and all i can do is follow them and whatever sticks still in the morning goes onto the whiteboard then i sit in a fugue state as the sparrows hop on the railing eager for another half baked tale so much […]

people don’tunderstand how condescending it is when you write off everything as oh, he is bipolar. give him time it’ll pass. not every instanceofupset is insanity. i know the walls of my prison every crack and crevice i stay silent as i figure out if it is irrational or real before speaking. i am not […]

the sunlight breaks around an iron and glass spire an eruption in soothing warmth misleading feeling almost loving nurturing which makes each of my scars tingle as i remember how quickly a mother’s embrace can go bad the same diffusion of golden life will happily burn the flesh from bone fire only knows the hunger […]

you cannot expect anything from anyone especially those who claim to be your friends yet only make excuses or tell you lies when you break the silence they force you into i pay attention watch contradictions and see the truth then get called the crazy one because it is easier than any of them accepting […]

at times my silence defines me when everything is too fucking everything all at the same time my hand trailing in the lazy wake sensing a change in the undertow conditioned to have a danger sense similar to the sparrows feeling fluctuations in the air pressure ensuring a swift retreat to quiet you learn a […]

the days blur another monday probably in a concrete tomb hiding in my car as the world angrily awakens all around me the time change manages to keep the sun permanently rising as i leave ensuring half sight as i trundle down the asphalt arteries towards the cancerous heart of commerce the city stricken withmononucleosis […]

the sky a spiral of ash within lies molten fury of the sun glaring from the unstable eye of armageddon goldendaggers piercing the arrogantpenumbra of third eye pandering in politicalparlance even blind the image of her burns undisturbed guiding a desolation of dreamdander home

expecting a forty degree temperature drop from this morning to tomorrow as i lay tangled in thornyviralvines flaringandfading as the rigors of mortis tease my anemic frame phantom smells dreamshatter lingering in swollen sinuses of lilacs on the warm breeze a twitching dormouse with a barn owl burnt into his fevered brain mother nature should […]

i wasa ship crashingupon jagged rocksmere milesfrom safe harbor a ricochetbouncing off ofa steel girderstriking aninnocentbystander a deep shadow on a sunny day in acemetery for incontinent dreamers, the gapbetween wheezing breaths where the worldpulsates in time to the warbling spotsgathering in the periphery. i am the cold, gold cross between her sinful, supple breasts. […]

fingers scrape the rancid film separating sunlight into filthy rays dripping malice thisgoddamnedworld keepspunchingdown setting sights on picking fights with anunsettlinglyunwellman the peacock picked a lock and found a hoard of treasure, the lion kept denying even an ounce of pleasure. blood is thicker than water, but gold is far thicker still. trust no one, […]

the view of earth hovering so many miles away i could reach out pluck it up and slip it into my pocket which i imagine would make for one helluva fright as everything was suddenly plunged into darkness i can almost lose myself in this flight of fancy if it weren’t for the incessant beep […]

my soul is an abscess radiating negativity souring sunlight sending reverberations thundering in my wake i cannot find my smile nor fake the incremental musclemovements necessary for anymore than a less petulant sort of frown if typically i find my own presence taxing in this dire mood i long to not share the same four […]

a pigeon stopped by cooing at me as i tried to explain i only speak sparrowese it continued oblivious to my ignorance all i could do was nod and make soothing noises i hoped coincided with whatever tragedy was being told it’s frankly ridiculous to assume someone speaks pigeon just because you saw them converse […]

this sickness whispers incessant doomsday prophecies as it grasps tightly to my cerebellum spiraling downdowndown into my dreams while tendrils of frozen lava run through labored veins i have lost my voice succumbed to silence as i weave in and out of semiconsciousness in a world which hasn’t noticed my absence the friends who seem […]

the constant exhaustion and sudden fevers has been identified as adenovirus at least i wasn’t crazy about being sick the rest is unfortunately still accurate the way it’s clamped down feels like a downswing to a depressive state but with enough physical effects to tell me it could be a combination platter of filth i […]

i woke feverish as thunder rattled the room lightning shattered the dark i knew not if it was dream or a new hell as i wobbled down the hall bladder in midst of panic a brief escape from the montage of nightmares force fed in each gasping breath anendlessonslaught of recycled scars taptaptapping on my […]

a careful conveyance of confidence as they recite a litany of missed markers over the last fiscal year sales slipped so of course they cancelled the service trip because service is the least important artery while being the only consistent source of revenue then they included service as they bragged about the four trips they […]

woke to jackhammers in my skull and razor wire wrapped around my stomach in a state of nauseated exhaustion after an evening filled withfeverdreams might not be an external illness just the fact i am sick of myself manifesting in a need to shut the fuck up and learn when my presence is merely tolerated […]

this arbitrary act of time adjustment is no longer applicable just an artificial actionassuming analog actions inanallconsuming digital age there is no confusion amongstmymany sparrow soldiers just the same happy trilling to greet the dawn ignoring axial tilt or imaginary hands pointing at meaningless numbers i long to sleep when it hits to wake only […]

flashflood warnings sound i have my things gathered on my makeshift raft waiting for the tide to sweep me away fresh water bags of granola a modern day huck finn with a slightly cleaner vocabulary splashing down the swollen rivers which were once major highways pruney fingers grasp the coarse rope keeping my vessel mostly […]

get so manic i cannot stand to be around me as i bouncebouncebounce poetry becomes thehamsterwheel because thesilenceknows i wouldn’t want tobotheranyone with all this theonslaughtofthought should be paralyzing yet i surf along the razor edge where realitybeginstocrumble and still i can pick outindividualpixels wherelifetimescycle inapermanentfeedbackloop of white noise broadcast betweendistortionsin heartthistlesolliloquies there is no […]

i think i find thunderstorms relaxing because they are the truest representation of humanity without the degrading meat shell free of the infernalivory prison set loose to dance free among the seething clouds of consciousness the same as wriggling your toes in the sand orrunningfullsprint across a field of swayingwildflowers as the sun kisses your […]

a comet blazing a fiery line through the irradiated void between pulsating stars reflected off of the shell of the turtle calmly swimming across the cosmos ancient unblinking eyes a silent steadfast wisdom in accepting the universe in its totality as it moves with an unfathomable purpose toward the seething heart of creation i spin […]

being bipolar is basically being a humansized housecat. i get the zoomies and want no demand full affection. and without notice nor provocation need to be immediately left alone. i don’t hiss (i didn’t consider it). i want attention butonlyon my own terms. i love to stare out the window and watch yet as soon […]

the wind chimes have settled the sparrows gone silent only a dog barking breaks the calm and i can feel the pressure building above i have a passion for destruction deconstruction the fury of the tempest on display the chaotic majesty scratchesacertainitch let the rains come thisextendedmanicstretch has run me ragged a nice doomsday gale […]

a hoary hoarde of accumulated cumuli swarm above as i sit waiting for someone in cali to refresh the system which is not nearly as exciting as it sounds unless hurrying up only to wait is your idea of a good time i don’t judge most of my time is spent lost working out the […]

fell asleepon the couchas the lightningdanced in the cloudsto awake tothe sunshining throughthe blindsas if nothinghad occuredthe worldspun off the rainleaving a foolin confused stateover exposedwhile the sparrowshop excitedlytrilling overa brand new day human origamifolding myself upsmallerandsmallerhoping to take ona new formin which to flyaway from my owncrushinginconsequentialities

the lightning bolts of mania have ceased their infernal frequentfirings leavingflashfried systemsfloundering as sleep becomes theonlyimperative broke my own rule on expectations whichmadethemomentary death spiral into a resonation of reticence and regrettable resignations asthecircle continuesto shrink iamexhausted as the gray smothers the city with cancerous pariculates and a chance of rain nappingmyway through another terminaldescent […]

lilac petals in a lavender rain radiate from her perfect smile a heady scent of summer trails her every step as she takes root in a poet’s heart the world does its best to beat selfperceivedflaws deep into our souls and it isn’t until viewed from the correctpointofview the perfection is seen you are seen […]

ever realize you lost something well after it was gone at first you didn’t believe it was truly gone just on time out only to understand it’s been months since anything was more than cordial lost isn’t the correct word withered decayed broke down into dust and blown away? i don’t recommend it. my true […]

i don’t fit into the box i am being exposed to no matter what i do i remain outside and my dreams are starving.

aneverpresenteffervescentsalinitydanceson myhopewitheredsoulallowingnoseedtotake root not enoughtostranglelifetherightamountto make everybreathagasp apersistentachingmyhandsareshakingnegativityrakingthisconsistentfuckingtakingtakingtaking there’s nothingleft nothing sorry the number you’ve dialed is no longer in service. please hang up and try again.

the clattering metallic hiss of the cymbals as the low rumble bassline builds chillscascadingdown myslouchingspine tracing the curvatureofhersmile inelectricpurple illuminating thedustycorners ofinspiration citiesare burning asmissiles fly childrenlay dead all because the president raped children and got in the pockets of equally evil shitstains who are close enough to death the idea of armageddon holds no […]

when i was a kid they taught march can come in like a lion and go out like a lamb although the opposite could be true as well but neither lionsnorlambs behave quite the same as the world wobbles with an adjusted amount of melted ice while wiley winter winds her icy touch a bit […]