a pigeon stopped by cooing at me as i tried to explain i only speak sparrowese it continued oblivious to my ignorance all i could do was nod and make soothing noises i hoped coincided with whatever tragedy was being told it’s frankly ridiculous to assume someone speaks pigeon just because you saw them converse […]

this sickness whispers incessant doomsday prophecies as it grasps tightly to my cerebellum spiraling downdowndown into my dreams while tendrils of frozen lava run through labored veins i have lost my voice succumbed to silence as i weave in and out of semiconsciousness in a world which hasn’t noticed my absence the friends who seem […]

the constant exhaustion and sudden fevers has been identified as adenovirus at least i wasn’t crazy about being sick the rest is unfortunately still accurate the way it’s clamped down feels like a downswing to a depressive state but with enough physical effects to tell me it could be a combination platter of filth i […]

i woke feverish as thunder rattled the room lightning shattered the dark i knew not if it was dream or a new hell as i wobbled down the hall bladder in midst of panic a brief escape from the montage of nightmares force fed in each gasping breath anendlessonslaught of recycled scars taptaptapping on my […]

a careful conveyance of confidence as they recite a litany of missed markers over the last fiscal year sales slipped so of course they cancelled the service trip because service is the least important artery while being the only consistent source of revenue then they included service as they bragged about the four trips they […]

woke to jackhammers in my skull and razor wire wrapped around my stomach in a state of nauseated exhaustion after an evening filled withfeverdreams might not be an external illness just the fact i am sick of myself manifesting in a need to shut the fuck up and learn when my presence is merely tolerated […]

this arbitrary act of time adjustment is no longer applicable just an artificial actionassuming analog actions inanallconsuming digital age there is no confusion amongstmymany sparrow soldiers just the same happy trilling to greet the dawn ignoring axial tilt or imaginary hands pointing at meaningless numbers i long to sleep when it hits to wake only […]

flashflood warnings sound i have my things gathered on my makeshift raft waiting for the tide to sweep me away fresh water bags of granola a modern day huck finn with a slightly cleaner vocabulary splashing down the swollen rivers which were once major highways pruney fingers grasp the coarse rope keeping my vessel mostly […]

get so manic i cannot stand to be around me as i bouncebouncebounce poetry becomes thehamsterwheel because thesilenceknows i wouldn’t want tobotheranyone with all this theonslaughtofthought should be paralyzing yet i surf along the razor edge where realitybeginstocrumble and still i can pick outindividualpixels wherelifetimescycle inapermanentfeedbackloop of white noise broadcast betweendistortionsin heartthistlesolliloquies there is no […]

i think i find thunderstorms relaxing because they are the truest representation of humanity without the degrading meat shell free of the infernalivory prison set loose to dance free among the seething clouds of consciousness the same as wriggling your toes in the sand orrunningfullsprint across a field of swayingwildflowers as the sun kisses your […]

a comet blazing a fiery line through the irradiated void between pulsating stars reflected off of the shell of the turtle calmly swimming across the cosmos ancient unblinking eyes a silent steadfast wisdom in accepting the universe in its totality as it moves with an unfathomable purpose toward the seething heart of creation i spin […]

being bipolar is basically being a humansized housecat. i get the zoomies and want no demand full affection. and without notice nor provocation need to be immediately left alone. i don’t hiss (i didn’t consider it). i want attention butonlyon my own terms. i love to stare out the window and watch yet as soon […]

the wind chimes have settled the sparrows gone silent only a dog barking breaks the calm and i can feel the pressure building above i have a passion for destruction deconstruction the fury of the tempest on display the chaotic majesty scratchesacertainitch let the rains come thisextendedmanicstretch has run me ragged a nice doomsday gale […]

a hoary hoarde of accumulated cumuli swarm above as i sit waiting for someone in cali to refresh the system which is not nearly as exciting as it sounds unless hurrying up only to wait is your idea of a good time i don’t judge most of my time is spent lost working out the […]

fell asleepon the couchas the lightningdanced in the cloudsto awake tothe sunshining throughthe blindsas if nothinghad occuredthe worldspun off the rainleaving a foolin confused stateover exposedwhile the sparrowshop excitedlytrilling overa brand new day human origamifolding myself upsmallerandsmallerhoping to take ona new formin which to flyaway from my owncrushinginconsequentialities

the lightning bolts of mania have ceased their infernal frequentfirings leavingflashfried systemsfloundering as sleep becomes theonlyimperative broke my own rule on expectations whichmadethemomentary death spiral into a resonation of reticence and regrettable resignations asthecircle continuesto shrink iamexhausted as the gray smothers the city with cancerous pariculates and a chance of rain nappingmyway through another terminaldescent […]

lilac petals in a lavender rain radiate from her perfect smile a heady scent of summer trails her every step as she takes root in a poet’s heart the world does its best to beat selfperceivedflaws deep into our souls and it isn’t until viewed from the correctpointofview the perfection is seen you are seen […]

ever realize you lost something well after it was gone at first you didn’t believe it was truly gone just on time out only to understand it’s been months since anything was more than cordial lost isn’t the correct word withered decayed broke down into dust and blown away? i don’t recommend it. my true […]

i don’t fit into the box i am being exposed to no matter what i do i remain outside and my dreams are starving.

aneverpresenteffervescentsalinitydanceson myhopewitheredsoulallowingnoseedtotake root not enoughtostranglelifetherightamountto make everybreathagasp apersistentachingmyhandsareshakingnegativityrakingthisconsistentfuckingtakingtakingtaking there’s nothingleft nothing sorry the number you’ve dialed is no longer in service. please hang up and try again.

the clattering metallic hiss of the cymbals as the low rumble bassline builds chillscascadingdown myslouchingspine tracing the curvatureofhersmile inelectricpurple illuminating thedustycorners ofinspiration citiesare burning asmissiles fly childrenlay dead all because the president raped children and got in the pockets of equally evil shitstains who are close enough to death the idea of armageddon holds no […]

when i was a kid they taught march can come in like a lion and go out like a lamb although the opposite could be true as well but neither lionsnorlambs behave quite the same as the world wobbles with an adjusted amount of melted ice while wiley winter winds her icy touch a bit […]

they say something about old dogs and new tricks which echoes in my head whenever i step outside my comfort zone i have scant few enough talents as is and those are mediocre at best i am really good at forgetting and trying again which is mostly just an awful character defect in a cornucopia […]

too intense is absurdity when life is so short that is simply fear talking we cannot control our reactions nor should we apologize for the chemicals in our brains so when nothing makes any sense you have to embrace the insanity and wrench back on those short and curlies until it submits to your indomitable […]

crimson flashes flood the room as the neon cross across the street proclaims brashly jesus saves she smiles, teeth red in the sickly glow kneeling in supplication as gunshots rattle off in the not too distance the only souls saved were the ones greedily swallowed fifteen bucks or a fix is the cheapest sort of […]

the app sends celebratory alerts for consecutive days posting a digital carrot to keep traffic flowing it makes me feel more exposed rather than inspired people have tried to control me by reading and then pretending to be there all while misunderstanding metaphors and chasing the wrong scent and while i am not smart i […]

parked on the second floor of a parking garage and it feels like a ship on the sea as the concrete plates shift with the steady stream of rats fleeing this sinking ship a herd of lemmings in automobiles winding down in single file to spill out into the world squinting into the morning sun […]

she asked me for a secret as she placed her head against my chest and rather than the heart which beats me mercilessly she heard the motions of the ocean and realized i was but a shell of who i dreamt i would be the depth an illusion an intrusion of shadows altering perception an […]

an odd confluence of contrasting casualcasualities have me considering a tool belt as i make much needed repairs to my messymental cathedralof careful compartmentalization. the cemetery where my childhood spins endlessly in its shallow grave overrun with carnivorousplants snapsnapsnapping for a hint of blood. the years of consildatedcandlewax stalactites gripping the underside of the ornatelycarvedshrine […]

the traffic was light while the music felt transcendent as a fool daydreamed downtheroad i woke anxious over my insistent andconsistent vulnerability overexposed andundercooked i need to hidefrom allthesilent eyes who never acknowledge me yet follow eachandevery stumbling move there is lessandless to see as i over share everyemotional indiscretion ringing the church bells the […]

i blew lady winter a kiss as she gave in to spring after one more day of frigid cuddles her pensive sigh as the sparrows formed a choir of springtime promise a last chill down my spine as her ever present promise of frozen returns lingers lazily on the perpetual edge of longing

i think i could be a relatively decent lighthouse keeper if the opportunity ever arose i have zero basis for this claim i do however contain an endless amount of misguided romanticism along with a frankly staggering ability to be alone just imagine all the terrible lines written as ships crash into the rocks maybe […]

i dreamt and in that dream i dreamt we lay on the cool grass as the stars twinkled merrily above your head on my chest as you fit perfectly in the crook of my arm absently stroking your hair as we lay in the dream i happily dreamt you looked up at me lips slightly […]

a macabre sense of underlying rot courses throughout sinuousrootsystems interconnecting neurotic neurons misfiringfrantically into the morning haze it’s too quiet no planes circle the birds sit silently watching an induction of atmosphericanxiety inducingtremorsupon ancillarynervousness insidiouslyimpervious toangelicinquiries inantiquatedarrays

as lavender flashes over a world born of pain the ripples exaggerate absurdity into a sovereign state of being i longed to roll over pull her close and sleep through this agonizing aura only to find an emptiness in the shape of her beautiful absence a coercion of crackling pain thunderingthrough the spaces between

standing staring up at the sculpted metal the city alive all around me with the heavy pheromone haze pulsating through expanded arteries a city of spectral lights winking hypnotic as i catch a hint of her at the edge of my periphery unmistakable as my pulse quickens i spin in place the metal girders groan […]

my skeleton feelsalmost mercurial musclesshifting beneath this paperthinflesh rigidrazors ravagingrelentlessly as i shed thetumorsofwho i longed to be: clumsycharlatanscatcalling forchangeinanefforttoshift theattentionfromtheirown constant calamitous crimes of ego. some mornings i fucking hate it here when i see the rampant narcissistic decay infecting art caricatures clamoring for the spotlight playing hidden politics in lieu of actual talent […]

my favorite birthday i got megatron the evil leader of the decepticons and my dad spent the entire evening figuring out how to transform it and applied the decals while i watched happily and snow fell against the window it’s cold in the shadow of your ghost old man happy birthday to the moon and […]

has anyone ever told you the sunshine seems brighter when you smile as if jealous of your glow they should everyday they should strive to be a reason you smile and when the right one finally does i will likely hate them only because i wish it could’ve been me

winter always envious launched a last ditch effort to remindnorthtexas she is watching bitter claws caressing leaving hoarfrostedkisses on goosepimpled flesh i long to spend the entirety of the weekend cuddled up beneath a soft blanket but the madness screams for output i will be dead sooner rather than later and perhaps the chill is […]

if the lingering ache is any indication of your impact on my life who i am as a person no one compares to you dad you would have been sixty-nine if you hadn’t left us twenty-three years ago and still your absence this week is an open abyss in my soul just imagine all the […]

democracy doesn’t die due to the actions of the alzheimer asshole it doesn’t die from the slow strangulation of corporate subsidaries it dies when the people go silent it dies when we stop fighting they will do whatever they can to remain rich influential and in power no matter how many poor people need to […]

i have never had a bad trip on acid or mushrooms because there is no reason for a bleak mood when i know i can escape being me or a couple of hours free of the oppressive anxieties and selfdoubts i can see and for a few weeks after i remember the lessons in seeing […]

since i was a latchkey kid i have always been watching preparing it isn’t about if the other shoe drops but when and how will i deal with it when it inevitably does and it will left alone to figure out things where mistakes no matter how innocent were punished self reliance became defiance why […]

the variance in vapid velocities devalues every vantage vivisecting visionary’s veeringvalvesin vivaciously vicious violence venting veins in viscous vats of vexing vanities and vacuous validations

i feel lost having spent so long under misconceptions of who my friends were and realizing the bulk weren’t really even acquaintances after months of silence my fault for not seeing business and friendship are not necessarily integrated in action i do better alone especially when i stop believing anyone cares about anything other than […]

i am content in my fleeting life over an eternity in a paradise that doesn’t include all if god made everything for a specific purpose some of us were created just as bad examples no reason to let a little divine cruelty go to waste

at first nihilism feelsimpossible you have to reckon against folklore told in hushed whispers nightmares to be painted on cave walls ingrained perpetuated by primal fear then you have to contend with self if nothing has any meaning can you accept you are an animal dominant theoretically honestly case by case not looking great for […]

hank would drain a bottle of red have a six pack some bourbon and that goddamned redhead driving him every night i don’t have an eighth of his talent but i can out self hate the scarred prick any day of the week my problem has always been of the blonde variety we don’t get […]

in the deepest interminable hollows of my soul there breathes the afterglow of her smile and despite my sinner flesh i bathe in her echoed splendor reminding me how truly bereft one man can be in the fathomless gaze of her eternal despondency

the world is scary it needs serious people and a serious amount of drugs. not sure about option one

if you abandon yourself stripped clean of ego bare electricity suspended in yourowndisbelief what scars could you draw across the face of art if every neuron fired in synch the words dilate until each syl a buhl is ringing with all the agony life has fed you can you find the flashing light in the […]

i bet it was that one line i forgot between traffic lights whentheworld blurred a new burn on the inner arm of a depressed fat kid no one ever loved in a way to stop the voices one of those throwaway lines like walking away as the building explodes a real zinger i bet it […]

the sparrows are talkative this morning calling out the tired sun as the chalk dust sliver of silver lunacy watches in fading disdain i feel untethered hovering over this concrete spectacle tracing asphaltveins to the diseasedheart where hope slowlylayers arterialplaque building up backpressure until the entire organism pops all i want is to go back […]

i learned from a young age how to rely upon myself alone a latchkey kid with chores homework and zero adult supervision we didn’t know any other way generation x was mostly neglected running feral until the street lights came on so it is no wonder they spend the bulk of earnings on childcare we […]

the frozen ache in being a romantic nihilist yearning for those things in which i poison a masochist cutting deeper in order to feel cutting deeper to bleed semipoetically by casting an infinityofugliness from my cancerous soul i don’t recognize my own deflection scowling at me from the mirror just an addict desperate foranother hit

malachite beneath tempestuous skies sleepwalking through another simple complex of complex simplifications seeking solace in solvent solutions as the test tube spins to separate the particlates in painstakingly perilous plurality i spend all day wanting a nap only to sit up all night incapable of finding sleep a discarded bag tangled in the gnarled branches […]

i remember the lakota sang for centuries before the first english words were uttered in north america each day i hear different languages in unique voices which reminds me how joyous our differences make us being the same we all dream shitsleepandfuck driven by biology which is immune to country or god so it needn’t […]

a repetitive cycle of exhaustion longing to sleep with the knowledge it can only bring dreams which then keep me awake yearning for a happiness the universe does not find me worthy of a consistency of feeling punchdrunk as hope drives by middle finger extended out the window i float in a state of vegetative […]

i feel fizzled after finishing the last story the ideas swim around but the words are just out of reach and though i know it is always this way i don’t do well with sitting still now my brain is buzzing racing at the speed of light going nowhere a dog on a chain wearing […]

when i see so many people imitating all the wrong influences i feel better about all those who secretly attempt to mimic my prose while pretending i don’t exist inspiring more shitty poetry is far better than pushing hate exposing narratives is beneficial in a world of lies one day they will develop their own […]

each lessonlearned throughanother’s trialis written ininvisible ink only through one’sown experiencein the collectionof hard won scarsis anything gained but with the easeof escape into adigital worldconsuming opinionreplaces thought the echo chambersonce reserved forhome town harmonieshave gone globaland impossible to escape now talking headswho have done nothingtell loyal viewerswhat to think andhow to feel 24/7 the […]

i saw her in a dream again there’s this moment euphoric before the ache sets in the sunshine in her hair forever in her smile sparrowssinging o accompany her everyperfectstep the cold water rises slowly seaweedtangles around my legs saltwater rushes into my lungs she shimmers then she is gone

i hope whatever it is i die from is cured immediately after especially if it is death but that takes the irony from it slightly it would suck to be the last person who died just too far from being brought back to life almost as much as it would probably suck to live forever

you can have your sky daddy or smiling fat man or trickster coyote even nature herself whatever you desire as your system of belief belief is beautiful i don’t believe in anything it didn’t feel as much like a choice as my logical outcome honestly the idea of an omnipotent omnipresent being always watching terrifies […]

this solitude aches as it slowly hollows me out emptiness and exhausion sharesimilar traits and i worry i will collapse inonmyselfas i sleep there is no escape from the ruins of one’s own mind no running from yourself just these evenings where thereisnothing but loneliness thumping loudly inside your chest and no choice but to […]

a steady stream frozen pixels dead static slowly erasing the scenery until frosted memories fill in frigid vistas the sky is falling iceladen particulates taptaptapping crystal hammers inadrivingstaccato aswirlingblur blanketing day insullensilence blue fingers graspingdesperately for a glimmer of warmth in an absolute desolationofgray of signals distorted magnetic storms afflicting these roguesatellitehearts lost in the […]

electric gray skies crackle with a collection of potential potency an immense weight in projected precipitation a manic fool fidgets the promise of the tempest raging winter’s fury to ensconce the city in an insanity of icy irrelevance midwesternraisedtexassunbraised terminallyunwellinbipolarhell a permanency of insomnia deliriums in hellbasted frames of delicious despair clouds of frozen breath […]

the stillness before the storm feeling the impendingweight of waiting for fresh hell to be unleashed maniclightning no planes circle just the lazy notes jangling of the off key wind chimes the storm just reflects this pressure building inside of my own sullensilence fracturedfantasies of feeling free to write without feeding these starving stalkers dreaming […]

i prefer the scant weeks when night dons her onyx finery allowing the tired sun an early evening short days draped in grayaplomb the flickering candle flame the wind’s howls and a good book happily fucked under a soft warm blanket my seasonal depression only changes flavors as the year wanes and i can make […]

it is difficult balancing the marvels humanity have accomplished with how repugnant a species we are deep down at our core fine turned for destruction through denied evolutions the only thing to rival this chaos is chaos in the form of creation though the circular ar gument of using creati on to create weapons t […]

the cold infiltrated my cocoon when i woke my testicles had icicles and even now the chill has it where i cannot find a clever way to merge the two words when they are alreadymostly the same the polar winds bullied the warm westerly breaking free to swirl with a frigid malevolence over sleepy tejas […]

they replaced fiscal responsibility with fear of missing out tricking the populace into buying things to hold onto knowing they won’t have time to enjoy it but the panic of not being included renders all sense unnecessary it isn’t about the experience it’s about being part of the herd chasing whatever is deemed hot while […]

the most frightening part of death to me is how suddenly it can all stop. one minute you’re miserable over the most absurd thing then you’re dead. the bubble pops. the desperate desire for it all to mean something anything bargaining with imaginary deities who at least in scripture don’t even acknowledge we existed at […]

the ego required to find the energy to constantly be contrarian must be absolutely fucking exhausting finding a way to pull the spotlight onto whichever new(andlikelyimaginary) affront to your flawless era of victimhood is fashionable currently petty ploys at pity parties marginalizing yourself for buys onaloopintoperpetuity barely changing the latest narrative with sloppy antecdotes which […]

a pet peeve of mine is when someone states they thought they were the only one when it comes to not liking something really billions of people and you were the one and the only to come to this opinion did you ask anyone else how they felt or in your deep solipsistic state decided […]

occasionally i question why i continue doing this this . i guess i am frustrated ignored . it isn’t as if i try to be so fucking strange i get bored complicate ideas to keep my always waning interest . it feels like a collosal waste of time. sometimes. most of the time . it’s […]

the miracle of life loses some of its luster when you accept this meat suit doesn’t run off divine purpose just what the various bacteria chemicals and electric impulses dictate daily you woke up craving coffee and perhaps one or two of those muffins which feels mostly as if you dictated each desire when actually […]

the united states government has become domestic terrorists in addition to the wanton terrorism on the global level three shots an innocent woman is dead they want a reason to declare martial law then they can forgo ignoring the constitution because they aren’t going to stop until they are held accountable the pedophile-in-thief filthy would […]

as i get older my obsessive tendencies become worse while my ability to recognize when they come on has gotten a touch better at least allowing me to try and force an exit i balance breaking from mental loops of pervasive thoughts through careful routine picking out healthier options to obsess over usually it is […]

the celebration of birthdays is patently absurd you half of you was the fastest sperm that’s all you grew from tiny parasite into full blown body horror your mother endured one of the singular most traumatic physical events forcing a melon out of a ten centimeter hole then just to add a bit of insult […]

wrote a sonnet last night while feeling nothing except for anxiety followed the scheme scribbling emptiness as an allusion for all my dreams the joy wilted in chasing lightning now i channel naught but whispered odes in the darkness which has come to define me the sheen of absurdity has faded into a sluice where […]

the sparrows burst into a chorus of white noise crackling static in rhythmic loops as the foundation sways drunkenly like dad on a sunday afternoon all i have done is sleep for days waking long enough urinaterehydrate back to chasing spectral images flashing in the shadowy depths a human dreamcatcher lost in exhaustion searching through […]

planes circle a constant rumble i only notice when it stops i lost track of time as a concept when i realized i couldn’t be late to an arbitrary event time doesn’t flow anywhere it doesn’t exist in any form our fragile minds can comprehend expiration dates are merely guesses at how long it will […]

it feels better being stalked from a safe distance than having to deal with the terminally self obsessed rabid monsters consumed with consuming thriving on the misery of others so desperate to be part of something like it is an ozempic sport yet always stuck in the periphery ancillary characters in their own stories spreading […]

i exist optimally in isolation eschewing fulfillment for an empty sort of peace outside of the bubble obsessions ingratiate themselves insinuating innocuously into my brain asymptomatic feeling no effects yet spreading manic disasters ruining through sheer proximity if i can channel these desires into an inferno of words then these obsidian dreamshards can cut a […]

it’s dark and windy outside the world feels like it leaked the last drop of love to swirl down the drain and all we have left are these smoldering embers in the shape of smiles to keep us all keeping on a series of mutilated little disasterpieces bemoaning this incessantconsistency of ingrown desires safely tucked […]

there is little worse feeling than waking on a friday which feels like saturday after a holiday and having to go back to pretending to care while the rest of the sleeping city dreams of long weekends the conflagration of celebrating different mythologies into a tapestry of rituals culminating in the death of the calendar […]

i look at the holidaze like the poor garbage man the week after the festivities are long done tinsel stuck to regrets gone from green to tinder it’s all just a pain in the ass another scam to increase the defecit while appeasing those fucking receptors i guess i’d rather see peace on earth and […]

the promises of tomorrow have been un fortunately postponed until further notice dreamdander will have to suffice for now theanorexic penumbra hazilyobscuring wonder is simple scum corroding hopeintoambiguity

finished a novel only to fall into the next constantly scribbling as i feel my time is running out and no one else can see all of the hidden patterns which whisper incessantly in the too loud silence harnessing all the loneliness to sharpen the monomolecular edge of the quill slicing down to the blackened […]