a man in france caught a goldfish which weighed nearly seventy pounds in a scenic lake which he named carrot goldfish are fascinating in how they grow to the size of their environment each little fish swimming around their tiny aquariums dream of growing to the size of a shark yet they do not as […]

i thought this trip to stephenville might be the first without a drop of rain yet as i sit in the historic downtown square the thunderhead has slowly enveloped the sky perhaps it’s me the dark cloud of despair hanging over my aching skull has a certain sort of temporarypermanence as a child i wanted […]

stale burnt coffee haunts the tire shop a lingering spectre of styrofoam cups in the heady musk of petroleum products leaves me in a fit of dissociative nostalgia a group of older men ready to haggle down the disinterested clerk knowing more about the intricacies inset in vehicular maintenance yet apparently unwilling to actually turn […]

i see the stats jump as stalkers strive to steal the embers of my poetry the sudden deluge of familiar prose lacking any of the real meat just facsimiles losing depth each time they try to paint in the ashes of art they don’t understand they only mimic lacking the instincts to see the real […]

the sunlight filters through the blinds illuminating this prison cell into an illusion of emulsification i need to run to the store yet i have already figured out six solutions which allow me to stay safely hidden i know it will be uneventful but tell my anxiety getting out is good and listen to the […]

i saw two hawks circling the fields hazy and indistinct in the sweltering malaise of the first in a series of allnightheatadvisories as summer does her wretched best to melt the lonestarstate into a puddle of all its varied inadequacies was forced to hitchup my big boy pants learn the subtle dance of maneuvering through […]

the walking dead walking their dogs under the oppression of texas summer vacant expressions as they are pulled from each new scent a look of discontent and abject regret etched in exhaustion while a fool pens another ode to indifference with a scenic view of the muddy lake trying to cool off before reentering the […]

one day we all wake up to see the hells we so readily created and faced with the consequences of our own actions some will still do everything possible to shift the blame unwilling to accept the part they played doomed to repeat the cyclical destruction somehow shocked when every relationship ends the same way […]

when i consider where i was eight years ago when i started down the road of poeticruin i never imagined i would have a dozen or so books sixty some odd anthology spots or still be breathing the books are confounding channeling dreams into the aether tearing off the best parts of myself to leave […]

ihavefoundi am quite decent at dissent havingbeen descended fromalong line of dissenters conscripted frombirthto constantly bedazzle with dramaticdisdain these despoticdemons derailing and curtailing all theirpatheticplots logicallyleaving longlinesoflethargy astheylieinlogistics toplacatetheherd ifeellikeamolotovcocktail and it is most assuredly five o’clock somewhere

does anyone know anything as intimately as a servant knows their master? i know every deceptive curve of my madness ran my tongue along the razored edge of sorrow channeled effortlessly manic gigawatts yet still remain enslaved to it. i just get so goddamned lost and it takes longerandlonger to remember i have a face. […]

a heat dome is settled snugly over texas i long to watch the manufactured bits marring an otherwise scenic view melt slowly rivers of molten asphalt slowly swallowing each remnant of our indecent follies as the ice caps retreat in reticence the ragged remains of the last ice age clinging capriciously to gradually warming global […]

freedom is an invisible cage while hope is a squatter’s prison the delusion of life is running headfirst into the walls and blaming others for our concussions yet here we are repeating the cycles ignorant to the abject futility it is almost as if we cannot see the cemetery for the tombstones

my mind finds patterns in the chaotic fugue slowly picking at the outline eventually unveiling hidden truths in the false smiles and empty gestures i dislike having choices decided for me without the common courtesy of pretending to take my opinions into consideration their need to try to explain decisions in which i was not […]

the darkness appears velvety as i lay ensconced head to toe in this turgid river constipated with dreamthistle remembrances wishing the onyx tide would sweep me along the track marked sleeve of sleeps cold embrace everything is too transactional for my borderline brain i weave gossamer threads into a strong rope thirteen knots wound wearily […]

the sun rose feeling petty as it unleashed a torrent of hell a pulsating wave incinerating all unfortunate enough to meet its gaze sitting in a holding pattern my soot suit feeling tighter around my midsection watching a timer tick the seconds away into another inevitable alarm if the petulant burning orb ups the heat […]

the problem with everything crumbling around us is how long we ignore all of the cracks as they began to splinter across the placid sea of teeming indifference like needing to go pee for hours with no issue until the front door is within sight and you suddenly cannot move quickly enough in desperation we […]

every time i come to stephenville it seems to rain i have come to appreciate the dour little town with its constant construction and purple accoutrements because of the college the downtown square houses a rustic facade around the historic yellowed brick town hall only the business names have changed throughout the century and a […]

(a person who loves their country and, if necessary, will fight for it) over the last nine, or so, years the term patriot has garnered a foul taste with the orange stain permeating what was a noble ideal into a perversion of it’s true meaning it doesn’t mean licking boots who enrich themselves while lying […]

this fourth of july felt more like a birthday party in a hospice as we smear frosting on the sedated soon to be corpse putrefying before our horrified faces i have hit that age where death looms watching for any sort of slip up in which to swoop in and snatch my blackened soultatters everyday […]

sirens followed by crashing thunder the rain hammering the windows as lightning arcs inside my skull i have entirely too much to do to be sitting watching the storms yet here i am in another parking garage so similar to all the other tombs hastily erected to accrue oil stains and aching fools confounded by […]

i can feel panic welling up suffocating on shallow breaths as i struggle to figure out where i am these roads so similar to the many miles spent in solitary definement driving through little towns which all blend together seeking out license plates to determine which state i am currently cruising through scared of what […]

everyday the fractures widen as anxietal carcinogens waft turgidly upon the eerie early morning breeze when i say i need space it doesn’t mean a few hours between chats it means i need to scatter the pieces across the cosmos until my broken glimmers into constellations with which to rebuild the mythos where everything is […]

i lay heremanicpulsating aninverted rainbowacross thebedroom ceilingthrumming withan insatiabledesire fora peace of mindin the piecesof mine layingscattered acrossthe mattress incomplete distress a lifetime spentrunning away froma home i neverfully realized waspart and parcel nodestination butan encapsulation ofthe haunting behindshifting hazel dismayas seen in infrequentaccidental glancesin the bathroom mirror we are our own helleach and every […]

occasionally i wonder what i could have accomplished with a normally functioning brain exploring the world unbound by bipolarity contentedly living always sure of my surroundings and able to trust my own mind in the worst times it sounds like paradise if not a bit mundane savoring the simplicity in random existence able to cast […]

i explore the ragged rim of this smoking crater opened up by internal forces crashing into one another with tectonic fury the edges of another bipolar induced frenzy as the world quivers in barely disguised indiscriminate agonies swaying in line electrified cilia pulsating in time to the metronomic sensation of simply disconnecting from war ravaged […]

a melon melancholy as the strands of sunlight are strangled by gray lending a sickly glow to an unsightly monday spent lamenting how short two days seems in comparison to the two and a half times spent in the pursuit of someone else’s fucking dream the chains of everyone’s expectations grow rusted in the perpetual […]

i do not advocate the use of psychedelics as a coping mechanism for a world on fire i do wish the electrified bats haunting my entirely too nervous system would ease back on the hellspresso a moment to admire the revolution we all seem to be waiting for someone anyone fucking some random goddamn idiot […]

the sun glared an angry orange as it illuminated the rolling hills down south of mineral wells as a sleepy fool felt the fullness of the missing hour where we managed to save daylight once again an ill omen calling forth summer’s fury as the polar vortex constantly collapses the shifted seasons littering the land […]

a sudden shift at my job has left a fool feeling exposed and fragile wracked with anxiety in a terrible state a new story released and too many eyeballs incites insanities and i just need sleep to hibernate in my cocoon until the acid liquefies me into a new form of madness with wicker wings […]

twenty one posthumous birthdays so now your ghost is officially legal to drink as it haunts me every year goes by a little faster but still i find evidence of how you shaped me into whatever it is i have become it feels so weird knowing i am older now than you ever reached and […]

some days i feel like i am a hastily scrawled sandwich board sign away from pacing down the sidewalk screaming about the end of the world. or in a coma playing out these worst case scenarios shuffling a deck of inclement disasters sitting cross legged in the eye of a pulsating shitnado as it reduces […]

you don’t realize when you go from young punk with a molotov in a (horribly misguided) che guevara shirt into an old man in a fuck reagan shirt stretched across a distended gut from all of the processed foods you once raged against a bipolar disaster borderline and always fucking surviving i was a byproduct […]

the truest expression begins with sur|render|ing a tearful acceptance every electrical impulse pushing your entropic meat suit /is/ simply(that) falling into these pools skinless abandoned by godhopemother a voracious slug squirming consumingendlessly giving nothing art is shitsmearedby toddlers on god’s pant legs a negative sum the faded tattoo of a butterfly sunbaked into a mannequin […]

the clouds dip so low as i drift across overpasses i could swirl them around my fingers a delicate snack in ozone flavored cotton candy as it tinges the air with promised storms as of yet unfallen

it’s eerie the silence when solid gray ensconces the city no traffic on the rain slicked streets nor high above as the planes remain grounded by the accumulated cumulus covering all of north texas i am a bundle of anxious electricity burning up from the inside out as ice crystals form across my scalp drowning […]

a week of summer in the heart of winter a war betwixt the armies of the sovereign fae playing out with no regard to the fragility of us mere mortals the sparrows and i watch the subtle currents in invisible warfare as the temperature yo-yos forty degrees while the northeast is buried in snow and […]

i often take things at face value a personality foible where i expect honesty which honestly is on me for ignoring empirical evidence freedom should mean being free yet we are taxed on every freedom or explicitly told by oligarchs the definition only applies when they deem it beneficial freedom isn’t free it accrues interest […]

the sky insists on fingerpainting in shades of gray a blurring mess of incomprehensible tonal dissonance sending doomshivers along irradiated ossicles suspended in this eerie ear canal of wax laden indistinctmurmurings as i hide buried beneath concrete dyed the same gray making a slurry out of my disbeliefs

tectonic distress as a rabid would be dictator deems tarrifs to be the only possible way forward despite the citizens bearing the brunt of his idiocy uncaring about the plight of the degradation leaving the corpse of the muddled middle class as a sediment line in the strata pushing him and his fellow oligarchs higher […]

the clouds caress the spires of concrete no separation between the sky and ground as a fool navigates his submergible deeper into the currents flowing between barriers in a sodden sea of brake light bioluminescence hydroplaning across four lanes of uneven highway darting like a remora in the wake of great white rumbling diesel beasts […]

anxiety exacerbated by an unset alarm the swirl of coffee on an already acidic stomach as the sun rises leaving me beset by this plague of fire dipping clouds in solvent as i seek silver linings to combat this habitual misery drawn in capsaicin along undulating innards as sparrows scream of an onset of warmer […]

they discovered a third form of magnetism which theoretically will change the way that humanity stores and accesses our data groundbreaking new scientific advances which should be far more exciting than watching the last dissolution of democracy in these trying fucking times a regression of human rights setting up the oligarchy while the peasants cheer […]

it was less sleep more a state of half consciousness which gripped me throughout the long and restless night a fugue state dipping in and out of dream only to spin a perpetual emotion machine powered by mania while being stalked by a mysterious visitor in a too tight striped polo who was always just […]

lavender sparks dance in a recurrent ode to consistent nagging agonies a daring respite betwixt polar vertices ensuring inclement pressure systems slamming together to form dissidence in frozen hellscapes a seasonal intention perpetuating the pain in sinus infection little more than adding a whiny inflection to circumspect analysis fluttering in agonized retention

watching artists i respect chase after money over the art leaves me sickened becoming empty trend chasers in the pursuit of fleeting fame when they could be leaving timeless classics choosing the dollar shows me everything i need to see and frees up admiration for those who try to create something new in a world […]

when i was a kid the only thing more prevalent than the red threat during the cold war was the larger than life wrestlers who fought for the rights of every man in the squared circle on saturday mornings reagan talked of satellites orbiting to shoot down any rogue cccp nukes as the hulkster used […]

the gray pisses a slushy consistency over a sluggish city lurching through the motions crystalline showers a confusion in half frozen particulates sirens howl eerily as the sparrows huddle silently a fool murmurs chattering refrains in collusion with the swirling mist two of my neighbors chatter in espanol i listen without any closed captions to […]

the constant dip in pressure forms a diamond from the gray matter arcing anxieties in an endless loop possible approaching winter madness as a rush for milk leaves shelves empty even though it will only last for days the sparrows remain nonplussed by it all chirping happily of seeds and sunshine as humanity wrestles with […]

he dangled an uvula over a hellish pit of gastric dissent the acid burning a slow ascent to dissolve him down to the atomic level a human shaped scar etched into eternity as an oddity a suspension of dour disbelief

the wibbly wobbly little blue orb has managed to circle the flaming ball of ever expanding avarice yet again as the termites idiotically continue ruining the only inhabitable rock we have found in reachable universe to trade ease for longevity i am as much microplastics as failing meat neatly preserved in a downward spiralling act […]

forks of lightning illuminating this heavy darkness in blinding arcs of pure plasma a natural accompaniment to the lavender which crashes inside my skull reaffirming the dichotomous surreality of absurdist dreams i harness the storm screaming crackling dissent across the brooding sky a schismatic display in borderline dismay painting individual pixels various pigments of impossible […]

the air is heavy with dreary droplets a city ensconced by a think bank of fog hovering supernovas a distraction in shimmering refractions as sodium bulbs cast illusionary suns set at regular intervals marking the long road in eerie ghost light as the dreamers wake to a condemnation of frantic particulates a sodden swarm soaking […]

the solstice reverberates into a sudden discourse on imaginary babies being carted in utero to a manger by a star unseen in that quadrant for four months the only wise men are still sleeping as commerce is celebrated in a fit of pure avarice by cranky parents assembling factory made plastics while an entire family […]

been channeling my rage into fiction an attempt at diction to incite the masses i find my words are ignored less when i use my poisoned pen outside of the poetic even if there is no separation betwixt the two as no matter what i do the flow becomes infectious so now the molotovs i […]

i find i prefer the longest night over any extended solar exuberance this day wobbling at the farthest point on an egg spinning around an avaricious star draped in shadows as the sparrows sing sleepily in the cold keep your halcyon daze spent burnt beneath summer’s vicious glare give me a fireplace softly popping as […]

i worry i have infected the weather with my bipolarity the constant shifting has the entire city reeling as it goes hot to cold rubberbanding in a raucous refusal to stay the same momentarily lavender flashes embers flaring in excruciating hymnals to surrender as the dreary gray infuses a refusal to silence the inclement agonies […]

i think in poetry all day long constantly falling into metaphors as a way to navigate life. i feel myself growing stranger less connected to the harsh light of reality as a defense mechanism by bleeding out a shell of words in which to hide a hermit crab growing too big for the constrictive nature […]

in times of great unrest the artists led the call of rebellion theoughout our history through words and use of art they spoke to overturning the foulest of status quos yet we sit now at the precipice of a granular level shaking of power where the abused underclass is seething at all the injustices perpetrated […]

the fact everyone isn’t just fucking furious all the time is a product of the apathy in people who have just enough to remain distracted docile little sheep unaffected by the suffering and perfectly content to just ignore it all i stay up late sipping molotovs while waiting as the revolution is incentivized as the […]

in science fiction when speeds reach that of light the stars stretch out into long lines of forever when manic the rest of the world seems stuck in a translucent jello mold wobbling as i speed fasterandfaster into the static resting just outside reality a supercharged engine running on jet fuel a heat seeking missile […]

i bought a watch because i wanted a separation between me and the screen too easy to check the phone for the time see a notification and lose hours i bought a watch to be in the moment to experience the world wobbling around me to admire the art hanging the people barely hanging on […]

the mania has settled a cloak of electrified insanity in frantic thoughts as a fool barely holds tight to the wheel the words scream and i try to funnel them down toward new stories while newer tales yell to be told seven open documents overflowing with scenic vistas of personal hells a junkie and she […]

a dilution of light through an effusion of mercurial silver hangs heavily over a sleepy fool adrift on these recycled scenes half asleep in an ethereal expanse of unbridled desire contained within her soaked divinity phantasmal writhing in an eruption of poetic meandering a symphonic discourse in her moaning crescendo to wake frozen in a […]

the bastards the upper management have no qualms watching someone drown their selective hearing filters out anything except the stockholders but effect the precious bottom line and suddenly their absence is over compensated by micromanaging with zero understanding of anything except stamping out little fires as the inferno rages all around them screaming from a […]

they shot the ceo of an insurance company left him to bleed out on the cold concrete with the same remorse he showed over thirty percent of those who so desperately needed the service they paid for under the misconception it would help in their dire need as he chose profit over human life i […]

how devoid of meaning must life be working in a scam call center spending dayafterdayhouruponhour trying to steal money from the elderly how do you feel anything but regret at a life wasted creating nothing but misery living with the guilt of doing nothing whatsoever to brighten the world a walking void sucking joy out […]

a consistency in gray malaise the other cars simply blurs indistinct obstructions frightened of the elements driving as if the world was ending because of unpalatable precipitation this sisyphusean monotony of increasingly heavier boulders breaks the spirit then the body until the shattered pieces of self are ground to souldust glittering in the overflowing gutters

they fill the echo chambers with minions just as shitty as they are and wonder why the rabid twats bite the hands which breed them a perpetual ego stroking machine rife with all the machinations of ill tempered children of spite incessant drama and shakespearian as penned by the illiterate betrayals they feel obligated to […]

mornings of frigid black pyramids disrupting a confluence of confusions drifting solemnly along concrete effigies to fossil fueled ambiguity demons belch black smoke a furious condemnation of god’s fading contusions while sparrows weep ebony tears for a tomorrow consumed by cancerous growths my fingers trail along these brackish waters alight with rainbowed refractions in simmering […]

i settle myself in november’s frozen ashes as the cold winds tap out a sullen dirge on the windchimes a lethargic clatter setting off lavender showers in morning sun she rages in my mind the storm over the ocean white tipped waves crashing against boulders a series of lighthouses illuminating her every sensual curve as […]

the birds sing a cheerful symphony on the dystopian dysentery they have been forced to endure since their bones grew hollow after millennia ruling the world. probably. who knows. when the words scream everything else is white noise. but you tell me when a crow caws loudly there isn’t more than a hint of unbridled […]

the day before a holiday weekend faces filled with short timer syndrome as they tick off the seconds until they can clock out and hide for days a lackadaisical haze of tryptophan naps thankful for a break from the hell of nine to five semi-existence my few memories of thanksgiving are a blur of snow […]

i used to feel the compulsion to document my every breakdown in lowercase dismay but tearing off the many scabs became a symptom all of its own now i keep the beauty i see selfishly inside rather than scream into the void where nothing seemed to matter used to dream one day the words would […]

it’s chilly cool enough that her tongue slowly licking the underside of my throbbing desire before making it all vanish in her inferno consumes me

if i had a nickel for every time i have daydreamt of running my tongue from the arch of her foot up her shapely legs to bury it in the ocean of her longing i would have enough to retire happily as she does her best to grind the beard off of my glistening face […]

these supposed writers with their fragile egos have no idea just how pathetic they really are puffed up pissants pretending to be purveyors of art simple shitstains in pedantic prose creating drama to stay relevant in a world so sick of the same tired blame shift the best thing about my particular broken nature is […]

the day began with the same storms from overnight transitioning into clear blue like a second morning in the afternoon a discombobulation of sudden sunlight shattering the pleasant gray malaise

the emotional predators no longer need to stalk prey this interconnected world has become so lonely they simply have to wait until the next victim hops into the boat on their own willingly blind for the chance to feel anything in a digital facsimile like watching a car crash in slow motion as the victims […]

i woke by rolling over a hiting my head on the wall and as i lay here unable to drift off i feel profoundly glad my literary heroes didnt have social media sylvia vague posting about her husband while posting gardening and cooking tips with a cold despondency old hank only posts celene quotes at […]

if the sinus pressure increases when they cremate my shriveled remains they will find a diamond skull among the bone fragments a crystal clear reminder of a fool beholden to beauty which was hidden in layers of agony antibiotics dance in a bipolar biosphere i cannot tell if the sun has risen or if it […]

a crudescent haze follows just out of sight behind me as i stroll through an inconsolable day of rigid anxiety i long to escape the doldrums of wasting the day in indentured servitude to landlords and bosses burning up with ideas and too run down to scribble them out enslaved to creativity yet engulfed in […]

little people with extraordinarily large unwarranted egos seem to demand all eyes on them at every opportunity whether it is good or bad they need attention to give them satisfaction they insert themselves into any situation expounding their self perceived virtues incapable of seeing they are impotent stains life is difficult enough without these annoyances […]

a long weekend drifts into a short week where everything still needs accomplished and a fool longs for another six hours lost in dream instead it is a twenty mile drive which takes an hour to possibly complete a service call her writhing the sheets crumpled between her fingers as i complete a masterpiece in […]

i expected her to run away instead she smiled and ran toward me and in her eyes she wrote forever in flashing embers and i knew then i would be consumed. i ran to her unconcerned as the flames seared my flesh and she was burned into my very soul. ashen figures burnt into the […]

just outside blue light beckons accompanied by disorienting music half a note too the fast off key warbling howling screams through hollowed out skulls cast in bronze with waxen rivulets in the haunting moments where dream is a flute hidden lost in dischordia i stumble with heavy limbs clanging a warbeast beholden an oni blood […]

i dream all goddamned day and wonder why sleep is an elusive whore i chase throughout the restless evenings perhaps prayers to hypnos rather than to a lower case t will provide some rest and relaxation a proper pantheon portraying pieces of humanity’s frgamented psyche instead of one absentee father figure only seen in toast […]

i long to trace the lines of her perfection with lazy fingers and hungry lips trancribing her fully into art discovering her every tell as i explore her depths with my tongue learning to play her body like a first chair in this symphony of desperate desires coaxing her entire being into a crescendo as […]

ignorance won yet again appealing to those unwilling to think for themselves the stupid fucking sheep chose a charlatan who has only ever failed except to sucker the rubes they are proudly embarassments to everything this country stands for and they are too stupid to see it your god would be sickened if he wasn’t […]

my favorite part of going into so many new places is the chance to stare at the artwork haphazardly strewn across the buildings i treat each new visit as a trip to the museum and try to capture the essence in the brushstrokes most are absolute shit mass produced pieces with zero tangibility but occasionally […]

waging this war to save daylight as evening falls earlier and earlier feels like a losing proposition i am a grizzled veteran of this fruitless battle wearing the mental scars of seasonal regression as i retreat farther back into my prison cell unwilling or unable to face the rain as summer begrudgingly gives way to […]

autumn rain falls over texas a welcome change to the baleful glare of our sun cooler weather as darkness reigns the shorter days lead to longer nights spent vivisecting dream as i fall further downdowndown this rabbit hole of unadultrated joy lavender bolts illuminate an altar worn marble from penitent prayers longer nights spent in […]