my subconcsious has me self conscious about the underlying currents in my skewed pseudo-consciousness leaving me uncertain unable to trust myself as dreamwhispers turn to derisive snarls and this hunger burns for that which i cannot be allowed a confusion in spectral wildflowers blooming across the fertile fields of madness in my brain the disharmonic […]

i spent the entirety of the weekend actually existing the howling wolves of loneliness held at bay as the early sunset painted indigo mountains hanging sharply inverted in the last brave diffusion of burnt umbra clawing desperately at the dying weekend i feel the discharge the jacob’s ladder fizzling out before reaching the top a […]

i feel like a thousand razored edges balanced upon a monomolecular tightrope wobbling over a void of self reflection an uncomfortable clarity in causation in candid curses cratering my cantankerous satellite heart

the birds scream a disjointed symphony for the glaring sun in her radiant petulance reasserting dominion over frosted blooms the streets lined with faded petals in brittle dismay a flurry of maroon transitioning into lusterless brown stinging grit reminders of summer’s disdain i sit in the darkness a net of nettles strapped to my hollow […]

the chill wrapped itself like a lover around me as i held the surrogate pillow tight to my chest a poor replacement for my hand cupping her breast as i sleepily murmur my love longing to feel her nestle closer content to ignore winter knocking if it means fifteen more minutes with her in dream

one sparrow sat on the porch as i stumbled half awake to make coffee i stood smiling as it trilled a tune and repaid it by spilling out a poem to you it flies frantic spreading the words manifesting a hint of your beauty to the sleeping city

hail hail hail blessed daughters of the moonbeams cascading through wispy clouds as the tenebrae begins to weaken the lost souls seeking closure hollow spirits bereft of warmth watching for a tear to slip into this realm of possibilities the rustling leaves a morose farewell as the land slipslipslips into ever lengthening night a ring […]

i saw you briefly last night just a glimmer between anxious wakings just enough to spend the rest of the night diving into dreamshards hoping against hope to catch one more glimpse of perfection before the world reinserts itself leaving nothing but faded blossoms until next i sleep

it’s cold enough the sliding doors have fogged up as the sky over the city ebbs with a silvery diffusion if i didn’t know any better i would think it could snow it won’t but a man can dissociatively dissapear into the feeling of being home as halloween beckons a child still clinging to birthday […]

these wax wings were never crafted with the intent of escaping this prison of ivory i just hope to fly high enough to tell the universe to go fuck itself from a vantage where it cannot ignore me i am a poppyseed in beauty’s lopsided smile a popcorn husk buried in the perfect veneer drawing […]

i rememberwhen i realizedmy hands couldnever sketchthe images soalive in my headcountless hoursdragging the heelof my palm acrossthe graphite onlyto see disappointmenton the smeared sheet the pursuit of perfectionfrom a skewed perspectiveis the assassin of creativity the madness lieswithin writing as welleach word needs balanceaccording to the melodyonly i can hearbut when the choirgoes silentthe […]

cold rain pummmels the city in an insomnial drowning where the fetid dream spoils beauty while a fool sits in front of the laundromat knowing nothing can erase this stain slowly spreading a shadow tainting the solemn surrender in howling gales as the wipers dance asynchronously with a sputtering heartbeat in sullen dismay

seeking signslost in the ætherbereft of directionunder roiling skiesof petulant gray falling throughdissociated kaleidoscopesoverwhelmed bythe distractionsin ever shifting torments driving downtownon streets made fromself manufactured gristlehoping for a homewhich never existed

sometimes, i cannot tell when big bpd pulls me this wayand little bpd pulls me the otherhow to not let it rip me into two. then i remember her telling me i used my issues as a crutch. how do you ask for help then? when the person you loved says something like that? you […]

i avoid letting anyone see the entirety of hell hidden in my hazel gaze the brimstone stained smile as the flames lick the lips your every cell yearns to taste lead enough damned souls to a purgatory of temporary intoxication while i hold hell within my chest fearful of singeing your delicate soul my heart […]

hansel left a breadcrumb trail unaware the sparrows picked his best intentions clean leaving no way of finding the way out of the forest i leave my own trail of heartaches in semipoetic verse to the cacophony of sparrows already well aware there is no path back into the light she told me there is […]

i need a break from only existing when i have a use if you need me don’t i am not here any longer find someone else to use up and discard i have nothing left to give

there is a miscalcualtion in eternity a cataract of crystalline delusion blinding divinity vaseline smeared on the camera subtly blurring miracles into tragic dismay the wonder lost in an ever expanding universe of stagnant indifference a collusion of decaying photons in a condemnation of childhood dream drifting endlessly on the holy corpse telling ourselves it […]

it’s raining after so long baked under the merciless gaze of summer the accumulated filth runs down the swollen gutters a sluice in shades of forgotten dream i stand in the storm soaked through praying the rains could purify whatever ancient curse rattles through my windswept soul bonedeep sorrows in a flurry of sodden denials […]

it is the cost which effects quality keeping a happy life unattainable necessity falls farther from doable and the exhaustion from constantly chasing moving goals makes living a luxury i no longer have the means to afford

the only place i can see her is on the rare evenings i manage to sleep where once she was tangible and real she became a dream which was something she never intended to be last night it was a stray lock of golden hair my every fiber longed to tuck behind her ear as […]

there is an edge of frustration making my tender excessively brittle chasing dreams which leave my belly empty and head filled with self loathing always being the runner up despite entirely too much effort given freely when you know you gave everything you had and still manage to come up well short of imaginary goalposts […]

the world is spinning slightly slower than normal or i am flying faster than my mania can comprehend no matter which way i tend to travel it is always against stream trying to fall back into dream where she smiles and all my broken heals instead i sputter out exhausted from waging a war with […]

she smiled sweetlyholding the sponge tomy forehead as the coolwater dripped downmy face before the metalring was placed gentlyupon my brow and sheblew a kiss as sheflipped the switchsending the currentssimilar to those whichalways sought to drowna lonely fool insteadflash frying motes ofmy shattered into astained glass refrainilluminating the painingrained in love’s disdain it began […]

i realized while brushing my teeth i have little to nothing to say to myself we have an uneasy agreement an acknowledgement of necessity yet seem to disagree on nearly every pertinent point keeping the peace between heart and mind is simply sorting various aches while never letting the two conspire as one whenever they […]

retracted hiding my fragility incapable of trust after so many self betrayals no longer certain anyone, myself included, is putting my best interests first the loneliness isn’t as bad as the anxiety worrying i will, because i will, do something wrong the only person i can let down is myself and that is an artform […]

no one seems to mention the addictive and destructive side of oxygen from the first gasping breath entire lives are shackled to this not so noble of gases i have seen too many lives affected by drinking and drug abuse while every person i met who quit oxygen was surely dead yet there is no […]

a quiet morning the workers robotically set up the tents stringing the tightrope attatching the trapezes i sit uncertain if i should paint on another smile or if today is for the three piece suit of the hungover ringmaster passing the reflection of the world’s fattest man on the way through the shadows between freak […]

if you were to go by my fight or flight instinct it would be fair to imagine i was headed into an ambush where any misstep would lead to my slaughter rather than sitting in the parking lot trying to build up the ability to get out of the car to go work on a […]

i chased her across broken dream waking with her smile etched in crimson along my aching tender desperate to fall back into the shattered vistas where reality has no bearing on the crushing weight of unsatiated desire following her footsteps deeper into the hollowed hallow of tarnished adoration where there is no difference between hell […]

anxiousanxious worrying knots into my macrame soul everything feels so fucking everything all of the goddamned time it gets hard to remember to breathe inoutinoutinoutinout my cells are starved clinging to arterial plaque jutting in calcified odes to her restricting blood flow blossoming tiny spots in tinted delusions of internal distress i need extracted from […]

the sparrows watch me watching them chirping suspiciously in golden light they want words which nourish the lurking raptor defiantly present in ancient souls i have no way of explaining the discard no understanding of it myself just the knowledge there is no agony quite like knowing you were never enough without knowing exactly where […]

my greatest foe will always be my foolish heart because no matter what one day it will happily beat me to death until that day i will leave it stapled to my sleeve to witness these atrocities we mistakenly call love in all the gory glory of tearing one another apart because, honestly, neither of […]

the doe eyed dreamers in a deluded belief i could ever be the bright apple of your twinkling eye i am simply the cyanide in the seeds you should never even consider planting in your precious heartsoil i am a blight a biblical portent leading only into a cyclical maze of decaying wishes lit by […]

my heart exists in the hadal zone where the pressure exerted allows no life to thrive shimmering translucency flashing pleas for help in bioluminescent distress only signaling a predatory response in open arms i love like a marianas snail fish feeds on anthropods a secondary set of jaws in the quadrants of my everdreaming heart […]

i wonder some mornings if i was ever really here or if this life was just a distortion cast by a stray photon racing toward the ever expanding horizon alone a slow drip of lithium tapped directly into the icy river of vascular insignificance indigo shadows the shame shade as the rings around my eyes […]

first the demon slept haunted by hearts broken trampled into hope’s last refrain unrestrained by the ignominious stain spread across him an itchy disomforter intentionally threadbare crafted carefully in a vacant mother’s adoring disdain now unable to calm the pounding creakingleaking valves so close to rupture in the rapturous haze of incremental temperature as the […]

i have slowly become agnostic toward the ignoble existence of love i once considered myself a devout agnostic toward the existence of god until i realized neither she nor i was interested in a prolonged battle cupid and i seem to face the same rotten stalemate some poisons just aren’t as tantalizing as they used […]

random play has decided upon a series of overdoses and suicides to serenade a fool ruminating on an exit strategy what is left to be written which hasn’t been composed by someone far more talented about these things i was never meant to experience the invisible man scriblling lies to trick the world into seeing […]

the covid fits directly into my rejection receptors as i shiver glaring at shadows where i see wisps of hidden agendas in the inactions where refraction doesn’t occur watching as i spiral searching for the reasons i sink downdowndown swallowed by the chasm burrowed by the maggots feasting on the fetid remains of yesterday’s empty […]

the sleep i so longed for is now all a feeble fool is capable of this fucking plague burning through me leaves naught but dreams in hellish repose ashen corspelights waivering about the pestilent purgatory where pretty poltergeists play pandemonium on my brittlesoul the tongues of lightning bloom in an expression of futile disdain reaffirming […]

slept fourteen hours straight as the ravages of illness sent feverdreams in a half catatonic horror spiraling through the threadbare hellish hollows of my mind awoken her name half whispered only to be swept away by a tsunami of sour sweat signaling the red hot irons thrust between my ribs to yank me under again […]

delete me please there isn’t anything poetic left inside me just noise the neverending sounds of glass shattering the back of a hand striking innocence and a droning of voices saying goodbye dip your fingers in my open chest cavity and paint something beautiful in smears of fetid repuganancy

it is all a travesty life is meaningless with nothing but a pine box or cheap urn at the finish all these petty little bits of insignificance weigh down wasting the few scant seconds where wonder is ignored we cast illusions of good and evil down assuming an invisible host shall dole out judgments in […]

the scenerybathed in the ichorfalling from thewounded angelsin autumnal shadescrimson splotchesin an array ofamber dissentionthe agonized screamsamongst changing leavesas death usurpsthe verdant mythswhich causes beautyto shudder in revulsionas the blood soaks downsalting the soil souldeepleaving only memorieswhere hope flourished

they smile mouths filled with maggots whispering saccharine lies unwilling to expose ulterior manipulations while sowing rancid seeds for future harvest

“some abominationsshouldn’t exist”she said with a razoredtongue of spite i could only smileit was sound advicei’d heard before yet still she staredup at me as i held her hairher eyes smilingas my grip tightened we wrote lettersin the bloodwe callously drewthen fucked untilthe words lostany semblance of the illusion of love which is as closeto […]

the kids are gone, so the mask is off, hanging off a hook by my keys until morning too aware i am slipping glitching my consciousness a grain of sand falling from my ear jolts of lavender crash my pangean soul if my heart would cease the infernal fucking beating of a dead fool i […]

i never cease to amaze myself at the myriad of ways i find to disappoint myself. some lessons only take one session to learn. the scarring is so fucking deep at this point by the time i feel the first flicker of pain the wound is already fatal. i kept grabbing the stove because the […]

the only sound is the sparrows on the balcony ledge trilling to get a fool’s attention as he sits forlorn electrifed needles arcing across his moribund mindscape drinking coffee wondering if this is all there is nothing to see nowhere to go and nothing to be while the city snores in fitful repose the highway […]

i long to sleep yet there is a chasm exactly the shape of her and my heart sounds back in pitiful echoes calling for her to make it whole once more an unfathomable depth of loss lays just between the lies i swallowed a perfect lure for a foolish fish and the hollow hiss as […]

my faulty intuition is a needy little whore chasing phantasms where only shadows exist the totality in obsessive undertones leaves clutching the barbed agony of apathetic dissonance a prison of monochromatic painblossoms set to binaural technicolor symphonies which whisper of all the things i must never allow myself even a dreamsliver of or i will […]

i am the scarecrow, the tin man, the cowardly lion, dorothy, and toto all in different moments throughout most every day drawn, a bipolar moth, to flames no more real than the great and delusional wizard himself a winged ape spinning lost in the storms oscillating over abandoned farms in a foreclosure of american dream […]

a mysterious miasma fills my hollow skull i see her and the ache sends swirls downdowndown soul deep a knot i can never worry loose a ravenous ravine riddled with blowflies where a heart once beat me near to death

it was as if i had died how swiftly i ceased existing in her world and the hurt accumulated in her thunderous silence was nothing compared to realizing i never mattered in the slightest despite time spent dreaming i am nothing more than a shadow cast by what you truly desire most from life her […]

i hung myself from the ellipses between her lips the bated breath where stars throw themselves at her longing simply to illuminate her shapely silhouette a broken manchild kissing the hands which only spite me seeking salvation in sweet surrenders swirling in the void

the storms came briefly i listened as the rain fell losing myself between the drops as i lay in bed letting my heart send messages in echoed crashing across the clouds to where you slept the alarm rang i watched you dissolve a sandstorm illusion in heartache intrusion whispering prayers to the emptiness proving god […]

all there is is emptiness despite a defenestration of dour despair i am little more than a tool capable of great feats yet aimless needing a steady hand to guide this incumbent chaos i just want to feel something

i can’t find my calm i need held and told it’ll be okay even though we both know it will not that it will pass it wouldn’t be so difficult if i didn’t hate every bit of me and if i wasn’t aware of how i can never hope to be enough it doesn’t matter […]

the only thing keeping me tethered to my body is a web of electricity tightly woven around my wheezing heart being a conscious traveler unraveled from the meat is a horrifying excursion into hell gripping tight quite unsure what is coming next but positive it is bad

the coffee ended up being the second most bitter taste after waking from a dream where all of the things she said were true not another case of someone saying what you want to hear rather than sowing honesty in the salty seas of fallen hope she returned all the i love yous she deftly […]

the secret harmony lays in the cacophony squalling where the tides of heartspasms crash against the shores of soulsand forevers a satisfaction in the throbbing dissonance of desire where instinct is a razored tongue tracing the scars which only serve to encapsulate the danger in perfection a hint of copper an undercurrent of pain pushing […]

today the disconnect between electric squid and eroded spine a dissociative chasm best intent tumbles endoverend into i strain yet never hear it find the bottom a clapperless bell swinging madly from the cathedral of abandoned passions a small boy deafened by his own heartbeat longing for all he knows he does not deserve a […]

maintaining a separation between my cancerous hell and the smiles of the humans shuffling across the ouija board living planchettes causing ripples in the hazy veil summoning spirits haunting hallways connecting the underworld with the sunlit horror of interactions between disparate atoms of desperate electron shuddering insignificance

the birds sing the ceiling shifts as the neighbor sleepily stomps his way to greet the tendrils of sunlight slinking over the horizon my tongue coated in bitterness as the coffee steams a condemnation in shimmering condensation condescendingly leaving a concentricity of rings on the table to remind me just how far i have settled […]

yesterday the entire world was coated in a filth where beauty drowned in fetid gasps today i have flatlined i feel nothing just subtle notes of disappointment glistening like dew in the silken strands of my dreamcatcher soul the technical term is splitting it occurs mostly from childhood trauma where it is conditioned by loved […]

i do not knowwhich side ofthe mirrori find myself on is he crazyor did i get all ofthe lucky disordersdoes he smile morehave loved onesis he contentin the mercurialrealm of reflections is she thereholding his handas they talkwas he enoughnot the failurethis version isone worthy ofreciprocation or is he simplymy fucking reflectionan ugly delusionon either […]

after the callousness of the last discard i cannot allow this weakness built on longing to fill my heart any longer the slivers left of my soultender rest in snowglobes filled with lavender embalming fluid and the last dreams of forever in plastic particulates when the desire to be loved grows i shake the globes […]

no cohesion between the vibrations rattling in atomic dissonance resulting in a separation where panic slices the anxious dissent in contentiously conscientious shiting states of sparkling unconsciousness navigating corridors in an endless barrage of dead end daydreams an absolution in abdicated allusions as assimilated aspersions accentuate anonymity i blow one last kiss as the portcullis […]

the words sing but warbled against the veil of apathy simmering in a pharmacy parking lot with a view of a pollution laden dingy skyline where all i see are souls screaming dissent in concrete tombs i prefer the days where the colors seem slightly too vibrant compared to when it all feels washed out […]

the sun’s halo hesitantly ignites over azure delusion in captured breaths a slight downtick in axial tilt redrawing the hierarchical glares in petulant longing lady summer changes into a dappled gown of crimson and amber despite the rage stabbing photonic daggers maniacally into the manic fool the still beauty of the heron staring unblinking into […]

i can never remember my age but statistically it is an anomaly because for the entirety i have fought the urge to fucking end it not to stop illusions of pain but merely to make the whirlwind finally fucking cease if it isn’t my mood it’s my interpretation of everything outside usually both ganging up […]

dissociation is my power saving mode after another night trapped inside a waking nightmare factory inducing exquisite insanities a simple disconnect as september crashes into october in a haze of dreamembers turning to ash in little craters all around my satellite heart while it churns out aching odes to the ladies who knew after a […]

when giving in to the fluctuations occuring rampantly across both my x and y axes i breathe deep through broken glass filled lungs and remember once sylvia smiled as she watched the bees hank tore up another racing forum in abject disgust joey ramone didn’t want to grow up and lemmy doubled down on the […]

i have been shattered discarded and yet still i reflect your light in an array of dizzying dancing distortions a prism in reverse pulling the filaments of beauty into a bouquet of disappointments. a two dimensional take on transcendental wonder blurred by the mercurial madnesses effortlessly spun from effervescent sorrow clumsily molded into a vaguely […]

i am just an electrical spirit haunting a failing form of decaying meat forcefed stimuli i cannot quite trust while flushed with chemicals in all the wrong doses searching for another damned ghost locked in the same doom with whom to slowly rot together. instead i scream inside the confines of an ivory inlaided tomb […]

i pick through multicolored gravel your soulscatter gleaming voraciously aquarium rocks in illusionary shades of truth as i scrabble to reform the image of stolen moments sequestered in springtime follies beneath the wisteria in the sodden demise of yesterday’s wonder tucking away stones enhanced with heartglimmer laying by the oceanic realm of receding waves overpopulated […]

the air is filled with a stagnancy of pungent reminders in stale reticence as the pale moon fillibusters across the gentle bruising of morning’s fury a chalkdust phantom glaring muddily in hazy cerulean restraint a bitterness washes across the tentative skyline of concrete insignificance clawing desperate for one glorious moment in her unblinking gaze before […]

i may not be sure of what you see exactly when you look down and lock eyes as i feast upon the supple delicacy betwixt your lovely thighs but judging by the way your fingers grip the back of my skull as your body grows rigid as the waves of pleasure erase reality i imagine […]

the half blind poetfrom squinting at thefine print carefullyetched frantically uponanother tear streakedmissive on how it mostcertainly wasn’t me which only reiteratesit was never going to be me i had an epiphanywhilest pondering thepersnickety natureof pervasive chemicalsin another of my cyclicalplunges into the coldsluice of swirling angst there is a conjunction injuxtaposed disorders where exmarks […]

we are naught but pawns on someone else’s board despite our best attempts at being ourselves we have little control over how their perceptions discolor our truth as we become lesser than in their games of obsessive malaise i am no dream just a nightmare as yet unfulfilled ask the long line of former flames […]

she was the heroine of her own faerie tale happily allowing the evil queen to dictate her every move while bemoaning her fate as she ignored the breadcrumb trail leading to all the things she dreamt of i was the toad hoping to have my curse broken as her sweet lips were occupied on the […]

can anyone help i seem to have misplaced myself and i am very lost i am unsure if i ever really was here at all following the footsteps of phantoms fartherandfurther from the faded failings of former fiery phoenixes forever flaiing in flickering flames it’s fine same as it ever was ignore the muffled pleas […]

she smiled and i saw my apocalypse unfold (theskinwasblastedfrommy smilingskullasitriedtosmileback) i fell into her ringed madness so familiar (panickedparalysisaspinpricks ofadrenalineignitesendingflashes oflavenderblossomsbursting) she licked her lips and limerence in a rapturous rupture engulfed the world (thensehwasgoneandiwasleft shakinginapoolofmygreatest failuresdreamingofheraseverything fellapartandiwasntsureifsheeever wastrulythereatall)

i need to hide find myself in this mess of anxiety an understanding why i am incapable of being more than a shadow in the lives of loved ones borderline living means being a perpetual self fulfilling prophecy waiting for the other show to drop preparing for the worst with every cell until it is […]

the day has been a beguiling shade of silvery dementia in strains of autumn by way of summer’s contrite desperation to retain her thrall of fiery disdain in my hermitage the seasons are simply differently colored stains when i peek my head from my burrow leading to an easy disarray in confused dissociation as i […]

spent the night counting raindrops as they tapped against the window a brief nap where she awaited smiling sadly from across a chasm at a fool pondering a running start not considering if i could make it across or trying to be sure the fall was fatal and as i lay there heart hammering against […]

it is better for your heart if mine simply goes away no one should be expected to carry this burden and call it love

this morning the world is still pregnant with anticipation of the storms hovering a hushed staccato of brewing static the haze drapes itself over concrete spires the broken teeth of the smothered city pitted by pollution dehydrated by the fury of summer’s passionate glare

she told me she wanted to be the next page in my journal i asked her what page she thought she would be bettie or bible a smile flashed telling me she planned on being equal parts heaven and hell i smiled back and slowly vanished in front of her disbelieving gaze all that remained […]

the birds hop tentative after red skies washed over the pregnant silence of dawn breaking dream i hope she slept unphased by crimson as the sun’s fangs carved furrows in the onyx blanket casting stars to the lowly earth in summer’s last tantrum before autumn falls her somnambulist stare holding the last tender torn from […]

lost myself in the spiraling of dough and cinnamon floured nose as the kids snore low bass rumbles a tectonic dissonance in dissociative splendor as i roll up the hungering nothingness gently brushing her lips against the back of my neck i sink downdowndown through the cracked linoleum into the crawlspace between states of unbeing […]

there is a benevolence in her administering the poison directly into my aorta with a precision just as the effects of the last dose have sweated out one more hit chasing the disinterest in the chemical deficiencies leaving me vulnerable to wanting the fix as it destroys me

i hope this finds you well you woke fully rested the birds sang as the sun rose to take in your sheer beauty i hope you hit every green light and don’t have to wait on anyone today that everything you desire is within reach i hope your heart is full you are appreciated for […]

in a long languishing period of tarnished lucidity where an obsessional period diving deeply into a metaphorical jungle of jungian lunacy leaves me with a deeper grasp most modern psychology seems to be as baseless as astrology replacing dead celestial forms with a redundancy of blame shifting the unequivocal truth being no two beings see […]

my self imposedsolitudesitting crisscrossapplesauce inthe stagnant siltstale air in thebrass diving bellslowly contortingunder the intensepressure shiftingporous ivory bonesto diamond shatterwanly reflectingthe dying lightin hazel abandonment hank tells me thati shouldn’t trysylvia points acrooked finger tothe escape exitand i am frozen herethe black spotsdance as every cellscreams for the cool aira million miles abovethese sanguinisticsheets of […]

when i am reallyreally strugglingi try to paintthe pain in prettysmears of repulsive coat the suicidalideations in metaphorplace the maskdirectly into the ætherso no one sees me no one wants to seehell in personbrimstone sermonssatiate the curious toleave well enough alone my head and my hearthurt today and i don’tfeel much like paintingalthough i fantasizeof […]

the universe seeks balance little things like two books releasing at number one while you haven’t eaten in a week or so to make sure you stay hmuble there is no reward just a six foot hole and if you’re lucky they spell your name correctly before the constant wind erodes the granite into a […]

this fractured mind of mine is always falling downdowndown falling into love into depression dragged screaming into a manic fit broken fingernails lodged inside my hollowed out skull where i tried to perform another cunning escape from the chemicals forcing me to fall forever at terminal velocity with no hope of ever finally fucking crashing […]

if i could convince myself in limerence ignoring the frozen moment in which our souls recognized exactly what it was we both desired i only wish i could check out as easily as her not be sitting telling the sparrows to carry birthday wishes on the breeze