a flagrant case
of ho hum delirium
leaves a sediment
in concrete sentiment
sealing my mouth shut

what does a man
with nothing to his name
nolovenohopenodream
except for words
do when even they
have discarded him

apparently dissociate
explore the ruins within
process what is real
while reducing the screaming
to consistent white noise

when i need to talk
she pretended i didn’t exist
so when she was finally ready
i couldn’t make myself speak
but it didn’t change a thing
except she stopped pretending
and i simply ceased to be
in a feedback loop where
hurt and confusion still
cannot cancel out affection

i have nothing but words
and even they fail to flow
sitting in the silence staring
at the ceiling as the sparrows
sing of wildflowers in spring