the near constant temptation tolighteverythingonfire and dance nude as the flames slowlyconsumeme butterfly kisses across bare musculature strippedcleanofflesh and self misconceptions shifting to ashes swirling around her icy discontent a true artist with the right mixture ofashandtears could paint a masterpiece in everlastingagony the shadow of her smile a perfectly pointed tip from which to […]

this room stretches foreverandever in every direction. i sit perpendicular to nothing an impossibility hovering. a pregnant pause instructuredcalamity. an abstraction inabsurdapprehension aspiring to expire lostinarecursivemoment whileselfradicalizing selfacttualizing. afracturedfractal selfishlyinsufficient asthefrictioninfiction revealsaviciousviscosity venting dreamshatter in our spiraling demise. i am almost certain i was never here.

rupturedtendonenrapturedtension insomnialexistenceanxietalrampage got up early for a day of drugs and agonized limping half consciously singing along as the dwarves railagainstnormalcy. told the doctor unless he could put a bullet in the orange cocksucker doing his best to set the world on fire four weeks off my feet were as likely as true love or […]

there is a whimsical brass toad smoking a pipe while reading outside of the leasing office as gray cloud rush northernly toward what i can only imagine is trouble. i find myself unable to muster a miniscule amount of anything except an abridged apathy as i sit waiting. the world is still a shit show […]

there is an occasional solidness to this solitude where i forget there is more than obsessively world building and video games in the world moredulcettones than just empty tapping of my thumbsonscreen everything feels obscure and insincere clouded by ambitions or secret agendas and the less i venture out the more i see noonenotices myabsenceatall […]

my first love wasn’t the horror which filled my childhood home (in the written form) but the worlds of dragons and magic i didn’t feel my writing was quite up to snuff to attempt my own stab at high fantasy but now the thought has worked deeply into my brain and i am obsessed with […]

the weather was too perfect to not drive with the windows down knowing the pollen was dangerous and would lead to a sinus infection. now i long to feel the breeze on my swollen cheek as the trees blur into a static verdancym i am aware my particular poisons only lead to pain yet the […]

one day scholars will argue if any of this social media age was ever really real at all or just a symptom of mass delusion as billions reckon with the knowledge all of this from holy book to true love was meaningless a grand facade as we destroyed the only viable habitat in all the […]

gone gone the gangrenous garrison of hope corpse plucked clean by gregarious figures wrapped in ephemeral cloaks of ego twitching in time to the rigors as mortis settles legions of snarling dogs snapping at bloody scraps slowly starving while the fruits of their labor remain reserved a skinless hoarde seduced by salinity in an unseemly […]

an albatross is considered either an ill or good omen at sea which feels like a cop out there shouldn’t be either or in superstitions no half measures no depending on an albatross isn’t concerned with ominous portents of any form or fashion it just wants to go where ever the lodge stone in its […]

the thunderstorm adds an ambiance in audacious chatter as angine de poitrine plays mata zyklek in a fury inside i sit stunlocked in a loop so long starving an olive branch extended without a few actual olives feels like a slight without a salve to sooth the savagery of a thousand tiny cuts issued in […]

people will cut you out because they are far too busy so very important turning relationships professional then feel as if they can act unprofessional amongst friends without showing any friendship until it suits them i supply the art and seem to only ever receive excuses in lieu of services rendered

every day tiny wounds linger the closer to septic the system grows. willfully ignoring them can become unrecoverable. but some people stand so boldly in public yet let their cowardice override doing what needed done months ago to prevent things festering. hell what do i know? this fever hasn’t abated in nearly a year now.

i stood maybe half a mile from a busy highway watching a majestic black vulture with whitebandedwings feast on an unfortunatesquirrel while a turtle craned its long neck toward the sun while lazily perched on a half submerged log in a pond all around us an indecent squalor plastic billowing distant engines spewing pollutants yet […]

it isn’t the state of constant anxiety as much as how wrong everything feels in those rare moments of calm. caught myself daydreaming as i drove put my foot down to end the nonsense and ended up speeding to the next red light as i excise all hope for anything more than this bountiful harvest […]

i was asked nicely to no longer use my camera during meetings because while i have made advances in not calling out bullshit loudly thanks to mute i apparently manage to scream it with each of my facial expressions. i asked to just not be invited. it is a war of attrition. anyone who wants […]

she promised one day this ache would fade and in my foolish hope for a reprieve i neglected to realize that it would likely take forever. after all in our idiocy we did promise eternity in the throes of passion. neither lied not exactly as usually best intentions almost always end this way.

a perfect morning for driving with the windows down the music up too loud as a bank of gray sits sheltering the city the moderately fresh air swirlingthroughthecar as a fool sings loudly along with gibby haynes two human cannonballs sowing a path of carnage among the bristling herd left early to take the long […]