rupturedtendonenrapturedtension
insomnialexistenceanxietalrampage

got up early
for a day of drugs
and agonized limping
half consciously
singing along
as the dwarves
railagainstnormalcy.

told the doctor
unless he could put
a bullet in the
orange cocksucker
doing his best to
set the world on fire
four weeks off my feet
were as likely as
true love or meaning
in a world of absurdity.

if it weren’t for
pain and disappointment
days would go by
with me uncertain
i was ever here at all.