voices

i have spent my entire life not seeing myself but the monster that was beaten into me from childhood listening to the voice in the back of my head that said i can’t i’m not good enough why bother the face that scowled back in the mirror the self hatred that whispered in the night […]

still carry a beeper (metaphorically at least)

feel more eyes upon me daily unblinking orbs all around speak to me please i’m no boogeyman’s apprentice not a creature to be feared just don’t make eye contact known to give myself away for a few moments of interconnected ocular gazing so many new faces i’ve yet to see to caress gently with words […]