Month: March 2019
her’s
the first time i saw her the very first time a myriad of things ran through my mind the world slowed it was one of those rare moments the kind you remember the rest of your life a distinction level event an extinction level event because who i was prior to seeing her was forgotten […]
chthonic
i saw it climb clumsily up onto the dock at first i thought it must be a man out for a midnight swim then the clouds parted i saw the tentacles coming from where his mouth should have been i stifled a scream it shambled down the planks i forced myself to be smaller to […]
etching
soon i will have a raven etched into my arm, a symbol with deep meaning, facetted from different real of my world an homage to poe, the one that taught me the power of words, without who i would have never set down this path a metaphor for depression, without which i would not have […]
one day
the walls of the prison looked out over the raging seas, spotlights cast their beams like the roving eyes of angry giants, rusted spikes looped with razor wire like tinsel hung with malicious intent a small boat rocks haphazardly on the waves, a shadow on the obsidian waves, the huddled form in a long black […]
between points
slowly but surely the inexplicable journey from cradle to grave no proof of prior deviance, but deviant abhorrent behavior seems commonplace common scents beguile common sense skin stretched taut like a balloon at the edge of rupture, a lone soul in need of rapture, a free spirit seeking capture, blurry no matter the aperature not […]
out
crawling along the broken glass trail of hearts you’ve left in your wake determined to add mine to the rest of the offerings don’t worry i’ll be quiet, keep the sobbing to a minimum, try not to disturb your rest sleep on angel, i will show myself out
maladroit
the maladroit fool spinning yarn into nooses incapable of weaving a heart from silk the threads of whimsy seem coarse to the uninitiated sorrow tinges every thing with tar poor maladroit fool with his gnarled fingers like hooks incapable of finding the correct pattern to her heart
effortlessly cast shadows
feel like i don’t write poetry, just scribble in the margins of your masterpieces, unable to capture the same lightning in a bottle toy exude effortlessly everyone can see me as the fraud i am, the fool playing at poet, sloppily painting in the stencils you lay on the page my emotional tantrums are ripples […]
everyday should be women’s day
she is goddess she is mother she is sinner she is saint this is her day the fixer the cleaner the comfort the queen she is everything taken for granted worshipped from afar under paid never shown enough of her own worth she keeps all the plates spinning brings calm to the chaos gives in […]
weight
i began this life flying high above the clouds my fingertips trailed in the coldness of space every scar and sorrow a weight upon my soul drawing me closer closer closer to the earth now the skies are a distant memory the clouds on which i rested my head replaced by rock but still i […]
“Loveage – Book of the Month” and the fool’s words
half asleep, body sinking into the sheets, phantom need fills the dark room visions of my lips close to your ear, singing along softly as you fill the hollow that consumes me i am the tide, your lunar pull controls me, your celestial body filling me with desire if i told you to write your […]
monochrome
all the colors turned to gray as she walked out the door she took my world made it monochromatic with the simple act of leaving where once were purples and blues greens and neon pink black and white runs down the walls like rain colors blur like wisps at the edge of my vision flashes […]
(un)titled need V
i want to kiss you until your lips hurt are chapped painful but neither of us wants to stop coppery kisses long into the night
pane
mark sang about making love to a beautiful girl and feeling alive i just want to hold one i feel like an untempered pane of glass in a hurricane buffeted by the winds and nature until i am contorted to tensile extremes at the edge of shattering any subtle shift in pressure and i will […]
hunt
he knew the land like the back of his hand his people had hunted here for generations the full moon illuminated the night with pale white light he saw the buck made sure to stay downwind slowly he crept through the trees making no sound something alerted the deer’s preternatural sense it looked right at […]
raw
raw feeling nerves exposed feeling every piece of grit blown across the barren plain nothing makes sense nothing is right
off
drifting off into nothing be my tether keep me here it’s dark i’m afraid to travel the dark alone i just need a reason not to drift away the world feels off
Listen to the Fool
Tonight at 930CST. Gonna chat about the book. And probably other stuff. Maybe how many live goldfish I can fit in my mouth. But probably not. Anyhoo, thought I’d share. I’ve got a headache and miss your face. Hugs and kisses love me
tabby cat truths
sitting across from the train station in downtown dallas watching people make their way down chilly, dirty streets even the pigeons circling above seem to have had enough of this trash blows down the road, decorating the wasteland of miserable robots going about their dreary existence i am with the alley cats, staring down my […]
one day(at a lie)
he sits head in hands as the tribulations of another day spent in the too hot, too cold embrace of depression how do you continue to walk among the living knowing that all you have is rot inside how do you continue this facade of being part of society when that same society is as […]
bumper
hands on the wheel steadily steering off into the desolate land of plastic and steel dissonance the urge to jam down the pedal, careen off of as many of these bastards as possible direct this projectile to the heart of numbness bumper cars for the urban sports enthusiast euthanizing the carbon spewing monsters with deadly […]
anxious
curious curious, the lights in the sky, blinking a message across the vast eons worrisome worrisome, specks of colorful dye, polluting all of the waters abysmal deep in the shadows, beyond mortal recollection, lurking in the lost moments of time softly padding footsteps, across a desert of glass, what tremulous terrors at dusk hide serious […]
maybe hank was right
the goddamned neighbor’s dog is yipping and clawing at the door because i made the mistake of taking out the garbage and alerting it to the presence of life outside it’s domain the lady down the hall called me meester mike and handed me a plate of tamales ever since i fell from a tree […]
trapped at homeland insecurity
trapped security guard is giving me the evil eye the work issued phone doesn’t work no ability to call for confirmation perpetually early means no proof of who i am i would laugh if it wasn’t all so situation now fucked up like always things will get better or so the ones not at the […]
unsure
did i dream of wildflowers spread across the silken sheets, of tangled limbs, fevered oaths of forever or beady eyed stares, evil intents, dastardly desires hidden in the shadows beneath the barely standing bed creaking springs and terrible things or lustful yearnings with tantalizing need it all blends together six of one means half a […]
rancorous applause from the last booth in a burning down strip club, candy with her wooden leg aflame, salutes the troops
ayahuasca spirit animal, sheep in wolves clothing sweating the tar of sinuous desire, spiralling inward, ever faster, the eye of the whirlpool, vaginal security blankets dot the landscape, dreaming of wolves, shaking in tumultuous rancor someone drew a penis on the back of the last boat to freedom in the caked on muck of inner […]
music
i have been to hundreds of concerts, seen thousands of bands, listened to years worth of albums but the sound of your heart, with my ear pressed to your chest, your scent in my nose, your skin beneath my fingers it is a soothing symphony to my battered being, a balm across my broken soul, […]
cold
i can’t shake this feeling of cold, shivering, sitting on the couch staring at the cloudy sit outside lost in swirling gray i never told you that i love you, but you knew it, like the cold outside, it was impossible to ignore sparrows huddle on the edge of the roof, miserable looking fluffs of […]
lures
she only ever entered through the window, in the dark of night, never through a doorway where she could be seen, stopped by if it was convenient to her needs, not altruistic, though she wore the guise well, he didn’t see through the veil, unwilling or just foolish enough to believe the fog was normal […]
howler
true to their word, the dwarves let me go unharmed at the edge of their kingdom. nude. hands bound behind my back. and they were even sweet enough to dump a bucket of pheromones on me as i left. i ran screaming as every able bodied howler monkey chased after me with a gleam of […]
woodn’t
new job neurosis anxiety kicking in full effect forced sleep deprivation to fall into a coma last night woke up tired and afraid pacing retracing every mistake that led to this place failure failure just a bucket of guts picking up the pieces of the mirror so willfully shattered been trapped so long in shards […]
which
i can’t tell if it was all a lie you fed, i wanted to believe so badly or an illusion i created myself, with no footing in the real world i don’t know which hurts worse if it turns out to be true but it is one or the other and i am giving up […]
clinging to corpses
no one loves as hard as one in the cusp of losing it all maybe one who has nothing left comes close new love burns like a comet tracing through the cosmos, unaware the brighter it burns, the faster it melts but love on it’s last legs is inversely proportionate, the one who cannot let […]
(l)awful need
heavy scented floral arraignments, the noose falls on the jury, hung in my jaw, with the rest of the judgemental emotions not able to pass is it warranted, these false warrants issued for issues of despondency handcuff me to the headboard, lock me up, knowing your heart is the key, weigh me down with stones […]
Five more minutes
I don’t want to be pinched. I want five more minutes to live this dream. It’s real and it’s here and I am sitting with tears streaming down my cheeks staring at it. The only thing missing is my dad getting to make fun of me for it.
just sorta happened
it wasn’t a shatter, it was just a gradual cracking that began innocuously no dramatic explosion into shards one day it fell apart you would expect pomp and circumstance, and all that you got was a fizzle just an innocuous crack, not even sure you were the cause, it may have happened years before extraneous […]
yokai
six months ago i wrote this one, always loved it. wanted to share it again – me she wore an ankle length kimono as she walked barefoot through the lush grass of her yard, porcelain beauty in lunar rays broken by cloud the silky robe is adorned with a phoenix bursting forth from ash into […]
First review!
So today is the day I became an official author. I’m excited and slightly frightened beyond words. But the first review is up on Amazon. Notches: A Collection https://www.amazon.com/dp/1950259102/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_n6WECbT3DEB1P
speak my name
i leave footprints burnt in the ground behind me my eyes are slitted like a goat i’ll take your heart then i’ll take your soul leave nothing but brimstone when i go your every wish is my desire my desire your every dream take my hand, love don’t be worried i’ll show you pleasures you’ve […]
tired tanka
sleepless nights return tossing and turning again wishing for some peace none to be found here alone without your body near me
run
she and i were running through a field. the flowers in bloom and pollen filled the air like faery dust. i could feel the pollen attacking my lungs and filling my head with fuzz. she ran on, unknowing or uncaring at my slowing steps. i sank to my knees, wanting to call out but not […]
digitality
in the ever connected state of disconnected turbulent nonsense to be able to connect really connect find another pulsating on the same wavelength of pain, across a sea of electronic blips, encoded in nigh sentient ones and zeros should be impossible to view another’s soul through the vacant wash of digitality, syphoning their love, their […]
friends with scars
i have a friend, very far away, she suffered for being herself, it was unfair, and i love her so she is wonderful, brilliant, and trying to make it every day, she shines like a diamond, a star in the sky i have another friend, also far away, she suffered tyranny from outside, it was […]
softly spoken nothing
i wonder if i read aloud if the words can reach you if the issue is the writing not the expressing cock your ear to the wind my love while i gently murmur my feelings on the breeze can you hear them the softly whispered words of love and devotion curated for you alone can […]
check but not worthy of mate
she tried to teach me how to play chess i didn’t have the attention span to learn the finer rules as i tried and failed i realized i would always be the pawn taken by the queen no matter how i tried to be the knight she never saw me as the king worthy of […]
heart
when she_____is hurting all i long to do is make it better but it is out of my hands so instead i think but wish to do more
train(ing)
she sat in the aisle seat two rows ahead of me i saw her board my heart stopped i sat breathless unmoving as she innocently shined her smile across the train car i never wanted to take the train planes get you there fast but i needed the break i knew the next eight hours […]
the plum and the man
she was the last plum hanging before the first frost of winter the sweetest fruit nearly forgotten to wither on the branch he was starving barely staying upright fumbling down the road wobbly knees with distended belly she saw him quivered on her branch just enough to land gently on the grass beside his feet […]
washing machines and me
is there anything as lonely as a washing machine with no laundry a gaping maw waiting for sustenance, to perform the one function it has i like to drop quarters into them when the laundromat is empty and they are all alone let them slosh about with furious need, bereft of anything but purpose i […]
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