can you see them? the spiders crawling beneath my skin skittering legs tap tap tapping down my crooked spine poisoned fangs nibbling at my mind doing lines of fire ant killer seeking a new buzz to erase the dull buzz humming in my skull as they weave webs around my every regurgitated thought diamond carapaces […]

phantom limbs still tingle making it easy to mistake acceptance for depression dewy drops of tangible sorrows where naught but scars remain

teetering right between wanting to be heard and having nothing to say so i stay silent rather than reach out and sit alone in a dreary city park waiting for my next appointment

my days are a series of empty parking lots and apologies for things out of my control raging anxiety and an ease of dismissal that borders on the obscene my nights are dissecting every word spoken as i shrink falling between molecules to vanish among the quarks subatomic particulates quivering uselessly beneath notice there is […]

i want an unblemished tombstone with a cup of markers so others can write my epitaph let them scribble out the life of a fool who suffocated on words unsaid

the human eye has evolved to differentiate shades of green a surivial trait to discern threats in the dying forests i have evolved to become color blind trapped on a two dimensional plane where every shadow hides a certain and painful demise leaking black blood onto the pale gray floor of fundamental failings until the […]

the sun came through the window in bars of steaming golden light made somehow more solid by the trails of smoke illuminated in the four slanted recrangles hitting the red and white checkered table cloth and the porcelain rooster sitting proudly in its place of honor at the center of the table just out of […]

the song of the woodpecker seeking grubs in the lifeless corpse of a discarded mannequin plays mournfully in this absence of light furrows carved in a fixed look of exquisitely agonized longing weatherworn in a state of relapsed divinity

a flurry ofanxious energyhalf way into apanic attackonly to be safeand secured tothe couch asagitated punkplays loudly outinto the sleepyapartment complexof simplifiedprison cells i read thatyou should work outwhen the depressiongets to betoo much to handleso my every muscleis torn and achingyet the dark armsof the ever presentswirling abysspull at thelactic acidityof a soul lost […]

got to the laundromat before the drugs had a chance to kick in a static filled cloud of sparks angrily scowling as i hauled in my dirty load masked faces stare at the disheveled wreck in a titticaca shirt unprepared for an excursion out side of his prison my mind spins the same as the […]

a revolution of transitional evolution marching in lockstop sipping molotov cocktails chanting with one thunderous silence clinging desperately to the undercurrent of strange absurdities keeping this trashfire babylon just afloat upon a river of filth a palpable sense of time tumbling to stuttering disengagement as plagues fill anonymous mass graves and despots invade in the […]

fireflies flit throughout the recesses of my acid etched skeleton of hollow bone of not for the semitranslucent skin stretched into a parody of a grin the flashing lights signaling my love for her would be breathtaking my blood runs cold in heaving sprays of toxic masculinity to scorch the linings of vascular indifference a […]

unconscience thoughts a conscientious consciousness casting half chewed seeds to impregnate the dry soil with a convergence of amalgomous kernels of dreamscatter fields of broken hearted declarations of emancipated deterrents reaching callous capacity in overwrought agonies a sleepless sphere in salicylic idioms leaving fresh pink scars over an abundant emptiness lovingly wrapped in the silent […]

i almost died a few different times if not for a series of odd coincidences and faulty valves the world could have been a much more beautiful place proving fate has a taste for ugliness to blot away the hope in universal disbelief everything is in warbling state of shuddering ruination yet still i grasp […]

three years ago i was a newly published author with no name unemployed and struggling to keep the lights on four days later i started a new job and three years later i am an employed no name author struggling to keep the lights on still the cost of living keeps climbing yet the wage […]

there was a guy sitting on a bench with a pensive frown frozen on his tiny face he kept picking up then setting his phone back on his lap scowling deeper with each glance a pretty woman walked down the sidewalk a smile like the noontime sun brigthening the world around her he didn’t even […]

i had a bad habit of putting things off telling myself i would get to them tomorrow dreams and aspirations cast aside waiting on a nebulous tomorrow that kever seemed to come there was an infinite number of tomorrows in a bucket by the door certainly there was no reason to rush but now when […]

saint joey has a magical way of easing the stresses of a human trying his best to be the heartache and bitter hope in two minute blasts reminding us that this condition is a shared spiraling agony so when it all gets to be too much for my swiss cheese brain to comprehend i turn […]

he is a dodo driven to the brink of extinction by a faulty fight or flightless chemical response understanding on a cellular level there is no true means of eacaping himself whom he fully recognizes as the source of all his deficiencies he keeps reading learning intimately anxiety can be triggered as a direct response […]

there is a recession of heartsoil leaving nothing but arid desert where bountiful verdancy once reigned supreme a deprivation of essential need an anemia in tired denials swirling sands bite and sting burying all traces of fossilized hope a sleepless night draped in these ever present aimless anxieties a rejection of thorny dream as the […]

i witnessed the migratory patterns of newborn trucks latched on to the backs of their mothers making the slow ride from mexico up to the adoption centers spread along the winding corridor of interstate 35 i wonder how far they will travel perhaps all the way to minnesota cutting the entire length of the country […]

traffic crawls as i sit watching as cars dart annoying hummingbirds attention defecit jumping lane to lane getting no farther yet traveling twice as far going nowhere at the speed of frustrated self importance seeking to fit in the magic space that will evaporate the bumper to bumper sea of brake lights the pink flowers […]

i listen to all kinds of music but deep down it is fuzzy guitars and a rough voice singing punk rock odes to living that really get to my tarnished soul call out to my inner rebel the part of me with a ready set of middle fingers and a tolerance for lots of pain […]

i travel to an array of interesting at least to me different businesses all across the metroplex and sometimes far out in the sticks i am overly inquisitive always asking what they do in whatever office or warehouse that i find myself in usually it is blah blah blah financial this or insurance that something […]

the managers are careful to shower adulation in lieu of compensation throwing out vacant scripted praise aa they celebrate a year of record growth ignoring the skyrocketing cost of living as they deposit their bonuses before forgetting the ones who did the actual work remoras feeding on scraps from the shark’s feeding frenzy yet swimming […]

he lay bound by sorrow eyes crusted with the salt of unshed tears the world outside one he wished to be part of as far away as the melancholy sun barely risen hope and dream shattered glass beneath his parchment skin each word left unspoken a silver tack piercing his captive tongue