moonbeams

i read a gooey thing that said they wanted to love someone like the moon pouring light out of it’s soul the sheer idiocy amazed me the moon is a rock that reflects the sun’s light i wanted to tell him to use me as a reference i am a rock but i reflect the […]

Infinity

she has infinity in her eyes light streams in waves across the distance between hypnotizing with an allure that is indescribable my eyes are tea cups that can only be filled by her my mouth a saucer aching for her overflow my fingers are quills that can only be dipped in her ink my mind […]

addict

her soul is a satin scarf that winds around my heart every beat of happiness she feels ripples down through me sending chills waves of intoxicating bliss she is my drug i am a barely functional addict walking in a haze that i have chased my entire life

months

i used to be july, but now i’ve accepted i’m becoming september it’s okay i’m sure february me dreamt of being june and didn’t realize the slippery slope to september would follow i wear my encroaching fall like a man in a hoodie about to step into winter, unsure if the rain will turn to […]

spam comments

sometimes i wish my comment section was as full as my spam folder scrolling through in search of wayward missives, the bots really know how to stroke an ego lovely ladies are lonely, looking for me to spill poetry across their digitally naked forms online casinos guarantee my lucky streak continues with the loosest slots […]

harmonica

i used to have a harmonica it wasn’t punk rock but it was in black sabbath so i didn’t really care what anyone thought about it then i forgot about it moved to texas gave up on the dream of being a famous musician hard to be a musician when you don’t play an instrument […]

holoher

i play her hologram on a constant loop as the emptiness threatens to drown me i cannot touch her but i pantomime slow dancing in the side room i cannot hear her but imagine what the sound of her voice whispering to me is like the haze of dust floating through her lit up form […]

just one

your smile is the pull chain to the engine in my chest a simple glance at you is it all it takes to make my heart jump and shake in manic joy you are some kind of magician to be able to make my doubts disappear this is just one of the ten million reasons […]

teach me to fly

kiss me, for i’ll never fly, place your lips upon mine and take me to the heights i will never reach on my own let me fall into your embrace, experience the things poets have waxed upon since crawling from the caves into light look at me now, soaring above the world, speeding through clouds […]

favorite

it all slips away from me when i slip into the mindset of you the world fades and all there is is you these are my favorite moments of the day

she (is)

across the foamy waves on a continental divide of it’s own lies the one in which i dream as close as a whisper she coils herself within my chest within my mind speaks words of love that sends chills rippling along my being she is persephone she is aphrodite she is my goddess my every […]

a dream of locks and keys, pt VI

she stumbled onto his words quite by accident he read her’s as a courtesy in return what are the odds, the chance, in a million writers, from just as many walks of life, spread among the farthest reaches of the globe he would see her writing the words resonating in his mind she is brilliant […]

a dream of locks and keys, pt V

she makes the best of life it’s what she does ignoring the ache that has become just another part of the daily routine another symptom she finds religion it is enough to fill the void in it’s own way she is able to give her trust into a higher power that things will be what […]

in increments

if i don’t wake from slumber know you were the last thing to sit happily in my mind before i drifted on it’s safe to say before whatever end i face i will close my eyes see your face and smile that’s enough for this fool because every time i open them and you are […]

she controls the spiders

she controls the spiders by mutual understanding the same as how she controls the beating of my heart by putting herself into my skin finding the right rhythm and dancing with my skeleton in perfect time she sleeps with spiders in the corners spinning silk in which to entangle the flies her love the softest […]

ind(i)rect

the light pours itself through a pinprick in the sky even with my shoulder flaring in pain there is something soothing about the indirect light of a billion miles away twinkling upon me puts it all in perspective i am angry and miserable but the star doesn’t give a fuck at all so what does […]

a dream of locks and keys, pt III

she always had a knack at opening doors into the unseen intuition into the hidden matters of others but she was unable to find the one door that opened into happiness for her so she did what she knew best she helped others instead of herself even as the callus formed around her own heart […]

Solemn

every ode to Her is yours every line of longing every quiet moan in the middle of dream yours my mind my body my soul given freely with no hesitation and when the sun flares and consumes the earth, all that shall remain is my odes to you, even then, the heat of a supernova […]

for Her

there is nothing i wouldn’t give for you nothing that matters half as much as your love i just need to know that somewhere you are smiling when you look at me and ask if i ever regret a single thing on this long road to each other the miles between the time it took […]

mything in today’s world

he was a satyr unbound to anything but the bacchanalia. she was a dryad bound to her tree alone in the woods. he made it a game sneaking up on her as she sat in the branches. she gave quite the scream when he reached up to tickle her feet. he would stalk about the […]

finale

he lay silent for a long moment, staring at the ceiling, like he does every night, has done since he was a child it’s calming, the same but different every night, new vistas to explore, new faces hidden in the shadows tonight is different he lays with a notebook and knife, staring pensively between the […]

she is, while i madly am XIV

she is tested by crucible bathed in healing rain cast from amethyst in the form of delight she is crystalline divinty illuminating the darkness of another fear induced fugue is it any wonder i love her in supplication to the awe of her sublimation

a dream of locks and keys, pt II

the lock weighs heavy some days an anchor draped in ink across my heart numbing the world like a heavy metal antiseptic preventing the overflow a dam erected at the source of confusion so many ran their fingers across the lock only to roll over and face the wall rather than the indifference

a dream of locks and keys, pt I

i dreamt in this dream i sat in the leather chair listening to bill evans trio play lightly as the hum of the tattoo gun fired throughout my synapses i watched as the pulsating needles dipped into the little plastic cup of ink a spray of droplets danced across the metal tray covered in saran […]

she is, while i madly am XII

she is a natural wonder like the aurora borealis or a rainbow on a sunny day she is the moment of calm before the storm crashes down over the land is it any wonder i love her with the intensity of sunlight on a field of freshly fallen snow

she is, while i madly am XI

she is a lightning rod that pulls my thoughts standing alone in my head she is the coral that forms the biosphere of joy inside me is it any wonder i love her like the canvas loves the paint that unlocks it’s inner beauty

let me

let me run my fingers my lips my tongue my eyes over every delicious inch of your body let me kiss you in ways you only fantasized in dreams half remembered by sweat slicked skin and a damp spot on the sheet let me make love to you truly making love the line vanishing between […]

she is, while i madly am X

she is the sum of an equation so complex yet simple making pure happiness she is fresh baked cookies with a hint of cinnamon scent as you open the door is it any wonder i love her the home i have yearned for made so perfectly real

understanding

he is blind but knows every inch of her face like the sunrise kisses the land intimately each morning he is deaf but knows the lilting sound of her voice like a siren song across the waves he is mute but his tongue forms her name like a baby sparrow sings to the world by […]

she is, while madly am IX

she is that moment of waking from a dream to curl up closer to her better than dreaming she is the warm fingers grazing against need the feel of her soft hair against a freshly shaven cheek is it any wonder i love her like the tides love the moon above

she is, while i madly am VII

she is the joy in exploration of finding that which had always been sought but hid from the eye she is xmas morning as a child looking in anticipation barely able to sleep the night before is it any wonder i love her with the pure excitement of the fondest wish come true

she is, while i madly am VI

she is the first cup of coffee after fitful sleep filling every pore with life to face the day she is the cool side of the pillow after a hard day in which all the stress melts away is it any wonder i love her when she makes each day a wonder i long to […]

she is, while i madly am V

she is a dainty queen filled with poise yet an undercurrent of silliness lightens her royal beauty she is as perfect laughing with no make up as when she gets ready for a night out is it any wonder i love her when she sends joy intense enough to brighten the world

she is, while i madly am IV

she is the lone lily in a field of brown grass unfazed by the drought she is the song that calls through the darkness of another night of misery is it any wonder i love her as she shields me from nightmares with her light

trying

i get stuck like a needle in a worn out groove like a plastic bag in a tree my brain spins like a hamster on a wheel or a tire on the ice the same words no matter how written do not capture the scene in my mind i try to lay them across the […]

she is, while i madly am III

she is the one i have written about for so long in vain given form she is a dream made real yet somehow even better than any dream could be is it any wonder her name is the last i speak before sleep the first i utter upon waking

she is, while i madly am II

she is the first ray of sun after the storm had thundered for days upon days she is the first arc of lightning dancing across the sky after days of brutal heat is it any wonder i love her like the first gasp of air after swimming towards the light for eons

she is, while i madly am

she is a ghost like the shadow of the hollywood sign over a los angeles on fire she is the first wind of spring with a hint of summer to come is it any wonder that i love her like a million matches igniting all at once

sentence

her gaze cut like a guillotine dropping my mind into the wicker basket beneath her voice was a life sentence in my ear no wish for parole her touch sent voltage coursing through eager nerves convulsing in ecstacy her scent a lethal injection of bliss coming intoxicatingly from her every pore the taste of her […]

play with me

come closer let’s play a game you and i it doesn’t matter if you know the rules or not low stakes no pressure how about your heart as a starting ante i’ll be gentle if i win here are the rules sit there stare into my eyes watch the fire of passion burn that’s all […]

desert lily

her gaze across the lilac scented room pierced the haze of sorrow that once lay like mist over every part of his world she is magnificent the type of beauty that once seen cannot be forgotten burnt onto his optic nerve etched across his mind he felt as if dying of thirst lost in the […]

la luna llena

when she rises from slumber it is a different day for her while mine is still trailing into night la luna llena does she sing in the sky for you la luna llena through her i send my love to you when i fall into slumber it is still early in the day while we […]

almanac

she was an almanac of temptation a map of desire carefully constructed lust spread out across the mattress my fingers traced along the topographical lines of perfection of sheer wonder my tongue exploring tierra del fuego as she writhed against me i found the ring of fire setting off massive quakes along erogenous zones no […]

risen

there was a fire in my soul long gone from ember to settle into cold ash. you came stirred the remains with your curiosity reignited the flames inside. now it burns vibrant with an inferno that licks the sky feverishly. i was reborn awoken to be more than i ever dreamt before. a phoenix risen […]

standing

i cannot stop imagining you here standing there with a smile blinking away years as i try to take all of your wonder in there is an ache a longing a need that only you can sate so i sit let the world fade away while imagining you standing here my eyes glued to yours […]

memento mori

memento mori remember you have to die so live every moment like it is your last love as fiercely as you can never let up this is the honeymoon period the only one we get so memento mori my love until the very end i am yours

(un)titled surrender

it was in her hands i placed my heart a seed for her to nurture no where else did it feel as safe as there it was a sudden relief a gift a shower of light when she first stepped into view like a dream never before did letting go feel quite as right as […]

acceptance

he had sought the woman with wildflowers in her hair for so long he nearly missed the fact that she is the wildflower herself they say something of missing the forest for the trees he saw the flowers but nearly missed her lounging among the blooms he dreamt of plucking her gently by the stem […]

edge of rapture

the sun didn’t rise this morning, as it hasn’t for the last month, doubt it ever will again ash fills the skies, acrid and still burning, the silence is punctuated by the soft hiss of burning flesh the circle of strife, end times for the casual hedonist, apocalypse in three four measure pillars of smoke, […]

crystal clear

he carved a sculpture of his love out of ice in great detail he chiseled her features painstakingly trying to capture in the frozen medium her look that set him aflame days upon days he spent out in the freezing winds to create this monument to love without end when he finished he brought her […]

always belonged

i wish to learn the curves of your body like the winding country roads back home the ones i could navigate with no thought on those long summer nights of abandon to trail my fingers down your spine until it is as familiar as the feel of soft cotton bed sheets absently learn every vertebrae […]

slumber

i sat still dormant over time reclaimed by the world i had sought to vanish from lush vegetation clung to my craggy slopes still i slumbered then unbidden i was awoken she came laid her hands on the sleepy soil i tried to ignore that infusion the gentle waves of wakefulness rippling across my mind […]

did i tell you?

did i tell you how i had fallen for you without ever seeing your face that your heart sang to mine across the distance like two old friends across a worn table in a cozy bar recounting their lives how one time you said something it was earnest and sweet my immediate response was to […]

close your eyes

close your eyes my love, can you feel my hands upon your skin, my breath upon your neck do you hear my voice, as i whisper into your hair, savoring the smell of you as we lie here my warmth soaking into you as you push back into me, as i envelop you in a […]

coffee

she opened her ring, slipped the powder into the steaming cup of coffee a smile on her lips she offers me the mug, unaware i watched her nefarious deed i smile and take it she watches in anticipation as i gently blow on the brown liquid, declining her offer of sugar or cream my eyes […]

mobius smile

she walks across the room and my eyes were glued to her every step i love you the words fell out unbidden she smiles that smile that all smiles long to be a soft smile that belongs on her face that smile that belongs to me just as every bit of me belongs to her […]

endlessly try

i would write a poem of love for you but poems have endings and this does not, so in truth, every day shall be a continuation, a brand new ode with every fresh beginning, another chapter in the ongoing tale of impossibility a second, third, thousandth chance at defining the undefinable in which you embody […]

three

in three words she made certain my heart belonged to her it wasn’t promises of forever nor declarations of love it was so much simpler than that you are enough in those three words as if attaching wings to my heart i was hers

softly

the music plays softly your face against my chest as we sway in time to the band you are a dream to me one i never thought could come true let’s dance through the night feel my arms wrapped around you my lips on your forehead as you look up at me the rest of […]

eyes

i want to lose myself in your eyes let all the broken fall away and find the solace of your perfection it would be so easy to do most of the day is spent dreaming it, the rest wishing it were here and now what would you do if i told you that i love […]

past lives

the me i was moments ago died to allow me to be the person i am now i worry he died in vain did he take the coward’s way out to avoid the pain of life as this version fades in the dull ache as well i feel envious if there were a way to […]

her’s

the first time i saw her the very first time a myriad of things ran through my mind the world slowed it was one of those rare moments the kind you remember the rest of your life a distinction level event an extinction level event because who i was prior to seeing her was forgotten […]

one day

the walls of the prison looked out over the raging seas, spotlights cast their beams like the roving eyes of angry giants, rusted spikes looped with razor wire like tinsel hung with malicious intent a small boat rocks haphazardly on the waves, a shadow on the obsidian waves, the huddled form in a long black […]

out

crawling along the broken glass trail of hearts you’ve left in your wake determined to add mine to the rest of the offerings don’t worry i’ll be quiet, keep the sobbing to a minimum, try not to disturb your rest sleep on angel, i will show myself out

music

i have been to hundreds of concerts, seen thousands of bands, listened to years worth of albums but the sound of your heart, with my ear pressed to your chest, your scent in my nose, your skin beneath my fingers it is a soothing symphony to my battered being, a balm across my broken soul, […]

cold

i can’t shake this feeling of cold, shivering, sitting on the couch staring at the cloudy sit outside lost in swirling gray i never told you that i love you, but you knew it, like the cold outside, it was impossible to ignore sparrows huddle on the edge of the roof, miserable looking fluffs of […]

lures

she only ever entered through the window, in the dark of night, never through a doorway where she could be seen, stopped by if it was convenient to her needs, not altruistic, though she wore the guise well, he didn’t see through the veil, unwilling or just foolish enough to believe the fog was normal […]

clinging to corpses

no one loves as hard as one in the cusp of losing it all maybe one who has nothing left comes close new love burns like a comet tracing through the cosmos, unaware the brighter it burns, the faster it melts but love on it’s last legs is inversely proportionate, the one who cannot let […]

(l)awful need

heavy scented floral arraignments, the noose falls on the jury, hung in my jaw, with the rest of the judgemental emotions not able to pass is it warranted, these false warrants issued for issues of despondency handcuff me to the headboard, lock me up, knowing your heart is the key, weigh me down with stones […]

speak my name

i leave footprints burnt in the ground behind me my eyes are slitted like a goat i’ll take your heart then i’ll take your soul leave nothing but brimstone when i go your every wish is my desire my desire your every dream take my hand, love don’t be worried i’ll show you pleasures you’ve […]

friends with scars

i have a friend, very far away, she suffered for being herself, it was unfair, and i love her so she is wonderful, brilliant, and trying to make it every day, she shines like a diamond, a star in the sky i have another friend, also far away, she suffered tyranny from outside, it was […]

softly spoken nothing

i wonder if i read aloud if the words can reach you if the issue is the writing not the expressing cock your ear to the wind my love while i gently murmur my feelings on the breeze can you hear them the softly whispered words of love and devotion curated for you alone can […]

check but not worthy of mate

she tried to teach me how to play chess i didn’t have the attention span to learn the finer rules as i tried and failed i realized i would always be the pawn taken by the queen no matter how i tried to be the knight she never saw me as the king worthy of […]

f**cked

of all the hearts offered, the only one i wanted, was one i could never have that is how it works in my world reading declarations of love from the mouth i long to kiss knowing they will never be aimed at me dreaming of things that will never be yet still when i close […]

literary suicide

everytime you turn away i carve another piece of myself in a flaccid attempt at recalling your divine attention it began with occam’s razor down my wrist, the simplest solution seemed likely the best you removed your shoes and stomped the grapes of my wrath into a delicate whine, fermented in casks of anonymity, better […]

atavastic

strip remove your modern trappings allow me to feast upon your hidden spoils take it all off stand before me proudly displaying all your scars let me run my fingers across every inch of you plumb your depths drink in all of your wonder just strip it bare give it all to me every bit […]

re-entry mark two

it isn’t the re-entry that burned me to a crisp, it wasn’t the sudden in flux of atmosphere, the re-inflation of lungs with combustible gas it was her floating in a capsule with artificial gravity, pills to recreate emotional discourse, freeze dried remains, frozen scenes, moments of loss, trivial words that fell from their sockets […]

flyer

her ability as an escape artist the falling chains picked lock broken hairpin empty safe pulled up from the lake vanishing in a puff of smoke like a ninja no sign she ever existed except for the faintest hint of wildflowers floating faintly above the messy bed she was exactly what you wanted her to […]

call

i call her friday because she is freedom from the trials of the week i call her july because she is summer and all the joy that sunshine entails i call her though she doesn’t answer my calls i call out to her yet she goes where she will irregardless of my need i call […]

much (grains of sand)

i cannot make much, but i will build you a castle made out of sand, we can hide until the tides sweep us back into sea i cannot give much, but eternal dedication in the form of sloppy words, we can burn them to keep warm in the long lonesome night i can do both […]

be(longing)

the ink of her penned odes to another bleed through the page and stain my heart, it flows through my veins, attacking my marrow, etching her words into the double helix of despair that makes up the flawed being, barely being worthy of being a witness to her brilliance, being less than a human being, […]

book of you

there are shelves of classics all around the bedroom but none that can hold a candle to you works by the greatest poets in history, yet none have even come close to the majesty of you it’s your spine i would like to run my fingers down, your soul i wish to mine the secrets […]

fool(ish) pursuits

i sought the most beautiful stone to place upon your finger nothing was ever good enough in my eyes not for you maybe a stone from the riverbed would have been enough smoothed by the ever flowing stream a symbol of my love for you a fallen star set in onyx to show how long […]

ugly

love is an absence an abscess an access panel to nothing unfelt unrepentant unreal unacknowledged unaccepted unpronounced i saw it once oozing down the torn fishnet stocking of a prostitute with morning sickness behind a dumpster her left eye was swollen, when she smiled you could see the scars of life etched into her tattered […]

hydra

woke up in suddenly freezing abode after nearly eleven hours of fighting dreams, nearly mummified in twisted blankets my knuckles are sore, cracked and bleeding, my muscles are screaming, my voice has gone hoarse from screaming for you there is pomegranate juice spread across my chest, sticky and sweet smelling, the black grit of crawling […]

i hope

i hope he made you feel special today, gave you a massage, told you how beautiful you look, made it clear to the world that perfection begins and ends with your smiling face i hope he kissed you until you couldn’t breathe, made your toes curl, made you cum twenty times until you could barely […]

valentine

i don’t celebrate valentine’s day but i would if you were mine i would buy you a stuffed animal spray it with my cologne so when we are apart it is like i am there everyday would be valentine’s day i already write poems for you just imagine if i could make them come true […]

picnic

she asked me to take her to the moon for a picnic i thought about it long and hard it wasn’t difficult to set up the shuttle ride i packed a blanket and some food we held hands as the rocket shuddered and shook earth fell away like a blue marble beneath us when we […]

man of my (word)

i am a man of my word but that word is loneliness i built you a castle with my bare hands ignore the fact that it is made out of sand slowly falling apart in the rising tides my last home was a house of cards but without you it was a queen of hearts […]

boom(erang)

i can feel the half moons of blood well up on my palms as my oversharp fingernails cut into them shaking fists and throbbing temples is it frustration or simple contemplation, a restoration, an emancipation, a declaration of love that will never be love is a broken boomerang i continue to throw hoping one day […]

an argument against necromancy

if you are going to love someone make it a paleontologist someone that is willing to sift through the dirt and strata to find the skeleton hidden away to take the time to clean the remains rebuild a stable structure with nuts and bolts long after it has all fallen apart don’t fall in love […]

remain(s)

nothing that is here now was before and most likely won’t be in the future everything is temporary even my love for you will one day be dust and etchings on the ivory bones of my remains

sextet of regret

Balcones Fault i’ve left my heart and soul scattered along i-35 from dallas to del rio shattered like the tectonic shifts as my emotional stability was fracked in hopes of mining precious commodities * Fractured you opened things inside of me made me think there was a chance at something more but it was me […]

across the floor i glide alone

crystal chandeliers cast shadows of sparkling diamonds across the faded wood floor how our feet shuffled gracefully to the song that played when our hearts were one your hair like shimmering strands of spun gold as i twirled you in front of me your cheeks flushed as i dipped you ever so low and how […]

(un)requited IV

i won’t say the words that swell inside of me out loud not to have them fall upon deaf ears they have lost meaning i will try not to think them not to feel them grow inside of me until i feel i will burst if i could i would cut the part of myself […]

lightning

i was standing in a thunderstorm, watching the lightning play across the sky, the purple after images burned into my retinas rain running down my head and into my eyes, the crash of thunder palpable, my heart racing with every flash of voltage the smell of ozone burning mixed with that fresh rain scent, masking […]