the words areobstinatetoday slipslidingsidewaysto fall betweenthe barsof the sewer gratetrapped ina subterraneanwarren of hastilycarved tunnelsleading deeperdowndowndowninto the bowelsof hell itself chasinga flashingglimmerof spun silverthrough thislabyrinthi hear the screamspunctuatedby the crackingwhipsunable to tellif it ismy own screamsdeafening me deafened byobstinancein the fleetingpromiseof intangibilitiesas the wordsthemselvesdo not listen

the sounds are different waking in a strange place sneaking through gathering up my things trying my hardest not to disturb the snoring chorus the sounds of the city a blanket of white noise absent leaves rustle no planes no trains only the occasionaly splash as a truck drives past i like the solitude but […]

flush with pinpricks of negative lights flashing behind my eyelids too many thoughts not enough outlets lost in the spirals gravitational discrepancies distortions a message hidden in the white noise of a too loud existence a testament to insanity a swollen river washing away the footsteps of a fool’s solitary sojourn searching for meaning in […]

hanging on by the skin of my teeth the last threads unwinding in a display of technicolor dreamspatter soaking against bare skin goose pimpled from the howls of winter’s kiss clinging to the sheer cliff poised to tumble always falling downdowndown a long smear a lone tear sliding towards the hell hungering in my soul […]

i come from along line ofstubborn suicidalsmiserable bastardsthat drowntheir depressionsin drugsor boozea long line ofbroad shoulderedsilent sufferersthat would ratherchoke on the wordsthan askanyone everfor helptheir brilliancesquandered bya sea ofintoxicantslost in a hazeof blue smokeone foottiredly placedin front ofthe otherwhile softlylamentinga life of lies i come froma long line ofstubborn suicidalsbroad shoulderedbrilliant disastersthat never quitelived up […]

my father could fix any machine set in front of him his mind was made for disassambly able to keep all the pieces in order seeking the flaw when he was done it worked better than it had originally he got his start through necessity repairing the old washing machines at the laundromat his mother […]

lost track of miles ticked the odometer in my chest rolled over long ago i can remember every cemetery but the towns blur into a pastiche of rockwell on bad acid with hunter s gruesome parodies that only exist in the locked chambers in my skull hidden secret doors behind candlelit paintings of my favorite […]

the miles tick offas the trees becomea blur on the side ofthe same highway thatbisects my longingand my sorrowfulfeeling of never beingenough the record skipsthe repeated refrainscreamsthere’s no big bangjust a big mess i used to dreamwhen i was littleand lifeheld the promises ofunexplored ruinsbut you never trulyleave your homeno matter whereyou end upthe scars […]

the rivers arefloodingthe roads aresubmergedi sitmy car upon the racknew tiresnew brakesthe clang ofdropped toolsthe rumbleof thunderdark skiesover the well litgaragei sittalking tosome guywho works fora company namedafter a fruitthat drivesoperating acamera rigto better mapthe cityhis thickaccentmakes me smileas the rainstreams downthe windowthe city isdrowningtoo darkto properly mapso we sitexchangingsmall talkreally notsaying anythingat allwaiting foreither […]

this moment between storms where the air is thick with unshed tears a pressure squeezing tightly a world on the verge of deflation a sense of elation that this mockery is teetering i long to collapse fall into you forget the languishing dismay that circles a swarm of tiny flies biting the soft underside of […]

i feel disconnected dismissed dismissive disenfranchised disingenuous disliked disliked disliked . hated . the ceiling holds no answers anxiety has me by the balls squeezing whispering naughty thoughts it isn’t paranoia if you are out to get youself . dissolved in my own discourse discussing disparities distinterested in donning disambiguous distresses . i feel disembodied […]

i am a dam at the verge of collapse creaking timbers unable to hold back frigid sorrow a dam damned by his own lack of significance waiting for the tears to drown him

i collect the husks of my own dead dreams spread them across the floor so every step is a reminder of how i will never see them come to fruition. i have tried so hard every day yet all there is surrounding me is the nothing i deserve screaming unheard into the echo chamber cultivated […]

on dew dappled moonbeams i write in a shirt with sylvia smiling the rusted clang of once singing golden bells hangs a funeral pall clinging to the abstract obscurities wrapped around my deadened limbs i cry softly into the sparrow wings to soar from tree to tree an emu emulating the rancorous remembrance of the […]

the olive oil bubbles the onions grow translucent the garlic dissolves the sofrito suffused in liquid amber tomatoes both chopped and pasted salt to cut the acidity pepper to awaken the tongue water bubbles salty as the mediterranean the noodles dance spasmodically a slightly uncooked core to finish in the collandee freshly grated parmesan drifting […]

draped in gossamer filaments (a scent of citrus tickles the scurvy in threadworn ideations) tangled in dreadful damnation (staring directly into the eclipse shadows in duality waver daintily in combustible optic disaster) as i fall tumbling ever faster no heaven above no hell below. somedays i forget how to breathe choking on my intimate dismalities.

i am the drip never the elegant ripple a spot on the face of the sun my flame a cool cast of soulscatter burning up upon re-entry no i am the drip disrupting the placid surface never the ripple in elegant waves

i hereby disavow myself of the previous forced engagement between myself and gravity through the power of disbelief from here on forevermore into perpetuity i shall float ~ it isn’t a decision i have come to lightly; it was debated evaded degraded reinstated and still i found myself subjugated to an agreement i, in no […]

helioscopic rays sizzling across the petulant ache as miniscule miseries ride shotgun on the schismatics in the deepest of sublevels buried beneath layers of rambunctious denials my tongue is numbed incapable of tasting deafened blinded a senseless waste with the ambivalent stare of a discarded sex doll collecting dust in the back of a skeleton […]

drag the waters of my tepid insignificance cast your nets along with your petty dispersions to tredge the depths of sorrowful indignation for i am nothing but a dark speck on the unblinking eye of eternity a spectre where once a man stood beaten down by his own scattered dreamashes colored in shades of tortured […]

i dip my toesinto the surfaceof the sun(moltenmiseries meltingthe flesh frombone)the speakersare blowntinny distortionas the worldis filled withslivers ofpain(shootingstars race acrossthe negativespacebetween dazzlingdisplaysof absences)ensconced insilencethe vacuum ofspace between(irrationalheartsputters)razor lineseradicate theignobleindifferenceshown from thecelestialmisnomers/i am the ghostof the oak treeleft to hauntthe seeds thatlitter the forestfloor/(untouchedby the callousnessof the pulsatingstarshines) i dipmy body of sininto the milky […]

it is nearly summer but the touch of winter clings to my woe encrusted emptiness too much rain blotting out the needed rays drenching my hollowboned laissez faire with hints of cloven despair the beavers in my cavernous skull have dammed the streaming weapons of vernacular warfare techniques leaving a fool sputtering as he drowns […]

the teeth of the gears dreary rusted shark toothed in dire need of replacement the chain slips as i fall back into the cicadian rhythms of fourteen years in solitude an overhaul clean regrease release back into a constant state of bewildered misunderstanding beneath the ice there is gravel but the lack of traction makes […]

the cars sit an angry centipede trapped in fury along the gigantic concrete over pass moving incrementally forward by inches stuck in the rain watching a city caught in the storm ever creeping closer i can’t see the accident that dreadfully impedes the gray afternoon just the tailights in front and the headlights behind me […]

i crackle swaying in the errant breeze cellophane left ignored to fade away stamped with a dire warning left unread woe to thee that seeks salvation for only the damned may truly know the joy in roaming free i crackle the rain beats along my cellophane soulstutter collecting in my many wrinkles left stagnant by […]

if anyone sees that snot nosed brat that sat crying alone on mother’s day tapping out the digits to someone twelve years in the past looking for the reason he was never enough just a bag of trash on the side of life’s highway tangled in the concrete separating the fast lane from whatever congestion […]

verily the words seem coated in slime slipping through clumsy lips to tumble to the ground with a wet splat slugs with razor sharp coils of teeth leaving nothing but a fair trail of innocuous snot dripping off of every failed line it is cool today with a threat of rain the buildings sway as […]

writing poetry is easy a razor dragged down soft flesh cutting through emotional tissue seperating meat from bone don’t let anyone tell you different just carve your own roadmap of agonies pick off any scabs that may carelessly form and when you’ve got nothing left in the tank that’s when you have to find new […]

my hands graspthe swollen moonclutching tighta cratered balloonwhite knuckledgripping the stringas it desperatelytries to take wingscattered acrosscalligraphy dreamsdevoid of hopeseffused by moonbeams home is wherei hang myselfa scratchy ropeat the end ofa dark hallwaycomfort in theeternal embracegravedirt undermy fingernailsa wilted rosesadly facingdown towardsthe eagerly opengates to hellhome is wherethe heart isa place ofsafety froma world […]

she was a collection of sharp angles a hidden image in the freckles i longed to connect with my shaking lips her smile crackled through every single prepubescent fantasy the first time my lips pressed tightly to her mouth was a comedy of foolish error where she waited for me to make my move before […]

you taught me how to shoplift to hold my tongue or feel the sting hospital corners to fake a grin mash the pain deep down to let it fester poison the nearly shattered sense of self you left stabbing out of paperthin skin you were copernicus the world circling around you alone an infinite cosmos […]

the trees lean together conspiratorially branches scraping scabrous digits clawing through the fetid air left a trail of breadcrumbs yet only managed a flock of sparrows that peck as the trunks slowly swallow any sight of potential freedom the north star spins around the bored face of lunar boredoms drawn in cratered sorrows impacted by […]

so many lines that mean something different when i go back through them the visceral reaction remains unchanged but the wording feels foreign off a degree the person that scribbled them long deceased standing on a different vertical axis existing in another time screaming out in a different tense or maybe an old tension i […]

a loss of control dry pavement a case of hydroplaning spinning concentric circles tighter tighter being pulled directly into the clogged drain of eternal torments distorted in a dishonest display of photonic disassembly stretched taffy in the arms of robotic insolence the sky is blood red the sun a ruby of unrestrained hatred obliterating the […]

an umbrella rests next to the door for as long as i can remember i have left an umbrella resting next to the door i never use it when it is raining i just duck my head low and scurry like a rat to the car there is another in the door of the car […]

the fascination in taking things apart putting them back together understanding how the gears interlock the direction they spin tracing wires figuring out what made them function i have pulled myself into pieces a kaleidoscopic cellular breakdown to figure out what is wrong with me in the hopes of magically putting myself back together functional […]

yesterday the world was silent this morning it refuses to shut the fuck up something out there has the birds in a tizzy the sun already seems too high and if i could close the blinds find a way to catch all the sleep that ignored my silent pleas and wake up in a land […]

i choke gagging hands clutched to my throat finally the obstruction breaks free i begin vomiting flower petals onto the rainswept sidewalk a cacophony of hues puffs of airy pollen fairydashes of sweet scents a coagulation of efflorescence a symphonic swarming in blossomed decay spewed to deface the faceless face of reckless consumerism as presented […]

scattereddust motesacrossthe anus of timeunable tograspsubstantialitylostin a turbulencerestlessindifference thewordsrefusetospeaktheyscreaminchoaterage insputteringgasps incapabilityin culpabilityincandescentin indecentdescents a hushed crygoes unheard

in a world of echoes i lose track of if i am real or just a tinny reverberation off the cave walls i am a distortion a mirage a shapeless shadow in the steam dripping down the mirror if i was ever truly here at all.

interlocking rows of teeth fed reams of paper hardened steel rollers chews and spits a basket of shredded financial confetti but no more matter the design and care it is paoer that will eventually destroy the paper shredder much the same way as life is the number one leading cause of death the things we […]

bleak. bloated. a cascading waterfall of hellblight thunderkisses. ranting ever screaming streaming curses to the empty sky. a smattering of pretense. a caustic haze of ever firing relays a maze a blaze malaise. bleakly bloated insidiously corroded weakly exploited. a sand dune in the shape of surrender one last drink at the molotov cocktail happy […]

the vampire lies awake through the day longing to feel the sun’s gentle kiss i lie awake through the night longing for you tightly wrapped in my embrace i worry in the quiet before sunrise that monsters like me are destined to pine away for the light that never shines on their rancid souls

spent so long trying to be different to be better than i was but this leper cannot change his weeping wounds always a photo negative representation of what is reflected back from the clear waters that only show me the parts that will never be right about the aching fool drowning in three inches of […]

in a bathysphere headed deep down fathoms beneath the jagged sawtooths cutting the surface needing the sanctity of the metal walls to keep me safe from this impending breakdown a flower pulling its petals closed reacting to barometric inconsistencies a late frost impending doom impeding rational thoughts until all there is is sheer panic a […]

sorting through these rusted rotting remnants of a life slowly pulled across razor blades hidden in the carpeted filth in a baselessly improbably petulant existence left distinctly wanting

too long spent wishing upon the scattered dust of dreams best left unfulfilled carrying a shovel only meant for digging my own grave as the ladies dance flowing skirts rising higher and higher until all that is left to the imagination is another set of night tremors that vanish in the early face of the […]

fallen into a loop a cycle of repeated transitional disaster not sleeping unable to think burning myself out by pushing myself too far past the brink of my home made self-extinction fantasy is it suicide working yourself to death yet never having anything to show but a sore back bloody knuckles when the only external […]

emotional stability a suture bridging kaleidoscopic catastrophes and a meandering sense of selfless undulating regrets i walk through this garden a weed amongst the flowers a thorny disruption in the petals of sweet serendipitous regalia an unlit molotov teetering another roundabout for the unruly mob of subversives with chattering ivory fangs

my thoughts are wrecking balls slowly destroying the parts of me i cannot face in the mercurial surface of my own reflected dismissal. i am a vampire draining the day of light in a perpetual thunderstorm of acidic malaise. in this translucent prison of fundamental failures of the flesh i am the warden the prisoner […]

the sun overslept or maybe the world spins slower than it used to but i rolled over it was still dark while i felt every off kilter revolution on a broken axis it feels like the only good sleep comes five minutes before the alarm while the rest of the restless nights are spent searching […]

she came stomping through my life in a pair of dangerously high concrete stilettos mascara ran thick down alabaster skin the revolution wasn’t worthy of broadcast on the most basic tier yet she still managed to cast a funeral pall in beautiful sorrows across broadband delusionary frequencies buried in the ashes carried by bittersweet murmured […]

i have never askedfor more than enoughhaving receivedlesser and lesseri learned to stoppraying i wouldone daymove the mountaininstead hoping justto have the strengthto walk around it. i whisper all mydesires and needsto the ceilingit feels the sameas prayersjust the ceiling existsand doesn’t hide itscasual disdain. floating on the seaslost and tiredseeing your facein the sea […]

as a kid i was always fascinated by the machine at the hardware store that made copies of keys unaware it was a simple jig that traced the edge of the original key my lack of understanding implied a sense of skill perhaps even magical in the art of duplication the simplicity of the world […]

spots dance in the corners of my vision black bloated flies in random states of fucking crowding in thick oblong orbiting dementias tinting the world in varied shades of purloined virtuous sin i didn’t get out of bed today with the intention of running head first into the walls my limitations have set but i […]

i keep little mementos in my between my caged ribs so when i sit just right the memories jaggedly pressed into my lungs coloring every gasping breath in pastel fragments of who i once was my marrow tinted in words left unsaid as i wheeze out another line about the ones that carved their initials […]

we were all forced into this state of being so if we can do a little to make it better for everyone that doesn’t seem like a big thing to ask. respect is earned but kindness is always free. seems to get forgotten in the day to day of trying to survive.

rats gnaw at my toes as my guts gurgle acidic odes to empty cupboards a dream, a joke, a life left half conscripted by a string of hearts not quite won over with clumsy attempts at ill mannered charm unseen in the rippling ugliness seething at the surface bury my scraps in unconsecrated soil leave […]