heuristic

my hands shake as i shave my skull filled to overflowing with patches of oh so prickly misunderstandings running occam’s razor in my haphazard holistically heuristic half assed approach to mental wellness sometimes the best of all answers is the one that carries the fewest assumptions while other times i just want it to be […]

livid

i cannot get out of my own raging brain writing words of venomous disdain on a loop if i don’t have anything nice to say scream in lowercase and delete the poems or save them for a collection for later on depends on just how angry the bastards have made me and i am absolutely […]

bitter pills dissolved in nascent morn

truthfully, no hope is not as dead as when i degrade it the words falling over maggoty lips a false proclamation made in the insidious heartscape of denial i remain ever hopeful in the desire for hope to come happily to fruition hoping against hope for hope in an endless cycle of self delusion i […]

naivety takes pawn

he staresup at the ceilingalonejust the gymnastspracticingtheir routineabove himand a skullsplitting painreminding himhe stillreluctantlysomewhat exists he givestoo muchmost likely fortoo longclinging to thebroken thingshe foolishly believeshe can putback together againclutching tightto dreamshe stubbornly refusesto admitare long deadsoot stainswhere a lackof accomplishmentbecomes anotherburden of proof he staresup at the passivejudgment ofthe ceilingspilling hispain and regretinto thesilenceforgottenalonehaving […]

the fog of phantom memory

the fog rose from the fields along the sides of the two lane road billowing across the dark of a sleepy dawn the whorls of white played on the chill ever present wind beckoning gently a ghost tide of glacial patience covering scars made millenia before racing the rising sun down the highway far from […]

daydreaming sabbaticals

i wake i sit in the quiet alone i write tap tap tapping spilling out as much of my ugliness as the world can ignore every single day it brings no peace of mind to the pieces of mind i can sometiimes find a fool tapdancing in the shadows of a burned out spotlight clouds […]

solid

perhaps i amindignantfuriously passivepetulantly glaringwaiting forsomething anythingthat could possiblymake me feel more an inert sparka fleeting hopedashed uponthe harsh reefa letdowna failurea deep regretetched deeplyinto subliminalignorance an amorphouscloud of locustspetrifiedin thick amberperfectly preservedimperfections hazily clusteredphotonic disarraybounced swiftlyfrom dead satellitemalignanciesthe dark side oflunar lunacya maladjustedinconvenience a blood spatterkaleidoscopic nightmarea gentle rippleblack against blackover the stillheartof the […]

liquid

perhaps i ama pigmentmercurial blackcollecting tearsuntil astray nibplucks mefrom the jar an ebon slivera numbness runningpins and needlesdown your spinea pricklinga burninga blinding flashigniting lightningthrough codifiedheartschisms a totem carvedfrom driftwooddrowning myselfin an oceanof sublimatedpainshivers a time capsuleof childhood dreamsencased inadult realizationscrystallizedby the fadingmemory of lighthot lancesin the sullen night uncertain outsidemyopic misperceptionshoarfrost coatingthe dismissive stareof […]

gaseous

perhaps i am a figment semi autonomous collecting dust until a stray thought summons me back into being a silver glimmer a tickle caught in the back of your throat a nuisance an annoyance a sharp pain running ramshackle along trigeminal nervousness an indistinct wrecking ball hanging myself in the darkness just outside of actual […]

artful deceptions

do you remember the game where you whispered a phrase to your friend who repeated it on and on to the end of the line where you found the original words had been obliterated? narratives seem to go much the same way from the truth of events into this malleable clay in which the actual […]

plain planes train trains

the planes chatter loudly above reminscent of the trains that used to pass behind my house the sound rattles irritated ossicles but it is silence tearing me apart the day is lazy yet my mind races unable to hear the voice of the story as it builds seeds of chaos sprout in the garden of […]

switchblades

i am a teddy bear wrapped in shards of broken dreams she is a razor blade hidden in a bouquet of freshly picked wildflowers our tongues are switchblades tucked behind smiling lips our hearts are sparrows anxious withing wicker cages she fills my cracked soul with peony petals as she gently weaves gossamer light to […]

cold and rainy as i move forward into the gray

i managed to succumb to sleep as the pounding drums began to rattle my skull i woke a few hours later wrapped in rain and cold as aches raced from my shoulders to my brain shivering beneath the thin gray sheet ensconced in a veil of autumn and intermittent sullen agonies the skies threatened impregnated […]

i(n) echolalia

each night spent longing to sleep finally drifting off to find you smiling at me and the longing becomes for more i yearn desperately to sleep forever in that place where the clear skies shine down upon you poetry given form my hungry hands my starving lips the need that pulls my heartbeat into a […]

nodding to the beat, not the sorrow

it was already one of those days where the idea of taking off my shoes leaving them sitting with a note on the passenger seat then jumping into the inviting lake from the concrete bridge spanning the shores then i found out another friend had killed himself i guess those of us with mental issues […]

amateur documentarian

the ease of capturing every single moment sharing the most minscule developments to an electronically tethered ever shrinking world makes the most mundane tasks carry an air of actual accomplishment but i think of all the once in a lifetime events lost to hungry maw of time immemorial the things worthy of our remembrances rather […]

worth(less)

the thin line separating capitalism from cannibalism haunts me on these two day runs without an hour of sleep defintions slough away like rancid chunks of flesh until each word is just a puzzle of disharmonic consonants like the cries trapped deep in the back of my torn bloody throat consumerism begins to fade and […]

snaps

i cannot tell if it is loneliness or depression that lovingly ties the noose but there is something so reassuring in the weightlessness the moment just before the rope snaps

l’amour fou

he stands silent irredeemable in the face of oblivion a storm of pollen drapes the land as words fall unheard from stuttering lips he finds himself lost in a sea of wildflowers swaying beneath the disinterest of the sleepy sun his heartbeat shudders cracking the ground a trail of longing quakes leaving the best parts […]

icicle

she stabbed him through the heart with an icicle the perfect crime leaving no evidence she was ever there just a jagged hole in his chest from the shard of tears to confound the police it was ruled suicide self inflicted by a fool who dared to dream the sweetest dream

pain

the bones of my skull shift tectonically my heart was sewn in upside down and inside out the button eyes hang threads of flesh hastily stitched together a golem of dessicated remains shambling forth from the crypt lovingly placed by the same gnarled hands that put me together the wind is cool against my scarred […]

lost in the eyes of a crow

the crow stares at me perched on the hood head cocked curiously it is motionless as if waiting for me to break the silence i don’t know what it wants to hear so i don’t say anything at all rather than risk breaking the strange spell perhaps the light is reflecting oddly off of the […]

floating in a vacuum of his own creation

he thinks so much of himself that no one else seems to matter he talks over the entire group beleiving his opinion is the only one anyone wants to hear he over conpensates on a constant basis thinking if he is the loudest in the room it means everyone will have to acknowledge him take […]

infested

it is an infestation a million shadows flitting at the edge of sight i watch them from the corner of my eye waiting for them to gather en masse and consume me whole leaving my hollow bones scattered across the floor her name etched deeply into the splintered ivory i think they understand they wait […]

your town sucks

they talk with false bravado making fun of the rival town that hasn’t been anymore than a reflection of the ghost town they live in little people puffing out their chests knowing there is a whole world but never leaving the same fifty mile radius following the path laid out by their daddy who learned […]

bluster

the traffic lights swing back and forth as the blustery winds rock my car i sit alone in the middle of nowhere as the hawks circle listening intently to the words of a fool i cannot tell if it is the gales making the treetops shake like pom-poms the swirling mass of shaken leaves spins […]

opinions

i do believe everyone is entitled to their own opinion i do not believe the entitlement extends to forcing said opinion down the throats of those that disagree we get so caught up in expressing ourselves we forget other ideas can be just as valid i find no matter sex, religion, or race i hold […]

try not to count

age is an accumulation of various despairs that pile up until once soft skin becomes a testament to indescribable agony i wonder how many sunless days spent beneath untethered storms have ticked away from my grand total how many i simply wasted while wishing to die does it show mile markers on the road map […]

midday lunacy

visceral snapshots of frozen anguishes in half shuttered exposure an intensity of night pulsating hollowly from the midday moon unsatisfied with supping daylight scraps an inception an assertion a lucid diversion an oversaturation of the echoing silence a sine wave connects our bleeding hearts a manifestation of the sun’s caress upon the cratered cheek of […]

an ocea(n) of gray

i woke unrested to a day without the sun frantically sending my love in waves to gently wash over the wildflowers in lulls between the downpour of rain the sparrows sing a dirgeful symphony to dark skies above i murmur poetry a chain of passionate kisses embers floating through the aether to find her perfect […]

amicable airlines

i cut the brake lines before heading off onto another one way trip the wrong way towards a better tomorrow the gas light is on running on the fumes of yesterday’s ambition unwilling to be part of the change needed to finally find success the gas pedal is pressed all the way to the floor […]

wincing in time to broken clocks

silence does not breathe an utterance of restfulness the stuttering hands of time erase dream from insomniac eyes leaving blood draining out of tear ducts long past overused i looked up to find a spider hanging from a monofilament thread, slowly spinning as it watched to see if sleep would capture my mind so it […]

an invisible fungi

when we realize just how inconsequential we truly are the idea of a greater purpose of any kind becomes laughable a daydream to smother as life continues without a second thought as to how we stumble half blind through crowds and minefields incapable of asserting enough of a presence to be thought of at all […]

dissociating roads

there are stretches of the texas landscape that lull me into a brief moment of frantic wonder as to where i am as i dissociate among the winding scars and eagles circling above i cannot recall exactly if i am still in texas or if i am driving past starved rock on my way down […]

no speaking parts for those whom forget their alarms

forgot to set the alarm last night woke to hear the birds singing ten minutes before it would have rang i feel ancillary to whatever plot the universe has rolled out today a barnacle clinging to be part of the grand production i will be playing the part of stone three it is an unspeaking […]

bleed pretty in a puddle of tears

it is quiet i cannot tell if it is the wind or a baby crying a muffled wailing seeping through the apartment walls i am stuck unable to move forward as none of the ideas feel good enough second guessing the fifteenth guess tearing it all into pieces littering the floor shards of eggshells on […]

a lost sense of meaning

the things that define us are the same things that confine us a series of paper dolls faces contorted in abject misery fluttering madly in the rain the rough blades mindlessly slice creating more souls in this daisy chain of self awareness to scream as one as we hurtle faster into incomprehensible states of dismay […]

as clear as silt

it feels as if the parted seas allowed me to stagger halfway nervously venturing across sucking silt as the waters churned mockingly on either side just to feel momentary calm before slamming back into place this isn’t another one about drowning we all see through the clumsy metaphor it is a call out to the […]

a hush falls over the fool

in the quiet moments between bouts of manic anxiety and depressed malaise exists a realm of boundless optimism where i can frolic for minutes every month i cling to these scant seconds so tightly a quiet place to ride out the storms our eyes scan the sky for rainbows they let us know that the […]

stars in the shape of smiles

at times i feel so far removed from actual living an ache forms a soft sad little dim light shining through my torn tissue paper heart i exist in the center of an abstract algorithm calculating absurdity too ignorant to find a solution or perhaps too ill equipped to properly enact one when you view […]

i scream at the ducks in my best inside voice

the pointlessness is pointed jabbing pricking stabbing poking a trail of red running down my inner arm over forearms to drip down making sticky fingers this sticky wicket the immenisity in the unnecessarily pointed pointlessness that is my everyday discombobulation

broken heart brigade

they shamble past moaning incoherently backs bent by the weight of past loss clinging to agonies slowly breaking them into parodies of the people they once thought they were unwilling to let go still strangling the light from past flames unable to accept they starved the oxygen from infernos that blazed across the sky corpses […]

angels are bastards, the moon remains aloof

this couch is uncomfortable i sit pensive swatting at these insipid little angels as they circle my head with unblinking eyes four pair of wings flaming halos singing my beard when they get too close to me my ceiling is my neighbor’s dance hall the dulcet tones of a yelping dog keep time with the […]

perhaps a nap and a fillbuster

the hands of the clock worried into knots lending an immobility to the fractured sky i woke upside down as the birds swam across a sea of clouds wasps buzzing trapped in the screen door as shadows scurry beneath the toaster the world caught in sublimation subliminal in hoarse cries a flummoxation of verdant leaves […]

cartoon hearts on frozen flesh

a voice spoke to me from the cold side of forever in a sepulchral song tickling my inner ear waves of frigid serenity in surrender coalescing around my lizard brain i know not whom calls from beyond the veil whispering torment in the antithesis of daylight from beneath the liquid metals sloshing about the heart […]

inciteful

one day after i have finally died i hope no one searches for meaning in my words dissecting poetry is the same as listening to someone describe their favorite sunset the perfect mix of pink and purple a hint of dark to the east when the diffusion of golden light saturated the world in a […]

microscopic reversibility

there is a principle ofmicroscopic reversibilitya theoretical detanglingof proteins that couldallow man to unboil an eggreverting a solid intoits original state send me backwardsto a protozoan formback before the sunlightshone down with suchdegrading malevolencebreak me down into mybasic components andlet me drift off the cliffinto the gelatinous lakeof the primordial ooze before gillsbefore lungsbefore the […]

translucent spiders hatch from memory clusters

an echo rings out but no sound preceded a fuzzy aura halos that shouldn’t exist recombinant memories transcribed on frozen flesh a flurry of snapping bands bands of thorns a telltale trail of crimson droplets sprinting numbed to the horrors certain to lurk in the shadows of thought lancing memories a regurgitation of pain in […]

untrained plumbers

love is not a faucet no tap to shut off it does not just fade but is allowed to become oversaturated with the minutiae of the day to day shuffle until we stop seeing the shimmering joy for the speckles of minor deviations in color and granular design we are children with shiny new scissors […]

brazenly aware

i see their pictures the youth i remember drained from the faces i barely can recall grown lined and round happy creases in the corners of sparkling eyes a single snapshot does not encapsulate the bickering screaming each petty barb cast this photo shows two people that have taken good and bad and found a […]

canned laughter

i worry sometimes all i am is a sea of misaprehenions a slurry of words spat in the same sullen monotony a flake of dandruff marring an immaculate suit other times i am sure of it but occasionally i yearn to be more than the last drink half spit half cheap whiskey left forgotten in […]

a cheap death

the idea of dying in a hospital horrifies me the knowledge that all i could leave is astronomical bills i will likely die in misery at home secure in the knowledge i didn’t saddle my loved ones with a mountain of debt that says something about the terrible state of healthcare here government funded addiction […]

a mannequin in the throes of electronic reverberation

an electron dispersion as dream turns to a shower of sparks smoldering upon the carefully tucked covers until the entire dreamscape becomes a raging inferno slowly consuming every stray oxygen molecule to fuel the never ending destruction tossing and turning a cold sweat clings to numbed flesh another evening spent in the throes of manic […]

typing the end

there is a completion in letting go of the last vestige of dream a happy sigh as the pressure leaks out falling slowly into the routines left behind no more frantic scratching just releasing the voices settling into silence the incessant cycle creation to deflation begin again and again until you are buried under unpublished […]

bats

he smiled showing granite teeth carved into fangs bats flew out from the darkness that was his howling forever a schism in skin a skein of fate unravelled tangled yarn of a million degnerate souls in a pile of brightly colored distress still he smiled through the cloud of rabid rodents with hungry maws screeching […]

morning norms

a thunderous doom rings clear in the quiet morn the powder clots no matter how much i stir the glass it floats and bobs defiantly on the surface reminding me there is nothing in existence i have any control over yet i keep turning the spoon moronically the steady bursts of lavender blossoms light the […]

table scraps of the hms beagle

perhaps poetry is a vestigial trait one worn to the nub a random mutation eroding in a world where everyone seems to feel everything causing apathy to drape itself over the constant grit the quiet desperation of the solitary poet an appendix ignored a forgotten stump only remembered in times of great crisis how i […]

as the heron broke its fast

i sat silently on the picnic table watching as obsidian waves gently kissed the beach the first birds piercing hidden things had woken the second set who whistled happily drowning out the first or perhaps they napped lulled to sleep by the happy song bellies full of the early worms on which they supped peace […]

three outta ten

i imagine around seventy percent of what i write is likely terrible but the same amount of effort goes into the seventy percent as it does into the thirty percent and i will be goddamned if i can tell any sort of difference between the two sides a short order cook during lunch hour with […]

arrears

i always feel hopeful before i check the status of my bank account the things i need the things i want happy little plans gone to ashes as soon as log in i don’t know what it is exactly i think will be there a magical thousand dollars i forgot about maybe a sudden surge […]

sleep well pallid moon

shards of glass on the cool breeze cutting deeply into the resonating pangs that come with rising opening tired eyes to take in the majesty in the fleeting seconds each day feeling the prolonged effects of the living condition eroding expression off of calcium masks layered musculature covered in failing flesh less emotive each new […]

the midwife watching

i like to get a topo chico with a hint of lime every once and a while as i walked from cooler to cooler searching the rows before my eyes i beheld a miracle in the beauty of life rows of little sodas waddled down the plastic tracks sea turle babies freshly hatched headed to […]

farewell prailine cluster carried away by ants

the redundancy feelsdidactic in a morosediabetic dilemmaa lazy glaze of malaisediametrically shot inpanoramic lens flareshowing nothing butthe shades of a liferendered neatly unseen an energetic anemiaa slow leeching of willa nervous nervelessnessa calculated chaosleft to flop on the coalsof this apathetic sunrise sounding on the clangingchimes in a whirlwindtornadic turbulenceit tastes like batteriesanxiously unassuming inpresumptive […]

same day on an infinite loop

broken spectacles shadows dart in the bottom of drawers a panic stricken sense of encroaching agonies unbespoke the sun came out to be swallowed whole by the incidental clouds as the men march in bright orange brandishing implements of lawncare the screams of leaf blowers a morning siren for the disenfranchised dreamer my pillows are […]

big blue alarm

i got a new alarm a couple weeks ago my neighbor who works the early shift back his large truck the over compensator into the space right outside of my bedroom window and at around four fifteen he goes out and sits revving the engine until about four thirty it rattles through the sleep that […]

blue in cast

the sun did not rise behind the cloud cover the land is tinted with azure highlights a semblance of cold to overlay the day a facade in tentative shades of tainted light the traces of sickness sparkle in muted hues dreamlike in intensity nightmarish to behold another day blurred incomprehensible from the ones before it […]

the remorse of the remora

i am tired the stinging rebuke of rejections a remora swimming with the sharks foolishly believing there was a place among the hunters a parasitic failure picking scraps from between ferocious teeth slowly starving in symbiotic emptiness what is a writer no one reads but a delusion in streaming words pooled in the drain forgotten […]

culmination of cumulous

at last it rains angry droplets so long hovering at the verge as the crow wings darken the sky they are expelled washing away the sins coating the city i watch as the trash wobbles drunkenly in the swollen gutters racing the raging drivers windshield wipers slashing dismissively across the glass a solitary baby shoe, […]

hints of gray

gray is present as i exist in the present tense a bundle of spindly wires rusted in peeling plastic a harness unharnessed useless and frail still thr rains only threaten nothing falls listless hopes awaiting the battering cold drops shaped like tears the skies do not weep they are aghast afraid, ashamed, aloof asymmetrical allegories […]

candle flame

empty hollow a candle’s flame a series of conical reactions zero density a reckless chain of water vapor carbon dioxide melted wax less than the component of the candle itself slowly destroying its own form for dire chemistries my adoration carries the rapture of a thousand suns molten at the core the coal fire stokes […]

in preparation of doom untethered

over caffeinated souldust glitter humming in hues frigidly staring at nothing for hours retracing steps through the blizzard of dust shed skin and radioactivity this heart is a geiger counter clicking hisses rapidly tick glow in the dark with the serenity of sterile flame blistered flesh bubbles as the rancid bits slough fluidly off of […]

an indention of absentia

lost tired a forest of rat teeth yellowed incisors sharply sprang from the sickly gums buried deeply in the soil enameled roots thriving untended gnashing a constant gnawing a thousand pinpricks of purple light dancing playfully along the hollow cavities we alternate positions arms snaked around each other a sleepless fugue of exhausted terrors given […]

an unmarked grave

he whispers softly to each bullet reminding them of their sacred purpose he cleans and oils his rifle with the patient hands of a practiced lover who he was eroded with every flash and puff of cordite until he and his weapon were indistinguishable he is a killer the blood crusted upon his hands could […]

a man is no storm

the storm smothers yet will not engage baleful despicable an inane insanity sequestered anxiety i fall from the sky a fledgling river a dense fog a leaf mottled in red and gold a lone drop hits the glass i wait breath held for another

swollen taste bud dragging across a broken tooth

every third bird glitches winking in and out static flashes each car is the same make same model same color indistinct drivers exude boredom i dissassociate from dissociating i am numb the days are summer each night kissed by winter i oscillate generating electricity in eye blinks sending a morse code cry for help flashing […]

tuesday afternoon clusters

the lavender pierces through the day a trident thrown by poseidon an explosion eradicating all thought bursts of ill defined painshudders deteriorating consciousness at the atomic level a cluster ringing in stinging nettles clamped tight around this hollow burden lilac blossoms carried on nuclear winds degenerating nervous anxieties into full on armageddons

hover not for the webs entangle

a stagnancy permeatesthe predawn luciditya sleepless pressurea franticness instigatedin the lost hourof silent reproach of teeth of dream of heavenbroken broken brokenlogisitical fallacies in brazenshades of nightfalldusky hints of terminal neurosisthe fecund mindscape of brutally self inflicted malaises my mind skips across the placid puddlesripples ever wideninga drop of intensityblanketing the soundscape betweenlocked jaw and […]

a frozen wave

under swollen moon persecuted by adventitious misery a wave frozen in glass unable to feel ebbing tug of the cratered satellite crystalline tears an engagement of sorrows misplaced displaced replaced by sullen imposters untouched by the wan yellow glow disengaged from the soulshiver pining in this supple sea of secondhand tranquility lunacy in lunar withdrawal […]

he sighs in mid november

his once sharp features eroded with time his button nose peeking out clitorally from sagging jowls he was once somebody in fact he was once someone now just a collection of clogged arteries desperate to cling to the sparse silver crowning his skull razor sharp tongue pitted and dulled he glares ruddily with porcine contempt […]

clumsily formed clay

he stood stone still a statue as night pissed darkness across his face i mistook him at first for a phylactery of meaningless discourse a golem with nonsense carved into his clay unmoving form the cats hissed as they passed but he showed no emotion a tree with dead roots a father figure in abandoned […]

faded and benign

the car a reflection of my soul a mess piled on every available surface a boot, a hole in the toe, a daisy grows through the worn leather, two coconuts, cracked, leaking spoiled milk to drown a chain of paper dolls with cigarette burns where their hearts once beat, a prayer unspoken, flowery prose unheard, […]

to be kissed by sunshine

hello helios trapped in helium dream the remnants of sorrow cling to each beam of golden dismay barimetrically opposed in summer’s lingering embrace oh sulking sun eminently hungering expanding a ball of flame consuming the emptiness the universe an unwanted pregnancy this star indifferent to the rocks in perpetual orbit ossuaries floating lifeless fuel for […]

healthy and optimistic

sitting in this room listening to wheezes a sense of dread from the nebulous doom that seems to hover over the huddled masses yearning to be well kafka said he liked the americans because they were healthy and optimistic i have to remind myself this is before high fructose corn syrup was pumped into everything […]

absolute in abstraction

when i tell you i love you with an implication of forever it is because the intention behind and the feeling within is one of eternity each time the word has escaped my deadened lips it is an absolute in its own abstraction i love the sun over a field of flowers the scent of […]

a rose blooms in fetid decay

my mind races a consolidation of unfortunate truth leaving scabs on this pockmarked soul oozing pus down the surface of monochromatic hell an inverse prism of indentured sorrow painblossoms in flowery script

meaning(less)

does my grief glow as a light burning with greasy smoke an overladen ladder bowing in the middle teetering toppling an unopened pack of cigarettes calling forth tiny daggers of eventual demise the door sits cracked open but i am unable to tell the direction in which it leads no strobing red light to illuminate […]

wedjat

i am insistent in carving a wedjat upon my furrowed brow before the falcon flies off into the setting sun absorbing as much from the hunter’s screeching cries awaiting the adze to crack my skull the hooks driven through cartilage to remove my brain wrap my corpse in bright silks send it floating down the […]

swarm

there is a constant motion dark things flit at the edge of ny vision a spider bite glares at me angry and red i do not scratch i do not move as small streaks skitter about i snap my head only for them to vanish back into the shadows once more am i mad disassociating […]

depth is an illusion

if we at least attempt to find the poetry in the everyday rigmorale of the perpetual sameness inherent in existence we can leave a broken trail of heartwept insolence to confound future generations dousing the flames of this trashfire into windswept paintings to brighten the eastern sky

belly full of scraps

he will no longer chase false hopes left scattered tiring of being nothing feeling himself fading away disconnecting from the world keeping him carefully held at arms length the wind chimes sing in the darkness while he sits huddled afraid to open the blinds to the nothing outside the reflection of himself in sterile skies […]

what better way to be

we need to normalize screaming as we greet the sun stabbing with rusted daggers into the soul of creation spewing great truth in the faces of all the liars dancing nude in moonbeams as the cricket symphony plays there are lightning bugs in our chests desperate to call out to kindred hearts we need to […]

surrealistic expectations

every experience is one lived over and over again for the first time in these things the repetitious life is filled with a stark barren hell of paraded monotonies a determination to grind smiles to dust i repeat myself in an effort to make sense out of this senseless routine desperate to find the correct […]

lavender skies

beauty strikes at the heart of this panoply of melancholia an icy finger tracing the tender leaving blossoms of radiant anguish to take root filling furrowed scars with daffodil petals as bees of anxiety spread pollen in stinging nettles over taut flesh beneath lavender skies

autum(n)al desires

i am indistinct a vessel overladen with adoration amorphous mercurial writhing blissfully in sweat soaked sheets a discombobulation of bioluminescence beneath paper thin skin flashing prose in softly whispered declarations of love fluttering as dawn breaks red hot steel precariously set upon ribbons of steel loaded with an overabundance of earnest affection racing full throttle […]

metamorphosis

he was an armadillo retreating into his carapace whenever he was overwhelmed he may as well have carried leprosy as repugnant as the world found him in general rocking on his back curled up into a ball staring at the ceiling hoping for a sign he knew was never coming he was an armadillo always […]

the long and the short of it

a friend asked meif it feels bettercatharticto spill ny gutsonto the pageevery single day the easy answerthe one that i knowshe wanted to hearis of courseit is liberating the answer she gotnot in the slightestit is reopeninga wound so it mayfester in the lightit hurts as badreliving the momentas it did living itworse so becausein […]

doll heads

he buried them in neat little rows across his backyard doll heads in mason jars staring up at him in tiny sealed watery graves each of them one of his sins still in tangles of hair like seaweeds suspended watching vigilantly awaiting the next he would stand sobbing alone staring back at them incapable of […]

a top

i am a top teetering wobbling before coming to a stop my momentum is spent the urge to fall over too great i have come utterly undone no longer do the fingers of eternity wind me up