a series of pawn ahops billboards for attorneys brightly colored buildings in sullen disrepair then the largest cemetery bright blue holy mothers rows of white carved crosses a cornfield in grabite repose stretching for miles before the pawn shops billboards for attorneys brightly colored buildings in worsening state of disrepair am optical illusions dotted with […]

he was nothing but a deflated balloon hovering above the dirty carpet every word he said left unacknowledged brought him farther from the skies the leaden weight of his own overflowing insignificance pulling him toward the hell he sees in the streaked mirror as he tried to find a road leading home in a confusion […]

the same basic blueprint exists for the series of one way streets in a typical big city downtown is a warren of rat tunnels half chewed through the yellow bricks all exactly the same with new marquees and construction to fuck it all up small roads made even smaller by concrete barricades in uneven lines […]

it’s unfair to judge a land in the south by its winters countenance it all goes flat ugly tones of brown gone the verdant fields the lazily swaying leaves as if all hope has been bled from the soul of the land upon entering the lovely town with a lazy river willows weeping into the […]

i stayed up all night with sylvia listening to cars racing up and down 35 as she waxed on about silvery light at some point listening to the hotel’s ambient noises i woke up hank and he told me about betting on the trifecta to win a roomful of prose bouncing off the walls as […]

i am unsettled. beset by anxiety. mentally on empty yet driven by demons of incessant worry. in the hours between declarations of love and actual sleeping i retrace my every move shifting from side to side a surrogate pillow clutched close as the universe chuckles at the foolish insomniac. i am exhausted. yet beset by […]

the dining roomof the drury innis a dreary placewith mispy soulscongregating tiredly they are miserableno happy vacationersjust lonely workerstoo many mulletsand not enough hope i am just happyto not be alonewhich speaks volumesi’d rather notcontemplate tonight the scenic view ofthe back of a home depotthe sounds of enginesand driving bass thumpingas i lay in the […]

a curious case of road hypnosis wrapped in the unmistakable lavender cushion of clustered achings i follow the hawks the sparrows on the fences listen to the words streaming in sparks down the i35 corridor if i have learned anything it is that as the crow flies means lazily trapped in circular reasoning distracted by […]

knotted upa ball of wormswrithing in a permanencyof anxietiesan intimate understandingthat these feelingswon’t minimizethemselves. sitting aloneon the windowsillsinging softlyto call forth the sunto burn awaythis indelible fog ofcold memories tracingover unformed scars. an absolution inheartplucked miseriesflat notes fallingover a deadend vistaan altered altar ofambivalent silencesa congregated agonyin shuttered remorse. a slickof dayglow sickover cloudy pools […]

words flit in pieces through the hollows of my soul stealing shiny bits to build a nest in the curve of a floating rib to sleep to dream burrowed deeply into this abstinence of light etched into moribund marrow lost in sullen recirculation misformed cells in cancerous disarray arterial plaque in semi-poetic disdain a systolic […]

she talked soincrediblyslowlyi feltmyself dyingin betweenwords i swamin a bottomlessswath of eternityas she droned oncursing the dayoverladen withanxieties as mydragonfly wingshover innegative spacesjust east ofexistence i question ifi am even herewhile the elevatorlost track ofits only passengertaking me ona convoluted tripto every other floorbefore i was entangledin amber dissonance she repeatsinslow motionthe samephrase untili can […]

an uncertainty trembles along the concrete surface a burst of static in a decrepitude of nostalgic malaise a wobble undercutting the stabilty a faltering faith in misunderstood dreams of thermodynamic philosophical flaws hobbling painfully swerving between these nestled disasters seeking real time solutions to ancient denials in this abandonment of desire

the aftermath of winter’s frozen embrace overflowing dumpsters glittering shards of glass on the side of the road cascading pinpricks in sunlit disregard trash blowing over brown fields hardscrabble growth too stubborn to accept harsh realities where frozen soil and fraudulent promises of sun dappled kisses add up to a meaninglessness of dashed hopes reaching […]

when she closes her eyes he is the only thing that ceases to exist a case of reverse solipsism a half life of unreturned devotionals in a mute world where nothing truly matters a dry riverbed where the cyclical flow no longer feeds the source leaving a jagged scar to cut across a land of […]

it isn’t difficult being a good person it can be inconvenient and that is more than enough to deter most from bothering i prefer the company of stray cats old drunks and children they are exactly as they seem living life unapologetic to perception i astutely avoid a convenient death asinine in my own stubborn […]

everything is off not enough to be obvious not extreme ever so slightly two degrees off track barely a blip but if you pay close enough attention it isn’t quite right i fear i am vibrating just out of sync causing this theoretical fluctuation an atomic division a confusion of inconsequential derision god sits fingerpainting […]

the sun always seems to rise no matter how catastrophic his mind becomes a morning comes where the coffee percolates he twists open the hanging blinds light floods a room of shadow exposing truth to a sleepy fool birdsong swells the gloom is albeit briefly dispelled again a solar powered dream machine recharging slowly as […]

a tenaciousness of tenuous turmoils tinting turgid thoughts into thorny thistle threading turbulence through timidly trilling trails of tragedy the word sits trembling on the tip of my tongue yet i cannot taste the syllabic nuance just notes of oak beneath a bouquet of perfumed longing stuttering my way through this inebriation of slurried wonder […]

pushingfervently upona door markedpulltrapped in a cycleof recurrentfrustrationstoo stupidto accept thati am nevergetting instanding so closeyet neverfeeling so farremoved an acknowledgementof futility

texas has become a snowglobe shaken by an angry god the fat flakes have muted the skyline plastic particulates drifting through a stagnancy of life leaving only sirens crying out somewhere far in the distance lost in billowing snow a conflagration of crystalline carcinogens a whiteout coating an orgy of filthy gray still pristine except […]

they grow so bloated pompous thinking themselves somehow above everyone else sharing opinions as facts silencing dissent so afloat upon their own hubris they believe that they themselves are beauty and art little fish thinking themselves too big to swim with the others mistaking attention as signs of talent thinking every errant drip of paint […]

the rain strikes heavy on the grill the metallic thud metronomic in the still heart of a bleak and stormy evening a melancholic back beat jazzlike in smoky effusiveness as my anxious heart plays a xylophonic symphony upon my rattling ribs held hostage by effervescent depressions coaxing prismatic odes to dire longing in haunted wisps […]

the sparrows seem frantic as the temperature begins to drop hopping to and fro on the rail chirping at me to find cover from impending icy precipitation a deep freeze on a series of twos a schism of groundhog deification in avian dismay as they pick at the scattered seed before hiding away in the […]

a hoard of demons claw at the crystalline shield quickly erected between fevered misery and the wildflower pollen drifting lazily as the world has become a mass of cramping pain shivering unable to find warmth as sweat pours in rivulets of palpable woe there is a storm swirling threatening to freeze the city locked in […]

traffic is movingbackwards todayas emergency vehiclesblock the highwaywe move againstthe currentssalmon seeking tospawn in the mouthsof waiting bears one truck liesscattered in jaggedshards across the roadthe only movementthe flashing lightsas paramedics standstaring at the wreckage i watch in silenceover the concrete dividerthe bezoar in my gutschurns in synchronicitywith the spikes jammedinto my brainwhispering secretsbeyond my […]

i have never met a deadend i didn’t try too hard to coax into a new trail only to find myself disjointed and utterly disappointed as reality reasserts itself in tepid disdain an amateur mapmaker traversing old scars i did not inflict seeking a direct route through the brambles leaving a bloody trail inevitably leading […]

the sky is an off putting shade of gray with an unseemly reddish tint squirming static ridden fly larva writhing across an ocean of shit a malignancy of stuttered aches smothering down the out of time clanging chimes sound morosely the sputtering circling planes the skies are infected with disdain oozing down the wrinkled cheek […]

the vain and the arrogant parade about preening their feathers in a tragic display puffed up on self importance they blather constantly trying to sell a bill of goods that does not exist a fallible armor magnifying flaws thinking them hidden while lost in their own reflection believing themselves impervious tissue paper egos soaked through […]

my belt encircles my waist a wasted attempt in mobius entanglement i waste away a sodden mess of flaccid aspirations left to twist in the cyclical winds blowing over the chasm of atomic discombobulations there is a black hole in the the center of my mass exodus hungrily spinning just beneath the sparrow in a […]

i lose sight to the idea that not only am i the pilot of this flesh vessel but also an unwilling prisoner trapped in this temple dedicated to a slow degradation locked in a dome a faery tale prince at the top of the tower encased in a prison of ivory bone unable to see […]

swimming perilously through disharmonics an incessant insistence in precipitous streams of filthy unconsciousness a coating of grime in every nook and crevice an oil slick glimmering inverted rainbows over stagnant pools of dream i am balanced on the edge of incoherence longing to fall downdowndown the swirling drain alpha numerics algebraic in tone a surge […]

he was a train of snot and vomit as i stood just outside my stomach clenched with every heave a glass of water ready along with paper towels as he threw up everything he has ever eaten snatching at the dreamlessness of momentary fits in almost sleeping hopeless in a cycle of helpless need each […]

it has become impossible to differentiate the mimics from the actual human beings gray people watching taking detailed notes copying emotion bland facsimiles background static in skin suits infiltrating circles of trust their muscles contort beneath plastic flesh a cold gleam of malicious intent blurred visages when witnessed from the corners of disbelieving eyes i […]

every other car is a cop car black and white red coupe black and white silver sedan blacl and white tell me you can see this too the universe is spawning cop cars at an alarming rate i can’t be the only one to notice an infection of reflective tape light bars angry scowls staring […]

a string a sequence of identical brunettes strolling bright cherubic smiles underneath pretty brown eyes nodding as i loop the floor the phone ringing no ine answering a series of identical office with no signs at all there is a stark fear inherent in manic shifts where sudden dissociation fracturing ny mind the headache pulses […]

i feel like a rabbit going from burrow to burrow ducking into the light momentarily shocked by my own shadow before driving into the next parking garage it may be the chemicals in my brain drifting in and out of functionality but it feels as if the sky is falling down as i await the […]

the sunlight plays across the pollution giving the city a surrealistic cardboard facade as the steel and glass goes two dimensional in the dissociative herds crawling through the cold the failing organs of the cityscape reduced to a background where turmoil battles heartache one car length at a time down the clogged arteries of millions […]

an archetypicalmaniacally depressivesuicidal softlyserenading thedusky skies alone lamenting the lackof coffee, hope, and dreamkilling timeas well as all the thingshe clutches too tightlyto his aching chest we all make an impacteven if it is onlya six foot holeamong the other lost soulsin an ashen decline

i was sitting alone under dismal skies in a parking lot on hold with a church in a perpetual loop trying to reach someone but every option brought me back to the beginning again until i hit inquiries for donation and suddenly as if the clouds parted the phone rang i didn’t busy myself with […]

dip me headfirst into a vat of quicksilver let the liquid seep into my pores the cold fingers bond to receptors madness in sublime metallurgy buffering my synaptic flaws in mercurial reflections mirroring all these supple miseries defying basic newtonian law submerge my shivering flesh in silvered demise a puckered insanity in ripples of frantic […]

when we are children we see adults as mountains standing tall against the mysteries of life we cannot quite comprehend yet as we age we discover the effects of the elemental state as entropy affects these implacable giants the weather worn guardians granite complexions slowly fading as they begin to hunch over the weight of […]

i tried to write a grocery list but even then the words failed me i sputter disconnected couldn’t find myself in the static settled on coffee and waited patient as a spider in a web for the words to come they never did some days i dip into the pool poetica other days i drown

wobbly cuts a three foot saw bowing in the center jaggedly tearing its way through cartilage and bone inexorably slow rusted teeth caught in strands of sinew as i lay fully awake in the magician’s box before an adoring crowd bloodthirsty for more as the assistant’s smile blankly trying not to show the exertion in […]

the goddamned dog trumpets incessantly three piercing yips on loop for hours on end it gets to the point when it stops all i sense is something missing then as if i woke the slumbering little ankle biting yipping bastard it begins again trying to quell this seemingly endless cycle of clusterbombs fireworks flashing behind […]

we are nearly the exact same carrying millennia of broken code creating a false sense of self bits of static longing for the embrace of the hive we have scattered so far away from fireflies glowing desperately trying to attract a similar pulsation to vibrate through our incidental existences so we can feel as if […]

cluttered table, half drawn sketches, graphite dust, eraser shavings, coffee rings gleam in the nascent dawn among the assorted half emptied bottles of pills with white caps askew the dishwasher plays an ambient death knell, recreating the womb in frigid disdain a lone cockroach darts through the darkness, antennae twitching, slowly starving to death with […]

the chill air swirling lethargically through the living room biting at my nose coalescing around my hands as i shakily ponder another useless string of words it isn’t the incessant pain that kills you i remarked, grinning ruefully it is the goddamned living the seemingly bottomles font we sip from uncaring until we eventually drain […]

black kitty stalks up to my car moving with a sinuous grace along to the best of dope lemon as i watch curiously it watches me as i watch it the gleaming white spot in the field of deep onyx fur we sit locked in a battle of uncertainty i half expect it to race […]

standing solemn at the brink of dissolution a forfeiture of hope in a flurry of tear stained sheets ripped carelessly from dream journals death by a thousand paper cuts flaying tender flesh from ligament red smears and broken bone a callous callus on the edge of certain self destructions the rigors of virtue sandblasting serenity […]

old man hank was a womanizer a drunkard a gambler and a poet i am a loose collection of semi-literate emotional redundancies a faulty motherboard on a nuclear missile and baby, i am ready to blow hank made art dirty and real i make good people feel as terrible as i do and your girl […]

a discordant cloud of frantic sparrows blots the fiery skies as sol glares in petulance disseminating daydream in a dissolution of sanctimonious disdain a flurry of impossible hues dappled along the straining chest of winsome imaginings lost in the fluttering wings where cautious wonder bleeds a sorrowful malignancy a schismatic solitude where sing-song subterfuge in […]

i bleedinvisible spraysmaking it sowhen i spill outmy heart intothe aetherit remainswillfullyignored by the world i writemy best linesin invisible inknever questioninghow all of thestrained effortgoes unnoticedamong the avalancheof talented souls a deaf mutewishing to beblinded as wellincapable of anyoutside stimulito quench the knowledgeof everythingi will never havefrom floatingin front of my eyesto become invisiblenot […]

there was a directdialectical elegancein her effortlesselegaic decadencethat even the leavesrustled mournfullyin the wake of hermalicious passing sharp and angularan albino jungle catin perilously high heelsblank ferocity blurredwith utter mortal disdainin her cold flat starea sharp chill sweptin her ling dark shadow oh, sweet mistress deathcontemptuous vixenstrutting vacuouslyin streams of ebon silkdevoid of empathy forthe […]

i woke hollow knowing definitions but misunderstanding the jumble of letters an aching gap where beauty rested lost in the tumble of broken sleep i sit on the couch as the sky lightens languidly searching casting frayed nets into an ocean of ugliness seeking plastic bits of beauty bobbing on the placid waters uncertain as […]

the past is a rose bush as seen from a rolling hill beneath clear skies on a summer afternoon a gentle breeze dandelion dander dancing in ticklish tufts as you admire the crimson buds the faint sweet scent plays softly with every deep inhalation it is upon closer inspection that we find the thorns gleaming […]

row upon row identical black hoodies they stand bouncing on their heels their breath forming cumulous above unshaven faces every car is white on the roads in the garages a sea of white cars a mass of black hoodies snarling mouths mistrustful eyes the sparrows dart brown streaks moving from branch to branch as the […]

tangential crossings an inception of insurrection in intersecting onset inertias send fissures racing down the supple spine of scoliosis sentimentalities all while the oroboros mindlessly eats itself into an eternity of enlongated angst it looks as if it could snow as i sit staring at the cemetery with filthy angels watching over the broken teeth […]

a swelling of moonbeam melancholia drenching the still frigidity in a swarm of pinprick denials demure in maleficence impregnating the permafrost with desperate tendrils grasping the tattered edge of heartshatter soliloquies i sputter through chattering teeth these half frozen lines icicles jagged and obscene to stab into the true form of beauty ravaging innocence a […]

there are no answers when sorrows fill the night an intensity of longing left undisturbed as the universe hides itself behind the steely clouds just the emptiness within scratching tender miseries a cursive scrawl carved deep into the corpse of wonder in swirls and loops etching undefinable acts of heartache there are no answers to […]

the cop has his hand resting on his pistol as he asks for license and registration it feels gratuitous as i watch from between clear rainbows as the wipers sway to human cannonball i wonder if today is the day a stray slug does what i am too stubborn to do myself hating the excitement […]

broken glass glitters on the side of the road diamonds spread to commemorate careless collisions ribbons sway from the wooden cross planted sadly in the brown grass a memorial to the fleeting seconds separating the sorrows above from the sorrows below on the seventh day god rested put her phone on silent and lounged far […]

she watches me i feel her eyes run along my flesh as i sit silent reading another impossible tale of absurdity in argentinian prose there is no coffee no food in the pantries just dried out husks the sound of acidic churning rumbling through the dying night we sit alone together as the sirens sing […]

the days are fits and starts broken words fall from maggoty lips a concoction of failed convictions laid bare along the blurred delusions of a city going by too fast spinning in place the evenings succumb to stillness fevered wishes in hushed apparel a fashion show of sundered reticence bedazzled in rhinestones of hope catch […]

the wind chimes are all that break the silence clanging metal phalanges trying to catch the playful wind i long to tear them down to let the piteous jumble fall to the leaf strewn ground as i relish in the heavy quiet yet i know they are my only connection to the world outside missives […]

thinking feels like pulling a rickety old rake through loose gravel but the tines bend over the stones doing nothing in repetitive motions to the surprise of none settling into a quicksand retirement sinking low beneath the sludge waiting for the dark to swallow the light as bands of agonies seize sensually until everything is […]

neon pink alight upon a bed of cerulean silk stretching across the eastern sky a penny weatherworn dulled and flat glaring up from the sidewalk no face no markings a slug of copper useless forgotten tired feet dragging over broken roads a penumbra of exhaustion grips tightly to a sullen scene too little coached as […]

i have to resist the urge to peel the sticker of the moon from the brightening sky of mourning to run my fingernail around the edge and extract the perfect sphere of sallow sun’s reflection to place it whole upon my ceiling holding the tides hostage between moments of my broken sleep to awaken in […]

lavender blossoms incite resplendence in wilted remorse heavy blooms hang along turbulent schisms carving tender flesh from marrow leaking hollow boned denials lost in dysmorphia myopic heartshatter in glittering hail a rusted switchblade in aortic trembling an intrusion of terror as kiss shaped scars pulsate sultry reminders relating to a sorrowful relapse while lavender bursts […]

we sit together in our loneliness penning letters to the disenfranchised the lost lovers the sorrowful souls that feel the silence hanging between ticks as the second hand stutters in place the broken howl of a choir of decadent angels in bondage gear with chromium halos leather studded wings and flaming sex toys brandished against […]

a brief flash in plasticized reality a ribbon of emotion in a world of false reactionary events threads the needle between vulgar sobriety and inebriated wonder as the salt swollen boards shift dynamically beneath bare feet a thunder blizzard over a dead patch a plastic flotilla rocking over brittle coral a graveyard of dream each […]

amidst the humorless prose the hallmark verses around lines stolen from the poets he clearly stalks lies the tragedy of a midlife crisis that took away the wife he found no value in the children left better off without a father’s lies the pathetic heart of a failed accountant incapable of any meaningfulness leaving a […]

i attach meaning to the random song of the windchimes and the rustle of fallen leaves dragging across the causeway just outside finding hidden portents omens in the silvery diffusion in starbursts through the glass and the chatter of the spoon against the coffee mug as i tremble lethargically in the silent cold alone what […]

seventy five degrees under gray skies that promise the forty degree shift expected to happen any moment now times like this make me wonder if god or gaea or whomever fucked up a perfectly fine void with the worst punchline ever conceived is just as bipolar as me maybe i am perfection in shattered repose […]

i can feel the talons gripping hard around my flailing heart i want to fight to silence the voice seductively whispering saline sorrows i am weak collapsing inward as the waves batter me with incessant static happiness is back masked along the ridge of scars crisscrossing my itching stumps silver bells coated in dripping pitch […]

he was an amateur geologist seeking reserves of gemstones hiding in the randomness of strata comprising the gravel where hope once blossomed in spectacular geodes untouched by the light of day his heart packed in pumice jagged fissures from tectonic dismay erupting magma seering passions the immense pressures forming diamonds fron internal distresses an amateur […]

worn shoes sitting placid the holes in the soles of a souless wonderment leaking muddy water to soak through threadbare socks squishing down broken sidewalks seeking sanctity in solemn culpabilities a trail of sodden footprints leading farther from the hallowed halls of hollow homesteads long reclaimed by the unnatural nurturings of matronly nature in vapid […]

i did not expect to fall so fully into dreamless sleep after days of chiseling mere seconds from the long silent nights my typical routine is to lay awake for hours dipping my cerebellum into the shallow end of sleep only for my mind to drag me screaming back to an awake world of exhausting […]

sometimes dreams are just that we wake they fade away eventually all that remains is a feeling something has gone missing we can’t quite point a finger at what it is just feel this loss where something once was it’s why i am so consumed with dreams the best parts of me seem to die […]

perhaps the issues i face are simply a facet of how i have been dipped dangled as an infant by the ankle a modern day achilles yet instead of the sluggish waters of the styx granting me nigh invulnerability it was a dip into a vat of mercurial two way glass cursing me to see […]

carve my blackened tongue from this mouth of ill intent before it cuts across your pretty soul an infection in unfettered adoration gone gangrenous these bile soaked verses of acrid dejection splat wetly on the dirty sidewalk as my heart wheezes vapidly with every dart that pierces dream of insomniac despair pluck these pineal longings […]

lost in another over busy morning, where all i can seem to do is chase heartaches down the crowded one ways winding through downtown dallas a pained smile pinned carelessly to my scruffy cheeks as the cowbirds circle and a fool longs for the icy waves of forever to drown these various spoiled thoughts as […]

fingers twitch tapping the table a nervous tune of discordant notes flitting anxieties into the hungry maw of silent mornings hanging heavily as sirens wail out in the distance after having lived off of coffee and the boiling nothingness collapsing my guts for far too long the sound of percolation turns my burgeoning hunger into […]

ny view is a distortion of fuzzy lines under an awkward prepubescent dawn fillied with undefined meanings in a storm bitter, yet beguiling as i squint to find my focus as the coffee steams my lenses these days begin with an accrual of past due notices angry red lettering stamped menacingly on every sheet flaccidly […]

i don’t feellike writingit is cold in here, seems as ifcrystalstwinkle suspendeda thousand flecksbeckoningin the eerie glow of the television i amhungrya bit tired from the headache thatflogged me awakeindifferentto the idea of writinginstead i shall curl upin a pajamaed ballreading asryo plays low in the back a thousand thousandi love yousin serene fractalscrystalize upon […]

i watch him he acts very nearly convincingly almost human homo sapien adjacent until you see that there is nothing inside but his need to control spouting off semi-poetic nonsense while desperately seeking any interaction he needs to be recognized for his staggering (lack of) genius as he seeks his newest victim he is a […]

i bathe in the (chalkdust)showers underneath the wan (dejection)reflection of the midday moon sloshing awkwardly across the warped boards swollen with unshedtearsoflonging exsanguinate this vapid darkness from collapsing vanity circumnavigate potential obscurities in (saline)dreamshivers until all that remains is (chalkdust)choking the tallow rejection inherit in the midday moon

a perseverance in bleach fumes scrubbing until raw flesh sloughs to the floor open sores burn as disinfectants eradicate disillusion leaving a trail of tear shaped red to stain the otherwise immaculate halls of misery a human blight corrupting the sanctity of this frozen hell a vegetable laying on a vestibule of best intended sins […]

i am unable to differentiate this dark morning from the hundreds of mirrored days where i sit combing through the night prior seeing the same pleas gone unanswered being a god must be the same as a bird you create then push the spawn from the nest the ones that do not slam into the […]

in dreamstasis an eliptical contusion dressed in optical delusion sending shimmering effervescence to shiver upside down into inverted conical receptors stigmatically bonding fully upon defective opioid deceptions to traipse along this pervading cardiac nervousness when i close my eyes and picture you my brain is flooded my mouth goes dry and my heart palpatates leaving […]

i tremble as i fall into the abyss undulating in my chest snapping back dissolving only to reform a lesser shade of myself until i am as indistinct as a propeller circling in a disarming illusion of solidity in separated malignancies

leaving fingerprints in fresh paint smears from decorating this new paper maché mask already soaked through with frustrated tears as the universe mocks my every attempt at heartfelt sincerity i drift alone on the currents of the river styx another lost soul bobbing on the brackish waves can anyone hear me as i bemoan existing […]

the bird is stuck looping three notes i cannot tell if i am trapped in a temporal anomaly which would explain more than a few of the conundrums dusted in doldrums making every day feel roughly and inexplicably the fucking same or if it is an alarm a last ditch measure to warn me of […]