the sound of the tires on the road beneath me after the epectric engine takes over the drive reminds me of the trains that used to pass outside my bedroom window as a kid there is a sickening feeling being awake yet paralyzed by the memories of youth half expecting the next sound to be […]

the weathermen say another storm is coming but all i had to do was listen to the birds they trill frantically of seeds hidden and shiny things now lost we sing to each other over steaming coffee and wildflower daydreams as the temperature falls beneath an indifferent sun knowing this too will pass but fearing […]

took a series of selfies but couldn’t recognize the person staring back from the screen did this dullard with a forced half grin a vacancy where i suppose a soul should reside reflected tepidly in watery eyes from another fit of sobbing truly believe he could ever be any of the things he dreams? my […]

i have poured every ounce of myself to form a quivering foundation on which this house of cards tormentedly shudders ill equipped to face the howling winds in this disregard to the decrepitude of shimmering insignificance does a pebble long to rejoin the mountain lost in tectonic upheaval among the gravelly detritus of hope does […]

playing second fiddle in an orchestra of one out of tune accompaniment in sour notes of flaccid failings a footnote on a wall of hastily scribbled declarations forgotten in the metaphoric splendor a whisper floating in the claxon of sparrows unintelligible drowned out in the act of negligible returns

hungover on these insipid sorrows that inebriated my scattered heart incapable of finding my footing as the rain washes out the choir of chriping birds wrapped up in gray uncertain of what it is pulling me deeper into this fugue how many times did i sleeplessly send my adorations out into the emptiness as sleep […]

i drift alone in a paper boat on swollen gutters as shadows flick lit matches at my ship as it sails on towards night dipped in tallow so the origami vessel doesn’t take on the fetid waves cursed by poseidon to sail the sewers in search of home the city lights amid a hail of […]

my madness was once a mere inconvenience until the day my father passed away since then it has been a constant struggle keeping the pieces in a semblance of working order more often a failed attempt as the mountains crumbled into the dark waters of dire depression a life lived alone whispering love to the […]

i have constructed so many walls my brain is a minature winchester house filled with dead end hallways to confuse the evil spirits seeking to take control of the cathedral heavy with wildflower petals a blizzard in hues of pearlescent pinks i string red thread in a convolution of tangled skeins and i fear that […]

today my mind is a pinwheel spinning quickly in an illusion of solidity a slurry of incorporeality a simmering swill of flashing lights standing on quicksand heartshudders wondering why my pantlegs are getting wet ignoring the sucking sounds at my feet sinking into the whirling maw of a meat grinder until all i am is […]

shining golden beacons these angels with broken wings hobbling amongst billions of indistinct tarnished souls all seeking a piece of illusionary heaven in which to rest their weary feet far from the chatter skeletal shiftings in effervescent malaise angry slashes of crimson shadowed demons scurry and skitter an infestation of dreamscarred memories promising only the […]

little footsteps echo down the empty corridors i know with all certainty i am alone yet tiny feet along with shrill giggles fill the darkness that surrounds me no matter how quickly i turn the cone of cold white light only shadows dance along the beam while children run not disturbing the dust long since […]

a scuffed leather jacket carefully folded laying next to a coffee cup on the exit ramp from 35 to hi line road there is a story there a life once lived but i’ll be damned if i can make heads or tails out of the offering as sunlight glints off of the metal studs sending […]

strung along an idiot starving on scraps following a trail barely visible among the frost coating the winding avenues in this crucible of hellish intent every road leads deeper into the darkness of spoken wishes in fevered unreciprcation where heartspasms flourish in the limbs of the dead dreamers staring up through the cratered souls in […]

the endless nothingness mocks each feeble attempt at seeking meaning dour skies of illusion a refraction of radiation through captive droplets a corruption of color disguising the vast emptiness of creation billions of blinking souls no closer than the stars to one another’s orbit drifting aimless and alone searching for purpose in green screen projections […]

he sat in his car on the roof of a parking garage controlling the storms through the thunder echoing in his mind gray swirls, swirling fluff clouds of sinuous smoke drifting in fluffy gray filled the skies around him threatening cold rain teary eyes behind tinted glass a watery view of a concrete prison high […]

i wouldn’t recognize his voice it’s been so long since i heard him but i remember his scent when he would get home from a long day of old spice marlboro reds (filters removed) and hops and barley he would start the day off with a cold one poured into a coffee cup to take […]

dressed in a malaise of poignant mediocrity bedazzled in malfeasance and inconsequentiality drowning in all of the words unwritten an empty bucket sitting in a dried up lakebed watching as the vultures circle a jigsaw puzzle of pangaea scattered across the worn beige carpet a misapprehension of subtle truth he knows he should be writing […]

there is a 7/11 store in the 7/11 corporate office an odd little minature hell of florescence and plastic a live calf suckling the teat of financial demand a parade of lovely ladies and jabbering men milling about with no real purpose as the poor bastard scrubs the slurpee machine for minimum wage an affluence […]

red tinted in a chaos of indiscriminate wind chimes i woke from a subaquatic dream gasping in sheer panic as my heaving chest pulled in lungfuls of arid desert air sharp gravel in a dehydration of formerly submerged bronchus flopping on this too large bed of russet coral spasmodically to the orchestral clanging outside in […]

thelonious monk plays the sounds infusing the empty lobby of the building under renovation punctuated by drills the circular saw plays a triumphant solo against the backdrop of the black and ivory magic still penetrating the endless din of workers i find myself enthralled by the paintings with clever names like diversity and effusion in […]

pensively sitting three stories below ground in an oddly immaculate parking garage unsettling in the pristine unstained concrete clean white walls and bathed in utter silence a naked mole rat seeking answers in the subterranean pulse of the city perfectly still attuned to nothing an impoverished under allocation in the seizing bowels of dallas remembering […]

in defiance of gravity’s demands hovering incidentally above nucleic dissonance hoarfrosted tears warble drunkenly from sightless cataract contractions piercing rays assaulting in a fit of optical resentment simmering discontent in orgasmic defeat the sun peeks out dismayed by wobbling revolutions in oily revulsion a dissolution of morning as laid out in cosmic apathy another star […]

icy plumes of indignation erupt along the cratered soul of poetic insignificance blossoming upward billowing quills in frozen deference a billion crystals reflecting solar radiation into nightflowers of spectral indifference a hailstorm of ivory feathers drifting as angels battle the demonic hoards amidst geysers of plasmic interference the dead touch in an absence of divinity […]

je suis plein de regrets vides enveloppé dans effigies de laine d’acier bruni par baisers sanglants avec un cœur switchblade si vous avez besoin de moi ne pas je suis une source de frustrations étroitement lié par mauvaise nouvelle sur un brise du nord catastrophe sifflante dans une vacance de bonnes intentions un corbeau battu […]

a corpulence of inebriated desire festooned with baubles carved from the husks of dreamroaches in stagnant malaise spilled out to stain the marble floors of a cathedral in the throes of a sinful fervency these agonies will not endure themselves lines of crimson running down the pale indecencies of the moon a cracked mirror reflecting […]

the last thing someone struggling needs is to be told it’s all in their head especially when every single fucking day is a battle against the things that have taken root inside if i could ignore it don’t you think i would? who chooses to live doubting every feeling because yoyt don’t know if it […]

been surrounded by these snakes so long he wish he could shed my own skin like them leave behind a hollow reproduction escape into the woods fresh pink skin glistening in the wan moonlight as it shines through skeletal branches to disappear far from their slitted pupils watching every move waiting to strike out cold […]

falling into the heartbeat of insubstantialility the universal throbbing pulse coursing underneath paper machè facades hiding the abyss roiling in shades of echoing wonder pulled deeper along the invisible currents swirling insoluble desires forming layers of silted strata to document the tribulations for future explorers to witness the folly in mortal failings a series of […]

it took mea few minutesto realizei was homethis morningi lay in bedmentally preparingfor a drivei didn’t haveto endurethe road dust ofa thousand mileshanging to mestill after amorning showerlost in the gritof border townscombined withsandman’s dustin unsleptexahaustion itchingthe corners ofmy hazel confusion coffee is brewingthe birds remain silentbeneath a tentative stormthe same shadeas the blanketstangled aroundunresponsive […]

i didn’t know i was crazy for the longest time i just thought everyone felt everything as painfully as i always have thank the silence that wasn’t true knowing i am a bipolar mess doesn’t make it feel any less intense it just lets me know it is choppy waves and the sky is (probably) […]

the trip down to the border left me a bit over stimulated a hundred lines interlaced four hundred miles bleeding into one another as i try to pluck the threads oatmeal and raisins dark roast coffee roaring engines slamming doors down endless hallways i prepare for the next four and half hours driving to the […]

i felt as if i were a great explorer a modern day samuel clemens rolling down towards the mouth of i35 to see where it spills into mexico captaining a hybrid down the asphalt scar separating the brown from the endless brown my own mighty mississip falling into delusions of twain like wonder i left […]

a series of pawn ahops billboards for attorneys brightly colored buildings in sullen disrepair then the largest cemetery bright blue holy mothers rows of white carved crosses a cornfield in grabite repose stretching for miles before the pawn shops billboards for attorneys brightly colored buildings in worsening state of disrepair am optical illusions dotted with […]

he was nothing but a deflated balloon hovering above the dirty carpet every word he said left unacknowledged brought him farther from the skies the leaden weight of his own overflowing insignificance pulling him toward the hell he sees in the streaked mirror as he tried to find a road leading home in a confusion […]

the same basic blueprint exists for the series of one way streets in a typical big city downtown is a warren of rat tunnels half chewed through the yellow bricks all exactly the same with new marquees and construction to fuck it all up small roads made even smaller by concrete barricades in uneven lines […]

it’s unfair to judge a land in the south by its winters countenance it all goes flat ugly tones of brown gone the verdant fields the lazily swaying leaves as if all hope has been bled from the soul of the land upon entering the lovely town with a lazy river willows weeping into the […]

i stayed up all night with sylvia listening to cars racing up and down 35 as she waxed on about silvery light at some point listening to the hotel’s ambient noises i woke up hank and he told me about betting on the trifecta to win a roomful of prose bouncing off the walls as […]

i am unsettled. beset by anxiety. mentally on empty yet driven by demons of incessant worry. in the hours between declarations of love and actual sleeping i retrace my every move shifting from side to side a surrogate pillow clutched close as the universe chuckles at the foolish insomniac. i am exhausted. yet beset by […]

the dining roomof the drury innis a dreary placewith mispy soulscongregating tiredly they are miserableno happy vacationersjust lonely workerstoo many mulletsand not enough hope i am just happyto not be alonewhich speaks volumesi’d rather notcontemplate tonight the scenic view ofthe back of a home depotthe sounds of enginesand driving bass thumpingas i lay in the […]

a curious case of road hypnosis wrapped in the unmistakable lavender cushion of clustered achings i follow the hawks the sparrows on the fences listen to the words streaming in sparks down the i35 corridor if i have learned anything it is that as the crow flies means lazily trapped in circular reasoning distracted by […]

knotted upa ball of wormswrithing in a permanencyof anxietiesan intimate understandingthat these feelingswon’t minimizethemselves. sitting aloneon the windowsillsinging softlyto call forth the sunto burn awaythis indelible fog ofcold memories tracingover unformed scars. an absolution inheartplucked miseriesflat notes fallingover a deadend vistaan altered altar ofambivalent silencesa congregated agonyin shuttered remorse. a slickof dayglow sickover cloudy pools […]

words flit in pieces through the hollows of my soul stealing shiny bits to build a nest in the curve of a floating rib to sleep to dream burrowed deeply into this abstinence of light etched into moribund marrow lost in sullen recirculation misformed cells in cancerous disarray arterial plaque in semi-poetic disdain a systolic […]

she talked soincrediblyslowlyi feltmyself dyingin betweenwords i swamin a bottomlessswath of eternityas she droned oncursing the dayoverladen withanxieties as mydragonfly wingshover innegative spacesjust east ofexistence i question ifi am even herewhile the elevatorlost track ofits only passengertaking me ona convoluted tripto every other floorbefore i was entangledin amber dissonance she repeatsinslow motionthe samephrase untili can […]

an uncertainty trembles along the concrete surface a burst of static in a decrepitude of nostalgic malaise a wobble undercutting the stabilty a faltering faith in misunderstood dreams of thermodynamic philosophical flaws hobbling painfully swerving between these nestled disasters seeking real time solutions to ancient denials in this abandonment of desire

the aftermath of winter’s frozen embrace overflowing dumpsters glittering shards of glass on the side of the road cascading pinpricks in sunlit disregard trash blowing over brown fields hardscrabble growth too stubborn to accept harsh realities where frozen soil and fraudulent promises of sun dappled kisses add up to a meaninglessness of dashed hopes reaching […]

when she closes her eyes he is the only thing that ceases to exist a case of reverse solipsism a half life of unreturned devotionals in a mute world where nothing truly matters a dry riverbed where the cyclical flow no longer feeds the source leaving a jagged scar to cut across a land of […]

it isn’t difficult being a good person it can be inconvenient and that is more than enough to deter most from bothering i prefer the company of stray cats old drunks and children they are exactly as they seem living life unapologetic to perception i astutely avoid a convenient death asinine in my own stubborn […]

everything is off not enough to be obvious not extreme ever so slightly two degrees off track barely a blip but if you pay close enough attention it isn’t quite right i fear i am vibrating just out of sync causing this theoretical fluctuation an atomic division a confusion of inconsequential derision god sits fingerpainting […]

the sun always seems to rise no matter how catastrophic his mind becomes a morning comes where the coffee percolates he twists open the hanging blinds light floods a room of shadow exposing truth to a sleepy fool birdsong swells the gloom is albeit briefly dispelled again a solar powered dream machine recharging slowly as […]

a tenaciousness of tenuous turmoils tinting turgid thoughts into thorny thistle threading turbulence through timidly trilling trails of tragedy the word sits trembling on the tip of my tongue yet i cannot taste the syllabic nuance just notes of oak beneath a bouquet of perfumed longing stuttering my way through this inebriation of slurried wonder […]

pushingfervently upona door markedpulltrapped in a cycleof recurrentfrustrationstoo stupidto accept thati am nevergetting instanding so closeyet neverfeeling so farremoved an acknowledgementof futility

texas has become a snowglobe shaken by an angry god the fat flakes have muted the skyline plastic particulates drifting through a stagnancy of life leaving only sirens crying out somewhere far in the distance lost in billowing snow a conflagration of crystalline carcinogens a whiteout coating an orgy of filthy gray still pristine except […]

they grow so bloated pompous thinking themselves somehow above everyone else sharing opinions as facts silencing dissent so afloat upon their own hubris they believe that they themselves are beauty and art little fish thinking themselves too big to swim with the others mistaking attention as signs of talent thinking every errant drip of paint […]

the rain strikes heavy on the grill the metallic thud metronomic in the still heart of a bleak and stormy evening a melancholic back beat jazzlike in smoky effusiveness as my anxious heart plays a xylophonic symphony upon my rattling ribs held hostage by effervescent depressions coaxing prismatic odes to dire longing in haunted wisps […]

the sparrows seem frantic as the temperature begins to drop hopping to and fro on the rail chirping at me to find cover from impending icy precipitation a deep freeze on a series of twos a schism of groundhog deification in avian dismay as they pick at the scattered seed before hiding away in the […]

a hoard of demons claw at the crystalline shield quickly erected between fevered misery and the wildflower pollen drifting lazily as the world has become a mass of cramping pain shivering unable to find warmth as sweat pours in rivulets of palpable woe there is a storm swirling threatening to freeze the city locked in […]

traffic is movingbackwards todayas emergency vehiclesblock the highwaywe move againstthe currentssalmon seeking tospawn in the mouthsof waiting bears one truck liesscattered in jaggedshards across the roadthe only movementthe flashing lightsas paramedics standstaring at the wreckage i watch in silenceover the concrete dividerthe bezoar in my gutschurns in synchronicitywith the spikes jammedinto my brainwhispering secretsbeyond my […]

i have never met a deadend i didn’t try too hard to coax into a new trail only to find myself disjointed and utterly disappointed as reality reasserts itself in tepid disdain an amateur mapmaker traversing old scars i did not inflict seeking a direct route through the brambles leaving a bloody trail inevitably leading […]

the sky is an off putting shade of gray with an unseemly reddish tint squirming static ridden fly larva writhing across an ocean of shit a malignancy of stuttered aches smothering down the out of time clanging chimes sound morosely the sputtering circling planes the skies are infected with disdain oozing down the wrinkled cheek […]

the vain and the arrogant parade about preening their feathers in a tragic display puffed up on self importance they blather constantly trying to sell a bill of goods that does not exist a fallible armor magnifying flaws thinking them hidden while lost in their own reflection believing themselves impervious tissue paper egos soaked through […]

my belt encircles my waist a wasted attempt in mobius entanglement i waste away a sodden mess of flaccid aspirations left to twist in the cyclical winds blowing over the chasm of atomic discombobulations there is a black hole in the the center of my mass exodus hungrily spinning just beneath the sparrow in a […]

i lose sight to the idea that not only am i the pilot of this flesh vessel but also an unwilling prisoner trapped in this temple dedicated to a slow degradation locked in a dome a faery tale prince at the top of the tower encased in a prison of ivory bone unable to see […]

swimming perilously through disharmonics an incessant insistence in precipitous streams of filthy unconsciousness a coating of grime in every nook and crevice an oil slick glimmering inverted rainbows over stagnant pools of dream i am balanced on the edge of incoherence longing to fall downdowndown the swirling drain alpha numerics algebraic in tone a surge […]

he was a train of snot and vomit as i stood just outside my stomach clenched with every heave a glass of water ready along with paper towels as he threw up everything he has ever eaten snatching at the dreamlessness of momentary fits in almost sleeping hopeless in a cycle of helpless need each […]

it has become impossible to differentiate the mimics from the actual human beings gray people watching taking detailed notes copying emotion bland facsimiles background static in skin suits infiltrating circles of trust their muscles contort beneath plastic flesh a cold gleam of malicious intent blurred visages when witnessed from the corners of disbelieving eyes i […]

every other car is a cop car black and white red coupe black and white silver sedan blacl and white tell me you can see this too the universe is spawning cop cars at an alarming rate i can’t be the only one to notice an infection of reflective tape light bars angry scowls staring […]

a string a sequence of identical brunettes strolling bright cherubic smiles underneath pretty brown eyes nodding as i loop the floor the phone ringing no ine answering a series of identical office with no signs at all there is a stark fear inherent in manic shifts where sudden dissociation fracturing ny mind the headache pulses […]

i feel like a rabbit going from burrow to burrow ducking into the light momentarily shocked by my own shadow before driving into the next parking garage it may be the chemicals in my brain drifting in and out of functionality but it feels as if the sky is falling down as i await the […]

the sunlight plays across the pollution giving the city a surrealistic cardboard facade as the steel and glass goes two dimensional in the dissociative herds crawling through the cold the failing organs of the cityscape reduced to a background where turmoil battles heartache one car length at a time down the clogged arteries of millions […]

an archetypicalmaniacally depressivesuicidal softlyserenading thedusky skies alone lamenting the lackof coffee, hope, and dreamkilling timeas well as all the thingshe clutches too tightlyto his aching chest we all make an impacteven if it is onlya six foot holeamong the other lost soulsin an ashen decline

i was sitting alone under dismal skies in a parking lot on hold with a church in a perpetual loop trying to reach someone but every option brought me back to the beginning again until i hit inquiries for donation and suddenly as if the clouds parted the phone rang i didn’t busy myself with […]

dip me headfirst into a vat of quicksilver let the liquid seep into my pores the cold fingers bond to receptors madness in sublime metallurgy buffering my synaptic flaws in mercurial reflections mirroring all these supple miseries defying basic newtonian law submerge my shivering flesh in silvered demise a puckered insanity in ripples of frantic […]

when we are children we see adults as mountains standing tall against the mysteries of life we cannot quite comprehend yet as we age we discover the effects of the elemental state as entropy affects these implacable giants the weather worn guardians granite complexions slowly fading as they begin to hunch over the weight of […]

i tried to write a grocery list but even then the words failed me i sputter disconnected couldn’t find myself in the static settled on coffee and waited patient as a spider in a web for the words to come they never did some days i dip into the pool poetica other days i drown

wobbly cuts a three foot saw bowing in the center jaggedly tearing its way through cartilage and bone inexorably slow rusted teeth caught in strands of sinew as i lay fully awake in the magician’s box before an adoring crowd bloodthirsty for more as the assistant’s smile blankly trying not to show the exertion in […]

the goddamned dog trumpets incessantly three piercing yips on loop for hours on end it gets to the point when it stops all i sense is something missing then as if i woke the slumbering little ankle biting yipping bastard it begins again trying to quell this seemingly endless cycle of clusterbombs fireworks flashing behind […]

we are nearly the exact same carrying millennia of broken code creating a false sense of self bits of static longing for the embrace of the hive we have scattered so far away from fireflies glowing desperately trying to attract a similar pulsation to vibrate through our incidental existences so we can feel as if […]

cluttered table, half drawn sketches, graphite dust, eraser shavings, coffee rings gleam in the nascent dawn among the assorted half emptied bottles of pills with white caps askew the dishwasher plays an ambient death knell, recreating the womb in frigid disdain a lone cockroach darts through the darkness, antennae twitching, slowly starving to death with […]

the chill air swirling lethargically through the living room biting at my nose coalescing around my hands as i shakily ponder another useless string of words it isn’t the incessant pain that kills you i remarked, grinning ruefully it is the goddamned living the seemingly bottomles font we sip from uncaring until we eventually drain […]

black kitty stalks up to my car moving with a sinuous grace along to the best of dope lemon as i watch curiously it watches me as i watch it the gleaming white spot in the field of deep onyx fur we sit locked in a battle of uncertainty i half expect it to race […]

standing solemn at the brink of dissolution a forfeiture of hope in a flurry of tear stained sheets ripped carelessly from dream journals death by a thousand paper cuts flaying tender flesh from ligament red smears and broken bone a callous callus on the edge of certain self destructions the rigors of virtue sandblasting serenity […]

old man hank was a womanizer a drunkard a gambler and a poet i am a loose collection of semi-literate emotional redundancies a faulty motherboard on a nuclear missile and baby, i am ready to blow hank made art dirty and real i make good people feel as terrible as i do and your girl […]

a discordant cloud of frantic sparrows blots the fiery skies as sol glares in petulance disseminating daydream in a dissolution of sanctimonious disdain a flurry of impossible hues dappled along the straining chest of winsome imaginings lost in the fluttering wings where cautious wonder bleeds a sorrowful malignancy a schismatic solitude where sing-song subterfuge in […]

i bleedinvisible spraysmaking it sowhen i spill outmy heart intothe aetherit remainswillfullyignored by the world i writemy best linesin invisible inknever questioninghow all of thestrained effortgoes unnoticedamong the avalancheof talented souls a deaf mutewishing to beblinded as wellincapable of anyoutside stimulito quench the knowledgeof everythingi will never havefrom floatingin front of my eyesto become invisiblenot […]

there was a directdialectical elegancein her effortlesselegaic decadencethat even the leavesrustled mournfullyin the wake of hermalicious passing sharp and angularan albino jungle catin perilously high heelsblank ferocity blurredwith utter mortal disdainin her cold flat starea sharp chill sweptin her ling dark shadow oh, sweet mistress deathcontemptuous vixenstrutting vacuouslyin streams of ebon silkdevoid of empathy forthe […]

i woke hollow knowing definitions but misunderstanding the jumble of letters an aching gap where beauty rested lost in the tumble of broken sleep i sit on the couch as the sky lightens languidly searching casting frayed nets into an ocean of ugliness seeking plastic bits of beauty bobbing on the placid waters uncertain as […]

the past is a rose bush as seen from a rolling hill beneath clear skies on a summer afternoon a gentle breeze dandelion dander dancing in ticklish tufts as you admire the crimson buds the faint sweet scent plays softly with every deep inhalation it is upon closer inspection that we find the thorns gleaming […]

row upon row identical black hoodies they stand bouncing on their heels their breath forming cumulous above unshaven faces every car is white on the roads in the garages a sea of white cars a mass of black hoodies snarling mouths mistrustful eyes the sparrows dart brown streaks moving from branch to branch as the […]

tangential crossings an inception of insurrection in intersecting onset inertias send fissures racing down the supple spine of scoliosis sentimentalities all while the oroboros mindlessly eats itself into an eternity of enlongated angst it looks as if it could snow as i sit staring at the cemetery with filthy angels watching over the broken teeth […]

a swelling of moonbeam melancholia drenching the still frigidity in a swarm of pinprick denials demure in maleficence impregnating the permafrost with desperate tendrils grasping the tattered edge of heartshatter soliloquies i sputter through chattering teeth these half frozen lines icicles jagged and obscene to stab into the true form of beauty ravaging innocence a […]