i used to just dream
about simple things
like watching the sunset
over the water
of an ocean
i have never seen
in a land
i didn’t know existed

now
i find myself wondering
what it would feel like
to wrap my arms
around you
to smell your perfume
as my lips
gently kiss your neck

to dance
in one sixth gravity
on the dark side of the moon
away from the prying eyes
of the preying mantis
praying i slip up
in the complicated finale
as the orchestra plays on

i am so very tired
of dreaming
the malaise
of the world
rests heavy
too heavy
i find myself in love
with illusion