new blinds
in the bedroom
after so long
with a blacked out room
letting in the sunlight
across my shadowed den
of inexplicable loss.

i cleared off the shelves
once stacked three deep
with hard covered tomes
in an effort to divest myself
of material possessions
in the false hope of home
in another land.

now the light trickles in
to end this broken sleep
new blinds
yet still blinded
by the things i want
that are less substantial
than the dreams of her.