no matter
how tightly
i squeeze
my eyes shut
how earnest
the prayers muttered
to the silence above
the absence within
whispered to
whomever
wherever
whenever
the only answer
is the same

heaven is a dream
for good boys
to chase
hell is all around us
everyday

so i don’t
waste my breath
on hopes or prayers
never answered
unfulfilled
i just
think of you
blow a kiss
to carry my love
to your lips
far from my
frustrated tears