i spent two hours
compiling
a new collection
reading my own
words
and i feel so
goddamned broken
because the words
haven’t changed
that pain
is still this
pain
and i don’t
understand
why it never
abates
why i can never
lose the weight
of an ocean of
black tar tears.

and the man
on the radio
sings
for someone
to catch him
before
he falls
goddamn it
he’s falling apart
and i know
exactly
where he is at.