i wonder

on nights when
the ache is
all consuming

will it ever
fucking end?

worse though

i fear its
absence.

because
on most nights

the aching
is all there is.

patience
isn’t something
i was born with

it was acquired
through pain.

now i cannot
seem to tell
if it is patience

or stubborn
perseverance

keeping me
consistently
aching so.

either way
it fucking sucks.