i have come
to personify
tangential
as my erratic
manic energy
steers me down
rabbit holes
and i forget
exactly what
it was i was

at times it
looks like summer
yet winter nips
or i grab a
jacket to walk
into an inferno

the sparrows
are rambunctious
trilling along
with the mad king
as i vibrate just
out of sync
with this dimension
appearing more as
a phantom floating
than a fool falling
a flickering filament
flashing phonetics
in fundamental decline

i am fading
ebbing in and out
of existence
uncertainty flavors
each flare of anxiety
until my mouth
tastes like batteries
and my scalp erupts
in lavender arcs

i whisper my love
to the sparrow court
murmuring madness
in cerulean despair
knowing none of it
reaches her delicate ear