putting myself
into the mindset
to write requires
folding my mind
into ceaseless
heartache knowing
if i do not feel
every ounce of it
neither will anyone
who bothers reading

i get consumed by
these stories
bludgeoned bloody
to tell the tales
screaming in my head
fallingdowndowndown
into personal hells
reliving lies told
as adorations while
making believe love
is not the most
toxic chemical spill
the human mind can
ever suffer through