even when things
seem at their worst
consistency keeps
the cycles from
looping out of control
but lately
the only constant
has been change

a new position
with a new vehicle
new responsibilities
yet the anxieties
are all too familiar
while screaming in a
new way which
pummels me anew

i can accept it
when the problems
are my own making
but being collateral
damage in another
warfront leaves me
shuddering in
the trenches alone