i woke
feverish
as thunder
rattled
the room
lightning
shattered
the dark
i knew not
if it was
dream or
a new hell
as i wobbled
down the hall
bladder in
midst of panic

a brief escape
from the montage
of nightmares
force fed in
each gasping
breath
anendlessonslaught
of recycled scars
taptaptapping
on my fragile mind

now
in the darkness
rain on the glass
i tumble down
into the mass of
mangled mediocrity
in past traumas
sickerandsicker
a malignancy of
shatteredpsyches
desperatelyseeking
some sort of solace
as the thorns of
her disinterest
carve poems down
my sundered soul
a prescription of
holistic hostility
sealed with her kiss