my soul
is an abscess
radiating
negativity
souring sunlight
sending reverberations
thundering in my wake

i cannot
find my smile
nor fake the
incremental
musclemovements
necessary for
anymore than
a less petulant
sort of frown

if typically
i find my own
presence taxing
in this dire mood
i long to not
share the same
four block radius
much less a skull
with a blunt force
focused on self destruction