Meh. Not much to report. Pain is low enough I am over doing it and making it worse. 

Kids weekend. Sleepover Saturday for my daughter. Good times were had. 

I have not been in a good place to seek the opposite sex. Don’t know if I do not want the hassle or the possibility. Sort of a self destructive endless cycle. I see it. But the holidays are coming up and how awkward would dating at Christmas be?

Excuses. I know. I get it. 

But really. Effort. And fear. And self loathing. And blah blah blah. Fuck it all really. Right?

Right.

I won’t give up. I would really like to find someone. It will happen when it does. probably. 

Meh.