it started with a broken wine glass
snapped at the stem
no
let me start over
it started to end with a broken wine glass
snapped at the stem
no
it was the end of the beginning that started with a broken wine glass
snapped at the stem
the delicate glass cracked in my calloused hand
wine falling onto my lap
the notes of cedar and citrus and peat dancing across my crotch
it wasn’t the beginning of the end
that has a different sour taste
but it was decidedly the end of the beginning
as plain as the horrified looks as i bellowed fuck
the tapestry showed it’s first snagged thread
if you can imagine the beginning as an intense and beautiful panic stricken ride
the snapped stem marked the end of the joy ride
soon the fun was muted like the colors of a faded photo
you could still make them out
but the vibrancy was gone
the memory lingered
but it was no longer fresh
the end of the beginning
it would be some time before the beginning of the end still
that steadfast era of color leeching slowly out but the remnants still held a certain allure
sweet words still muttered but the tinge of sarcasm took seed
it had gone from can’t get enough to having just about enough
the tipping point wasn’t met
but it was coming
no
it was not a start
but something started to stop and that stop signalled the end of the beginning
with a snapped stem
it’s funny
not funny funny
but sadly funny how that one moment triggered what would be an avalanche
not an avalanche
the slow erosion of a once strong foundation
how the crack in the facade began to show with the snapped stem
before then
it seemed like it would be forever
after that the soil shifted just enough
it wasn’t the beginning of the end even though it kind of was
but it started then
it seems so clear now that the then is then and the now is clear
i’ve grown afraid of new beginnings because my mind likes the little details and the little details expose the bigger issues
too smart for my own stupidity
too strong to not snap the stem
now after the end and thinking of the end of the beginning
i blame myself because it would be easier to blame someone else and i don’t sleep well enough as it is so blaming me is more beneficial than blaming some other innocent party
not that i’m innocent
no
not me
it wasn’t the first stem snapped
probably won’t be the last
but i would like to avoid the ending of a beautiful beginning
but the only way i know how is to avoid new beginnings
a möbius strip prison
one sided and infinite
Mmm mmm, Möbius strip prison. Brilliant
And the line above it, I’ve been there, depends on the day. Or hour
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i’d like to get over it and escape. run away into the sunset. but it feels nice to know i’m not alone.
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🙂 I get over it sometimes. There’s hope!
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hope for the hopeless, like a shaving mirror for a vampire or a styrofoam anchor.
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Point taken
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some days it feels oppressive, like a blanket of army ants burrowing. i’m sorry.
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I meant that in a sincere way, that you’re in a place without hope, nothing more. The vampire mirror made things crystal clear 🙂
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that last bit was well played. well played indeed. thanks for the smile.
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A smile and a virtual hug
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like i said yesterday, perfect.
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