her love
gave me the bends
decompression sickness
from an escape
from the overwhelming pressure
of daily life
i surfaced
from the pit of depression
too quickly
to see she was a mirage
instead of the oasis
i first mistook her for
i fell for her
by falling
for what i thought
i wanted
by falling
for the myth
that it was better
to be with someone
than alone
that alone
was the lie i chose
rather
than lying alone
we lied together
in
a tangled mess