it is october
i find myself
dreaming
of the ocean
but
the lapping waves
are her kisses
all i want
is to drown

instead
it is too hot
in texas
while she lounges
at the beach
letting the waves
kiss her toes
as the sun
shines down

i put rocks
in my pockets
and wade out
into the river
hoping
the currents
drag me out
towards her
to bask
in her glow