This is my four thousandth post.
I understand how insane that is. I do. Sometimes the magnitude of sharing so much pain is too much.
But sometimes the emptiness is so deep, all I can do is sink.
When I awaken, I cough half formed thoughts onto the sand.
Then I dive back in.
I would love to stop. To breathe without pain.
But some of us don’t get that luxury.
So four thousand. Maybe at eight, you will take me seriously. Maybe at ten, you’ll read my books. At twenty we can sip champagne together in the dementia ward.
Four thousand poems. Five of them good.
Fuck me, right?
Yeah.
Fuck me.
Thanks for coming along.
To the next ten thousand odes. Maybe by then we will have learned something.
Doubt it.
But that’s the point. To learn something.
Love you.
Hugs and sloppy wet kisses
me
i have fallen
so far
from the places
i thought i would
occupy
yet no matter
how far
i fall
it is always into
you
Its sad we feel we need to apologise for expressing pain, but I get it.. I honestly think it helps others to feel less alone…and your writing is beautiful.
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thank you. i have had some pretty good interactions with people based on shared pain. It is a bonding agent.
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so true.. its what makes us most human
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Bloody hell, Mike… how long you been doing this… and me being English and distant I’ll pass on the kiss – but hey, got a couple of your books by the way!
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Three years now. Thank you. I hope you enjoy! Still blowing you a kiss, nonrefundable.
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I deflected it to EC, her initials almost the same as mine.
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Fair play
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Is it good or bad that I already read your books?
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Good. For me. Bad. For you.
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Haha. Disagree. Good for both, I think.
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I have not read them, so I’ll take your word. I have been listening to Cerberus as the narrator sends stories. I am partial to it, as I am positive it is the best of the three of us.
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I’m proud of you! I thought I had someone lined up for Static Dreams… but haven’t heard again. This is the second narrator who’s bailed 😭 But I soooo want them as audiobooks.
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i just can’t do it. Notches needs more than one voice to work. Or one voice that is flexible. I don’t know of poetry would work. I considered getting a rig and recording them myself, but I don’t want to listen to myself reading myself.
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lmao – I can understand that… yeah, I’m not sure an audiobook of poetry would work well… but who knows..
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I said hell with it. I’m putting them all out in cuneiform sandstone. Shipping is a bitch, bit they look great.
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It’s all about looks… content? meh. secondary.
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This is why I am emotionally bereft. I have neither.
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HA! add comedian to the list, Mike.
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Congrats for your 4 thousandth poem. Carry on.
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Will do. Thank you.
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Congrats!!
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thanks Harley, a strange feat.
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Many of them were lovely and odes and sonnets and gorgeous and beautiful and also a little happy sounding. A tiny bit happy sounding?
You pain speaks volumes. I hope you will breathe without pain soon but know that it’s all had meaning and value to others in the meantime
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❤️ thank you EC. your support has meant the world to me. i am poor poet, as i don’t have the right words for it.
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