another day
streaked with frantic
panicked smears
my heartbeat sounds
a thunderous clanging
blocks away
from where i try
to recall exactly
how to breathe

too many eyes
staring at a human blur
seeing something
which isn’t real
an amorphous stain
ugliness oozing
across existence

whatever it is
you imagine me to be
the end result
will always
manage to disappoint
a half literate
would be poet
screaming in lowercase
unwanted and alone
a shuddering disaster
in panicked atrophy