if i could
see myself
could i find
what is missing
become enough
for once
rather than
kept a secret
left disposable
as has been
the case
timeandtimeagain
for as long
as i can recall

my heart is
addictive enough
to bring them back
but never enough
to make them
stay

a blind man
who grows more
repulsive the
closer you get
unaware of what
it is exactly
but unable to
argue with the
evidence presented