anxiousanxious
worrying knots into
my macrame soul
everything feels so
fucking everything
all of the goddamned
time it gets hard
to remember to breathe
inoutinoutinoutinout
my cells are starved
clinging to arterial
plaque jutting in
calcified odes to her
restricting blood flow
blossoming tiny spots
in tinted delusions
of internal distress

i need extracted from
the things keeping me
willfully distracted
as my body crashes on
the sharpened rocks of
love’s enduring disinterest