scrubbed
three layers off
in the shower
hoping to
uncover anything
more than what
has been reflected
in the quick glances
of a stranger glaring
in the mirror
lingering dregs
of disastrous dream
drifting down
an ever tightening
spiral so familiar
i cannot separate
delusion from
dreary depression

ulcerative truths
rampage throughout
the sleepy cathedral
where hyperbolic
meets the crashing
waves leading me
further and farther
from the light’s embrace
as the storms serpentine
seductively to strangle
the golden infusion
into an accumulation
of sodden disasters

i oscillate from
glacial to catastrophic
an electrified deluge
in stop motion antics
spreading disillusionment
in the frames between
her name like
hallucinogenic honey
in a sinus drip down
the back of my throat
a serene suffocation
in antithetical need