slept
too close
to the surface
where dream
swirls around
reality
unable to tell
in which state
i was floundering
as i staggered
forward toward
a familiar
sense of insecurity
ignoring the calls
of indistinct
childhood fears
in a shadowy world
slowly consuming
hazy daylight
colors running
downdowndown
the sodden facades
of faded homes
a vibrancy left
abandoned along
with lingering lies
of everything
being alright

picking scabs
a trail of
crusted reminders
to blossom behind
fields of fetidly
fragrant flowers
leaking lines of
pollinated pus
dripping down
to stain the soil
shedding cells
to propagate this
heinous hellscape
with a thousand
voices screaming
out every single
selfperceivedfault