once
i wanted
to be what
she was
looking for
but it wasn’t
in either of
our natures
to pretend
but i wish
it could’ve
been me whom
she wanted
anyway

as long as
i remind
myself it is
okay to only
dream
i know for
a few moments
before sleep
it isn’t so
badbeingalone

a solid enough
excuse for
laying in bed
allgoddamnedday
chasing dreamwhispers
downdowndown into
the edge of sleep
fingers trailing
somnambulantshivers
as her smile
leads me astray