i need more than

this

spinning

out

of

control

screaming at the walls

music

doesn’t calm the

savage

beast

not any longer

chemicals

meditation

mediation

exoneration

past sins

present indiscretions

need

company

closure

anything but this

nothing

falling

falling

losing grace

sputtering

out of

fuel

inability

consumed

by silence

send help

please

break the walls

with

my

fractured

mind

need an

editor

companion

lover

friend

hope

before it all

vanishes

feel my self

(ish)

fade

no

more

sweet dreams

done