i saw a rainbow out of the corner of my eye

but whenever i turned it stayed just out of view

made myself dizzy spinning like an idiot, never did see the damned prismatic event

saw a cat sitting on the roof of a car staring at me

i asked it if it saw the rainbow but it just licked it’s paw and cleaned it’s cute little face

i flipped it off and went inside

had a piece of glitter in the corner of my eye

i should have laughed

instead it was like a punch in the gut

there is no magic

no special things that make it all make sense, nothing to make it better, no magic lamp and three wishes

nothing

no magic

no secret way to mend a broken man

whispered prayers might as well be scraps of paper in the trash

when i was a kid i would repeat the spells in the books i read, if i could get the cadence down, move my hands just right

poof

i would go somewhere else

a happy place

one where i wasn’t me

didn’t work then

doesn’t work now

there is no magic in this world

no true love

no happily even afters

just an uncomfortable couch

an emptiness

for my trick i am going to disappear

poof