Written by m ennenbach

commiseration speech

there’s nothing sadder to me than the person that only posts inspirational quotes

deep down in that person is a need to believe things will get better

that they have to get better

that the life they find themselves wallowing in cannot be the end of it

there is a hurt there

a raw desperate need for belief

a primal scream for the anguish to end

all hidden by brave words they don’t truly mean

you just want to reach out and hug them and tell them it’s gonna be okay

it isn’t though

i mean really

is it

i’ve been surfing the bottom of the barrel for a while now

i chuckle at anything inspirational

i’ve allowed the world to carve great ruts in me that some bullshit mumbo jumbo just can’t hope to erode into a facsimile of functional

i have said it before

i’ll say it again

if it weren’t for quick wit and a talented tongue i would have been scraped off the road decades ago

i’m a laundry list of walking contradictions

i cry when i see kids with downs syndrome succeed

but i will spit some of the most vile shit into the aether as well

i’m aware of my place in the great scheme of things

it’s why i love ugly so much

keep your shakespeare and your byron

give me a nice twisted bizzaro book and a b movie

but again

i’ve accepted my place

i just feel bad for those who haven’t

and need to keep telling themselves they think they can

they think they can

all the way into the brick wall that says they can’t

the dreamers that think that prince charming isn’t the guy that roofied the princess in the first place

who just finds a sleeping princess and kisses them

that’s damn near rape my man

or has such a pronounced foot fetish that they scour the kingdom

everyone is entitled to their own kink but that going too far

all those fairy tales ever did was set false expectations in men and women alike

there is no fairy godmother to magic away misery

hell

there’s no pill either

being a good person doesn’t entitle you anything more than the piece of excrement selling his soul for fame

we live

we die

that’s it

anything else is filled with pain

so to all of you posting positive messages in the hopes it builds karma

ain’t nothing wrong with rolling about in the filth

i’ll join you

we can commiserate together

middle fingers in the air while johnny rotten spits bile out of the speakers

because to me

you’re already perfect

and beautiful

and if someone doesn’t agree

fuck them

right upside their stupid heads with a barb wire baseball bat

10 thoughts on “commiseration speech”

  4. I was drugged and raped by my ex! I have lost all of my loved ones,(passed away) with exception of my sons! I sat on and off the edge of life for a month with a rope to end my life! And through all that I still to this day find beauty in so much of this life,and people! I wouldn’t write about positivity if I had not known despair! We all have a story, and we each matter. But somewhere we have got to stop assuming. The people one would least suspect of ever having troubles or bad experiences…are the very people who would beg to differ! I fight hard and fairy tales do come true, the ones we dream for. I waited all of my life to buy a home and live in a peaceful mountain town. My fairy tale came true. Inspiration comes from living through Hell! How else could anyone inspire? Love, you said a mouthful. Peace.

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    1. Thank you. You are the living embodiment of what i was typing to say. You didn’t just let it destroy you. You grew from it. Accepted what you could fix and made the most of what you could not. It isn’t about what the world thinks. It is about what you take from it that matters. Finding the beauty that was always there. So many people just let it pile up and weight them down. If more people could find the strength within themselves and live the change they wish to see the world would be a better place to live in. The best part of being at rock bottom is knowing there is something more. Live your fairy tale not the one you were taught. Polish your own diamond with what you have available.

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      1. Thank you love! Thank you. I grew up upper middle class. Fantistic parents! Spoiled rotten, my doing. But my own mistakes have brought out the very best of me! I am much older now, and I am in love with so many things, and mostly people who are hurting. They have so much they need to say, to have someone to listen? I always knew that I had to own my own #@$# to heal. I want to leave this Earth with the heart I came in with. Everything you have stated, spot on! You are so right, it is not what the world thinks, but how wonderful it is to prove them wrong? And lead them to face themselves with the same courage they used to spout off at someone else! My life is filled with comfort and beautiful people! And the best part about is that we all have problems! 🙂 No one gets out of this life unscathed. Thank you very much for your reply. I do hope you keep posting these little treasure finds. Love.

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