i only let myself
fall in love
in two
very precise
conditions.

she must be

fictional
or
unattainable.

that way the end
is obvious
at the start.

but

i am a fool.

the fictional
is just a dream scenario.

i am not insane.

the unattainable
though.

i still let myself dream.

because
i am a goddamned idiot.

now
i only let myself fall in love
in dreams.

and

i don’t sleep much.