is it possible
to be a self hating
narcissist
to dislike the reflection
yet still
reflect the behaviors
of one who does
if you can see the signs
acknowledge
their existence
is it still possible
to throw yourself over
the side of the boat
in the pursuit
of yourself

it isn’t a question
of evil

but of
rational
self centered
self denial
self disgust

of all the failings seen

this was the plot twist
he never saw coming