blurred vision
aching head
pulse pounding
sense of dread

running full speed into the glass walls of this prison, on repeat until crack form in the sheer terror of this hell, falling as shards like razors rain through the sky around me, uncontrolled descent into a decent ending for a life of wasted moments

i cannot see through the tears, the fears, the reminders of the things i need so hastily cast aside in favor of flavors of the weak, the serendipitous spiralling out of control of a life spent without control, free falling, freely given oaths to empty promises

a car crash in reverse, a hearse with tinted windows and a you only live once but per sticker emblazoned with glitter and neon embellishments that make death seem like the only party worth throwing, the only dance worth attending, buy one get none free

blurred vision
aching head
pulse pounding
sense of dread