i wanted a
kitty
but the long term plans
made the idea
a poor one
then i was let go
from my position
as loved one
left with no plan
now a stifling
inability
to take care of myself
means
a kitty
is a bad idea

my world was
contingent
on a continental shift
but
the continental divide
proved
i was not
worth
the wait

so
as the three year plan
dissolved
halfway through
i find myself
thinking
it isn’t fair
to a kitty
to be trapped
with me
knowing
like everything else
it will just tire
of me
as well.

the worst spell
is that length of time
where i nearly
had everything
only for reality
to remind me
there was
no light
no move
no kitty
and no joy
to be held
for a stitched together
marionette
with a series
of snipped strings.