can you hear me?
am i doing this right?
be silence once for yes
twice
for no
it’s just that
i have been dealing
with a ton of shit
lately
some of it
wasn’t even my fault
who the fuck am i kidding?
it is all my fault
the straw
broke the camel
or
choked
a fucking turtle
or
was used in a nest
for still born
lizards
was that twice or once?
hello?
are you out there?
do these pleas
for an ending
to this
everything
go unheard
euthanize
my heart
before
i take its life
cauterize
my brain
where her kisses
once soothed
the savage emptiness
am i speaking out loud
or
just screaming
in the vacant eyes
of her emotional withdrawal
that left my
account
in arrears
as i fall
into
the red of another
investment
that paid out
in mothballs
and
too many
shed tears
maybe
i will try back
later
maybe
if not
tell her
i love her