someone needs to
write a self help
book for those of us
that can’t seem to
help ourselves

one that tells us
it is perfectly okay
to not be anywhere
close to okay

that it is alright
to be locked up
with anxiety and sorrow
because sometimes
we are going to be
incapable of anything else

the normal rules
don’t apply to those
born abnormal
if you get sucked
into the past
this too shall pass
even if it doesn’t feel
like it ever will

i can always tell
when i am bottomed out
because i browse
self help books
sadly realizing that
none of it can help
someone as broken as me
and that does nothing
but make it all feel worse