frictionally

all of my actions
are inconsequential
my unhappiness
affects no one
my retreating from
losing situations
go largely unnoticed
my guts spilled out
are casually yet
proudly ignored
and still i continue on
a perpetual motion machine
unaffected by
the entropic friction
in this universal disdain
culpable to my own
fleeting sparks of
faltering necessities

i didn’t say
good bye
because everything else
i said went to
unread messages
and the thought
of announcing my intent
to vanish
when i never really
seemed to exist
was a step too far
maybe part of me
hoped my absence
would be noted
even as i knew
i wasn’t ever truly
there to begin with

i am no escapist fantasy
because you cannot
free yourself from
this undulating disaster
fully intact
i leave scars
in kiss marks
far deeper than
the flesh can ever
hope to show
a stain that goes
into your very soul
leaving us both
irreversibly changed
you grow heavier from my
accumulated sorrows
and i grow lesser
as you pull away
with bits of my heart
still glistening
between your perfect teeth

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