maybe i have a problem letting go of the sadness because the cause of the sadness was what had made me feel happy

if i let go of the sad i let go of the happy as well

and in the desperate clinging to those few precious moments of joy i have to hold even tighter to the sorrow

or maybe i am just insane

a toss up really

i need to have a new joy to cling to and bury the sad, not forget the old but embrace it is gone

let the memories shine as they were instead of ruin the present

the past is the past and the future is what we make of it

or some other silly shit